POPSICLE STICKS to her tongue; she gags, points to it; he says, “You can’t get it off?” and she shakes her head, and he says, “Pull gently, not hard, you don’t want to rip something,” and she tries but it doesn’t come off, and he says, “Wiggle it a little,” and she shakes her head and tears are welling and she looks panicky and is gagging again, and he says, “Jesus, what do I do?” and, to the vendor who sold it from a cart in the park, “What do you do in a situation like this?” and the man looks as if he doesn’t understand, and Gould points to her and says, “Her tongue, the Popsicle’s stuck to her tongue and she can’t get it off,” and the man says, “Dry ice, the dry ice,” and raises his arms as if he doesn’t know what to do either; then, after pointing to his own tongue and then inside his mouth, speaks a foreign language Gould’s never heard before or can’t place, and he says, “Speak English, English, she’s gagging … choking,” and makes choking sounds and points to her, and the man says, “No can, don’t know, first time, ice cream, that’s all … police, maybe police, go to police,” and Fanny’s gagging and crying and looks at him as if to say, Do something, Daddy, or I’ll die, and he thinks she could choke to death if he doesn’t get it off her tongue in the next minute, and the only way he can think of is to pull if not rip it off and that’ll hurt like hell for her, and puts his fingers on her hand that’s holding the stick; she screams in pain, and he says, “Oh, God, what else can I do, sweetheart?” and slides her fingers off the stick, grabs the Popsicle part, and pulls it off her tongue and quickly throws it on the grass. Part of the skin or whatever it is of the tongue came off with it, and she’s screaming loud as he’s ever heard her, and he gets on his knees and holds her and says, “It’s all right now, darling, it’s off, it’s off,” and pats her lips with his hanky where some blood’s dribbling out, and a woman passing by says, “What happened to the little darling, she fall?” and he says, “She got a Popsicle stuck to her tongue — the dry ice, it must’ve been — but was gagging and I had to pull it off and some skin came with it,” pointing to where he threw it, and the woman says, “You should have put warm water on the Popsicle, that would have dissolved the ice,” and he says, “Where would I get the water? I’d have to walk her out of the park to Columbus, and that’s a good ten minutes from here and she could’ve choked in that time. But now what do I do about the skin and her tongue?” patting her lips again, and the woman says, “There’s a refreshment gazebo right down this path; they sell coffee, so they must have warm water. But the best thing for it now — and you’ll think me mad but it’s what I’d do for one of mine; after all, what you first want to do is get rid of her pain — is have her lick a Popsicle or frozen fruit bar, but one free of dry ice. That’ll anesthetize it,” and he says, “Which is better?” and she says, “Either, though plain ice, if he has it, would be simpler and, probably for her sake, best,” and he asks the man, “You have any regular ice?” and the man shakes his head he doesn’t understand, and he says, “Ice, like in a drink,” and curls his hand as if he’s holding a glass and then makes as if he’s drinking from it, “Ice, ice, as in a glass with soda,” and the man says, “No that ice, only dry,” and he asks him for a fruit bar, and the man says, “What kind?” and he says, “Any,” looks at the pictures of the flavors on the stand and says, “Lemon,” and pulls out his wallet to pay for it — the man waves no with his hands — wipes the fruit bar on his shirt till all the white icelike part is off, blows on it till the side he’s blowing on and wants her to put her tongue to looks wet, and says to her, “Here, touch this to the sore part of your tongue, sweetheart…. Fanny, calm down a moment, you have to stop crying — I know how much it hurts but both this woman and I and the man here think it’ll make your tongue feel better and take away the pain,” and holds it up to her mouth and she knocks it out of his hand and resumes screaming.
