“She’s not a burden,” said Sasha. “All she’s doing is looking for herself.”
“She should be looking for a husband,” retorted Todd.
“Possibly,” said Sasha. “But then, it’s not easy these days. These young men one meets don’t seem to be thinking of marriage.”
Todd shook his head. “Yet marriages take place. Look at the back of Scottish Field. What do you see? Wedding photographs.
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Nice fellows in their kilts getting married in places like Stirling and Balfron.”
Sasha sighed. What her husband said was true. Such a world existed – it had certainly existed in their time – but their own daughter seemed not to be part of it. Was there anything wrong with her, she wondered. There had been no signs of anything like that – no unsuitable friends with short-cropped hair and a tendency to wear rather inelegant jackets – so at least that was not the problem. Thank heavens they did not have to face the problem faced by friends in the Braids whose daughter, an otherwise reasonable girl, had brought home a female welder. What did one talk to a female welder about, Sasha wondered. Presumably there was something one could say, but she had no idea what it might be.
Now, in the tea-room at Jenners, scene, over so many years, of such rich exchanges of gossip, Sasha fixed Lizzie with the maternal gaze to which her daughter was so accustomed.
“You’re looking thin,” Sasha said. “You’re not on one of those faddish diets, are you? Really, the damage those people do! Doctor what’s-his-name, and people like that. I’m not suggesting that one should over-eat, but one wants to have something to cover one’s poor skeleton.”
She pushed the plate of iced cakes over the table towards her daughter.
Lizzie pushed them away. “No thanks. And I don’t think I’m looking particularly thin. In fact, I’d say I’m about the right weight for my height.”
Sasha raised an eyebrow. Lizzie was flat-chested in her view, and a judicious coating of plumpness might help in that respect.
But of course she could never raise the issue with her daughter, just as she could say nothing about the dowdy clothes and the lack of make-up.
Taking a cake, Sasha cut it in half. Marzipan: her favourite.
Battenberg cakes were hard to beat, particularly when dissected along the squares; she had little time for chocolate cake – sticky, amorphous, and over-sweet substance that it was.
“You know,” she said, discreetly licking at her fingers, “you could do rather more with yourself than you do. I’m not being 100
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critical, of course. Not at all. I just think that if you paid a little bit more attention to your clothes . . .”
“And my face,” interjected Lizzie. “Maybe I should do something about my face.”
“There’s nothing wrong with your face,” said Sasha. “I said nothing about your face. You have a very nice face. I’ve got nothing against your face.”
“In fact,” said Lizzie, “people say that I look quite like you.
In the face, that is.”
Sasha picked up the second half of her cake and examined it closely. “Do they?” she said. “Well, isn’t that nice? Not that I see it myself, but perhaps others do. Surprising, though.”
“You don’t sound very enthusiastic,” said Lizzie.
Sasha laughed lightly. “Now,” she said, “that’s enough about faces. I’ve got something much more important to talk to you about.”
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“Something important?” asked Lizzie. There was doubt in her voice: what was important to her mother was usually rather unimportant to her.
“Very,” said Sasha, glancing about her, as if those at neighbouring tables might eavesdrop on some great disclosure. “You will have heard that the ball is coming up. Soon.”
“The ball?”
“You know,” said Sasha. “The Conservative ball. The South Edinburgh Conservative Ball.”
Lizzie looked bored. “Oh, that one. That’s nice. You’ll be going, I take it. I hope that you enjoy yourselves.”
“We shall,” said Sasha, firmly. “And we’d very much appreciate it if you would come in our party. Both Daddy and I. We’d both appreciate it. Very much.” She fixed her daughter with a stare as she spoke. A message was being communicated.
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Lizzie looked at her mother. She was so sad, she thought. Imagine living a life in which the highlight of one’s existence was a political ball. How sad. “Depends,” she said. “Depends when it is.”
“Next week,” said Sasha. “I know I haven’t given you much notice, but it’s next Friday, at the Braid Hills Hotel. It’s such a nice place for it.”
Lizzie pursed her lips. She was in a difficult situation. She did not want to go to the ball, but she was realistic enough to understand her position. Her parents paid her rent and gave her an allowance. She accepted this, in spite of her pride, and she understood that in return there were a few duties that she had to discharge. Attendance at the Conservative Ball had always been one of these. This was what her mother’s look meant.
“All right,” she said. “I’ll come.”
Sasha looked relieved. “That will be very nice.” She picked up her table napkin – paper! – and removed a crumb of marzipan from the edge of her lower lip. She would have liked to have licked her lips, and would have done so at home, but she couldn’t in town. “We’ll make up a small party. Daddy’s arranged that.”
Lizzie, who had been looking out of the window, turned to face her mother. “A party?”
Sasha smiled. “Yes, of course. A small party. Just the three of us and . . .”
“That’s fine. The three of us. That’s fine.”
“And a fourth.”
Lizzie said nothing. She tried to meet her mother’s gaze, but Sasha looked away.
“A young man,” said Sasha. “A very charming young man from the office. He’s called Bruce. We thought it would be a good idea to ask him to join us.”
Lizzie sighed. “Why? Why can’t we just go by ourselves?”
Sasha leaned forward conspiratorially. “Because there’s hardly anybody going,” she whispered. “Nobody has bought a ticket –
or virtually nobody.”
Lizzie looked at her mother in frank astonishment. “Nobody?”
“Yes,” said Sasha. “Even the people on the committee have found some excuse or other. It’s appalling.”
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“Well, then, why don’t you cancel it? Surely that would be simplest?”
Sasha shook her head. “No, it’s not going to be cancelled.
Imagine if people heard about that. We’d be the laughing stock.
The ball is going ahead. Your father has made up his mind.”
Lizzie thought for a moment. “And Bruce? What about him?”
Sasha answered quickly. “Very charming. A good-looking young man too. He lives down in the New Town somewhere.”
She paused, and then added: “Unattached.”
For a moment there was a silence. Then Lizzie laughed. “So,”
she said. “So.”
“Yes,” said Sasha. “So. And it’s about time, if I may say so, that you started to think of finding a suitable man. It’s all very well enjoying yourself, but you can’t leave it too late.”
Lizzie closed her eyes. “I’m on the shelf, am I?”
Sasha picked up her coffee and took a sip. She would remain calm in this conversation; she was determined about that. “You know very well what I’m talking about. There are some people who just miss the bus. You may think that you’ve got plenty of time, but you haven’t. The years go by. Then you suddenly realise that you’re thirty-something and the men who are interested in getting married aren’t interested in you any more – they’re interested in girls in their mid-twenties. Oh yes, you may laugh, but that’s the truth of the matter. If you want a husband, don’t drag your feet – just don’t drag your feet.”