Rich had a hole where there should have been snips and snails and puppy dog tails. He didn’t care about things the way other kids did. He didn’t cry when he was hurt. When someone else got hurt, he’d laugh or, more commonly, study them like a scientist with a rat. If there was an accident, he’d call for help a little late or not at all. He’d know the cat was locked in the garage, or that the gate was open and Lena could wander out into the street, and he wouldn’t tell anyone.
Charlie’s mom didn’t like him playing with Rich, and Ricky’s wouldn’t let him stay for sleepovers if Rich was going to be there. They didn’t even want their kids in the same house with him.
How could he have forgotten that? How could he have forgotten eleven years of his life?
Because Rich became the big brother Dylan needed. Rich became the best part of Dylan’s confused, insane world. He came to see him, went to bat for him at Drummond. Dylan- Marshall -had forgotten his brother had ever been any other way. Maybe the loss of his family changed Rich on some fundamental level.
Three murders and Rich is a nice guy?
A damned thin silver lining.
Marshall remembered that Rich-the pre-Drummond Rich-could be funny, even fun, but when the littler kids hung out with him, things had a way of going sour.
Other than the usual punches in the arm or noogies, Rich didn’t hurt them. It was just that, when Rich was around, they got hurt. Charlie was nearly killed when Rich dared him to dive off the railroad bridge when the water was low. Charlie was Rich’s easiest patsy because he was always out to prove what a tough guy he was.
Nine, and we’re tough guys.
Ricky had a thing about snakes, a phobia, Marshall knew now. Then it was just Ricky being a sissy. Rich waited until they were crossing a log that had fallen over a ravine, then he’d tossed Ricky a water snake he’d been carrying in his pocket.
“Catch!” Marshall could hear him yell. A gleeful, boyish prank. Except that Ricky had fallen twenty-three feet and busted his right ankle and sprained his shoulder.
Rich facilitated, Marshall realized. Clumsy kids were led on tricky climbs. Sensitive kids were told scary stories. Fat kids were stuffed, bullies egged on, shy kids humiliated, evil kids taken to new heights.
Rich was shameless. Every now and then he’d get caught in lies or petty cruelties. If the punishment was severe, he was resentful; if it was mild, he was contemptuous. He was never sorry. He’d go through the motions if it was to his benefit, but he mocked them behind his folks’ backs. He never regretted what he did.
Marshall vaguely remembered starting to sense that Rich’s behavior wasn’t quite normal, but then his parents and little sister died, and he’d gone into Drummond, where Rich was the norm for big brothers, and fathers, and uncles.
Then the new Rich, Richard, appeared.
Why had his brother changed so suddenly? Had a triple murder finally made Dylan interesting enough to bother with?
When Charlie and Ricky had been hurt, it was Dylan who’d finally run for help. Rich had just watched them crying and struggling. Charlie might have drowned outright if Dylan hadn’t jumped in after him. He’d lost two toenails on a rock that time.
Was Rich-Richard-watching him in Drummond?
Rich had been one mean son of a bitch when he was little. Reality shifted, and Marshall knew, knew, he’d been a good kid, a nice kid, a real boy.
Maybe Dylan didn’t do it.
Maybe he didn’t do it.
Marshall wanted to laugh, but there was no air. He’d had that fantasy often enough. Like in The Fugitive-they’d find the one-armed man who killed his family.
“Get a grip,” he whispered to himself. “You are most assuredly losing it. Jesus. Breathe.” A thousand and more mornings, he’d opened his eyes, and the first thing he’d done was check his hands to see if they were clean of his crimes.
Little boys with clean hands didn’t wake up with DNA evidence all over them.
But back then there’d been no DNA evidence. No way to test whose blood it was.
Maybe it had only been Rich’s from the cut on his leg, none from Dad, or Mom, or Lena. “Bullshit,” Marshall said.
He’d been the only whole person left in the house. His pajamas were stained red. Rich had the cut leg and the eyewitness account; Rich had Vondra for an alibi. Dylan had the axe, Mack the Giant, the public outrage.
Slam.
Dunk.
Thirteen and a half.
36
Polly nosed the Volvo into the azaleas surrounding the pullout in City Park. Danny had told her to stay in the car with the doors locked but she couldn’t. For hours she had been embalmed in the air-conditioned exhalations of a lifetime’s cigarette smoke, the invisible effluvia of twisted dreams settling out of the stale air onto her hair and skin. She had to move and breathe.
It wasn’t long until dawn but the temperature was in the seventies. Polly drew the scented air into her lungs and rubbed the damp, like a balm, into her neck. Forgetting for a blessed moment the trials of the night, she unbuttoned the top two buttons of her blouse and let the soothing reality of the natural world drift under the wilted fabric. Mosquitoes left her alone. Whatever had settled out of the atmosphere in the Woman in Red’s apartment made Polly unpalatable to even the greediest.
A quarter of an hour dragged by and Danny did not come. Unwilling to get back into the car, she paced. The gravel crunching beneath her feet was jarringly loud, stilling the twitters and scuffles of the small creatures who love darkness.
Her right ankle and her calves ached. Her nails were ragged and torn. The clothing that had started out so fresh was filthy. A man who might have been her husband had attacked her in the house of a dead woman. Her brother-in-law told her not to go home because her husband had gone insane.
Suddenly Polly was too tired to stand.
Fifteen yards from the Volvo lay a fallen oak. A limb as big around as the trunk of many adult trees ran in a gentle rollercoaster along the ground.
Polly sat on it, feet dangling like a child’s. Often, when she was out of doors and alone after sunset, she felt like a child. When she was a girl, darkness was her friend, her cloak of invisibility when ogres walked the Earth.
Trouble would start, and she would go out the small trap door in the back bedroom that let into a luggage compartment under the trailer house. From there, she would run across the open space-the “lawn” her mother called it, where the weeds were kept mowed some of the time-and hide in a hollow at the roots of a fallen tree. Her hiding place was framed on three sides by the rotting trunk of the hardwood.
In the Mississippi woods, there must have been fire ants and red bugs, mosquitoes and ticks, but Polly didn’t remember being bitten. She remembered feeling safe, invisible, and invulnerable. She was close enough to the trailer she could hear the shouting but it sounded far away, in some other little girl’s reality. That’s what the past twenty hours felt like. Those terrible things had happened, but they had happened to someone else a long time ago. For the moment, she was safe, invisible in the arms of a night tree.
Note by note, the Pinteresque concert of the night returned: a peeper, then ten, a night bird, the whispered timpani of claws in the undergrowth.
Time passing at its inimitable petty pace.
Hypnotized by the warmth and the living quiet, she let her thoughts float up from the deep.
Marshall had “gone berserk,” Danny said.
Berserk? Berserker rage? Chopping through walls with the axe? Crockery off the balcony? Raping and pillaging from a Viking’s longboat?
“Berserk,” Danny’d said.
Polly saw her husband cleaning a bloodstained axe. She had found a murdered woman, a woman who knew secrets Polly had shared only with him.