HE’S LET INTO his in-laws’ apartment (always the same way: one of them looks through the peephole, then unlocks three or four locks and unfastens the bolt and chain), says, “So, how’d it go?” and his father-in-law says, “We had a terrific time together, didn’t we? … Fanny? Where is she? She was just behind me, wanted to greet you at the door. Fanny, come, please, your father’s here.… Well, this is a mystery,” and Gould looks around and down the narrow side hall to the kitchen and sees the window’s half open and says, “Excuse me, but are all the windows opened high like that? I thought I asked you only to open them on top and out of her reach and close them at the bottom to a few inches,” and his father-in-law says, “Oh, well,” and looks sheepish about it, “from now on we will; I can understand your concern,” and Gould runs around the apartment; his mother-in-law’s office window is open a foot, bedroom window’s closed, but the dining room windows are open at the bottom a foot and a half. “Fanny, no jokes on me now, will you please come out?” and his father-in-law says, “Don’t worry, she didn’t fall out; she’s a smart girl, I’m sure she’s only hiding,” and Gould runs to the living room, only room left in the apartment — except for the two bathrooms and there the windows are small, tough to raise, and pretty high, though she could step on the toilet seats to reach them — and sees her behind the sheer floor-length curtain climbing up to a window opened about two feet, one knee on the sill, other foot tangled in the end of the curtain but leaving the floor, and he thinks, I’ll never reach her in time, and doesn’t know if this’ll stop her or scare her where she’ll fall forward instead of back but shouts, “Fanny, come down!” and she stops in mid-position and turns her head to him and smiles, and he says, walking to her, “The window’s open, my darling, don’t you see that? You know what Daddy’s said about that. To stay away from open windows, never climb up to them, and if you see one in an apartment or house you’re in, to ask an older person to shut it. So come away from it immediately — get down, right now!” and she steps down, seems as if she’s about to cry, and he says, “No, don’t cry, it isn’t your fault and I’m not angry,” and takes her hands, kisses them, and presses her face to his belly, and says to his father-in-law, “Jesus, Phil, why do I even bother? Listen, please, and no offense — but you got to, you got to, for you saw what she can do,” and Phil says, “I’m truly sorry, it got hot; I thought it was too early in the spring to use the air conditioners and we hadn’t had them serviced yet this year…. I didn’t think what I was doing, that’s all — never again,” and she looks up at Gould and says, “Are you mad at Grandpa?” and he says, “No, why would I be? You don’t get mad at people older than you — no, that’s not true — but your grandpa’s the nicest guy in the world, much nicer than me, so I’d never get mad at him,” and squeezes Phil’s shoulder.
SWIVELS AROUND, SHE’S not there, looks around and there are hundreds of people, kids and adults, woman carrying two small dogs, walking all around him, but he doesn’t see her, scans the area again; where the hell could she be? “Dammit,” he says, “doesn’t she know better?” Dashes into the store they just came out of and quickly looks around—“Anything I can do for you, sir?”—and he says, “My girl, this high,” and puts out his hand to show how tall, “blondish hair … well, blond, almost bright blond, and I was just in here with her and thought she came out with me,” and the man says, “Oh, they can get away from you very fast, can’t they,” and he says, “Yes, but did you see her, long hair hanging past her shoulders — combed down, kind of wavy — and about that high”—his hand out again—“and very pretty?” and the man says, “I don’t remember you from before, did I take care of you?” and he says, “No, we were just browsing; in fact, she dragged me in,” and looks around the store again, man’s saying something to him, but he runs out and stands about twenty feet in front of the store and starting from the last store to his left before the escalators makes a complete sweep of the area and then, a little faster, sweeps back again, then turns around and does the same kind of sweep of all the stores there and the little public rest section, thinking, What the fuck, where is she? Goddamn kid, why’s she always running off like this? Man, when I find her I’ll really let her have it! and goes inside the first store to the left of the one he was just in, a pipe and cigar shop, though he doesn’t think she’d ever go there — the tobacco smells, but he’s being thorough — looks quickly around and then goes into the next three stores to the left and then the stores to the right of the one they were in, five of them — in a large one, with lots of aisles, dresses, and displays concealing most of the place, he says loudly, “Fanny, are you there? Fanny?”—and then outside in the public walking area he thinks, How far could she have wandered off? Maybe some guy grabbed or enticed her and is putting her into his car now, or just now taking her out of one of the ground-floor doors and walking with her to his car in the lot, or just approaching one of those doors and walking her somewhere, maybe to some out-of-the-way spot like where the garbage trucks pick up most of the refuse here, when he remembers the large square pool they passed in the center of the mall under the glass rotunda at the end of the long corridor they came in; she wanted to stop there and look at the fish in it, and he said, “Later, I came in for something, first we do the shopping; then if we have time we do the snacking and fun,” and runs to it, about three hundred feet away, keeping an eye out for her as he runs, and she’s sitting on a little wall around the pool and looking at the water, probably the fish inside, and walks the rest of the way to her. Jesus, does she ever get to me sometimes, he thinks, and says, “Fanny,” and she continues looking at the pool, hands folded on top of her purse on her lap — he forgot the purse, which he also would have mentioned to the man in his description of her — and he says, “Fanny, listen,” and she turns her head to him and says, “The fishies are so big here, can we take one of them home?” “From here? To home?” He sits beside her; what’s he going to do, teach her another lesson? He can talk about it in the car. “Don’t wander off. You wander off and it scares me. You don’t understand what can happen to you. You can be stolen. I hate telling you that, but you can. You’re beautiful, and little girls and boys are sometimes stolen by horrible men, and the more beautiful ones the most.” He said that to her once and she said, “By women too. At school I learned that,” and he said, “Your teacher told you?” and she said, “A policeman at assembly came in,” and he said, “So, he’s right,” and she said, “The policeman was a woman with a gun,” and he said, “Then she’s a policewoman, and she was right, but kids are stolen mostly by men.” So he sits with her and says, “Not that we can take one — the mall owns them all and we’d get stopped by a guard and maybe fined lots of money and perhaps even barred for life; the last thing I said’s an exaggeration — but which fish do you like best and would take home if you could?” and she says, “A big orange and black one with stripes; it was here before but now it’s gone.”