IN THE CAR, heading for kindergarten, Fanny seated beside him with her lunch box and a tiny flexible Disney character on her lap, “Now we’re on the peaks of Tunisia, making for the wee seaweed-green beach,” and she says, “What do you mean? It’s freezing today,” and he says, “Imagination, you gotta try using it,” and she says, “Are we late for school?” and he says, “We’re going down a big hill, that’s all, and on time, and after coasting on the crest of it, or cresting on the coast of it — okay, the first one, you like accuracy, one tap for the brake, two taps for a little squeeze,” and taps her shoulder twice, a private signal between them, and she smiles and squeezes his arm, and he says, “What a babe,” when he realizes the brake tap didn’t slow the car any, and he taps it again, thinking maybe the first tap was too light, and it’s not slowing but going faster, and he jams his foot down and nothing happens, and he says, “Oh, shit, the brakes, they’re not working, what do I do?” and she screams and he yells, “Put your foot down — your voice — shut up!” and thinks, Emergency brake, and puts his foot on it and the car screeches and starts stopping, and he thinks, Curb, and steers the car right and goes over the curb — when he hoped it might stop the front wheels — and into the bushes and through about twenty feet of them, car slowing all the time, before a thin tree stops it. He looks at her. She’s crying but all right, no cuts or blood, window’s intact, no broken glass, and he says, “You didn’t bang your head or any part when we were stopping, did you?” and she shakes her head, and he says, “Oh, God, now I can cry too,” and starts crying and continues to for a minute or more, hands over his face, when she taps his shoulder and he doesn’t respond and she squeezes his arm twice and he thinks, The signal? and looks up, thinking what a crazy time for her to want to play their game, for when she squeezes him first he’s supposed to tap his foot on something twice as many times as she squeezed him — he doesn’t know how they came to that ratio, maybe their heights — and she says, “It’s over, Daddy, car’s stopped. If it won’t work now, can you walk me to school? I’ll be late,” and he says, “The engine,” and turns it off and has her come out his door because hers is blocked by bushes.
HIS WIFE’S GIVING her a bath, he takes pictures of the two of them in the tub; then she says, “I’d like to shampoo but not in the tub with her; can you look after her till I come back or, if she wants to, just get her out and dry her?” and he puts down the camera, sits on the tub ledge, and his wife steps out, dries herself, and goes down the hallway to the other bathroom, and he says to Fanny, “Mommy wash you good or are you just in here for playing?” and she says, “Come in to play with me,” and he says, “I’d have to take off my clothes and I don’t want to. Anyway, I don’t like going into dirty water. I like for my water to start out clean and then for me to dirty it. Or if I’m giving you a bath but am in the tub with you from the beginning, then for us to make it dirty and soapy together,” when the phone rings, he yells “Sally, you in the shower yet?” and she says, “I’m on the toilet; let it ring,” and he thinks how he hates to let a phone ring — who knows who it can be, something about his mother or something important concerning work? — when there’s a big splash behind him — he’s been facing the door since the phone rang — and he turns around and she’s under the water, only her feet above it, and he shoves his hands in, water’s murky, he can’t see her, and quickly feels around and gets her under the arms and jerks her out and holds her up so he can see her face, and her head’s slumped and her face has the look of a drowned person, or what he’d think would be one, water running out of her mouth and nose, the eyes looking lifeless, and he holds her upside down over his shoulder and slaps her back and she coughs and he slaps it again and says, “Cough, cough some more,” and she chokes and he holds her right-end-up in front of him again and she spits more water out and he says, “You okay? Speak to me,” and the shower in the other bathroom’s going and she starts screaming and he says, “Jesus, you gave me a scare, what were you doing? Shh, shh, it’s all right, you’ll be okay now,” and hugs her to his chest till she’s only sobbing quietly. “And please, sweetheart, don’t tell your mother”—sitting her on the toilet seat cover and drying her body with a towel—“if you do she’ll never want to leave you alone with me anymore; you hear me, you hear?” and she nods, and he dries as much of her hair as he can and powders her and puts her bathrobe on her, she sobbing all the time. “What’s the matter?” his wife says, standing at the door, hair wrapped in a towel. “And how’d you get your clothes so wet?” and he says, “Splashing … Fanny. And boy, that was a speedy shampoo. How’d you do it so fast?” and she says, “Was it faster than usual? Didn’t realize. I guess I didn’t think you’d want to be left with her so long; it can be boring if you’re not in there splashing with her. Why’s she crying? What’s wrong, dearest?” and he says, “Maybe she was in there too long and the water got cold, or the air was when she got out,” and lifts the rubber disk off the tub drain — regular stopper doesn’t work — and the water goes. “I fell in,” Fanny says to her, and he says, “Oh, just a little, and maybe that’s what the crying is, but I always had her hand.”