“They’re all coming at once. Arriving together at the Potsdamer station.” Magda had chosen one of her more conservative print dresses with a pink bow at the modest neckline. Being with four Hitler doubles demanded decorum. However, when the pink bow was removed—and it was arranged to be removed easily—there was ample cleavage ready for exposure. Magda creamed the sides of her breasts so that in the manner of a ski lift, one’s hand could glide easily to the summit house.
“Will it cause riots?” I wanted to know. “Four Führer doubles stepping off the train?”
“They’re in disguise,” Magda explained.
“Have they reverted back to the people they really are?”
“Nein. How ridiculous. What would be the sense of going backwards?” Magda is always annoyed at my Bavarian practicality.
“Who are they pretending to be when they get off the train? I asked.
“Announcers for Radio-Abwehr. With their hair and mustaches dyed red.”
“All four of them?”
“Each with a different shade. Two are wearing lifts in their shoes, two are wearing no shoes at all—just slippers to appear short. All this for me.” Magda lightly touched the bow at her neckline. I could tell she was anxious to be rid of it. “They will convert back to Führer doubles the moment we enter our hotel room.”
“Does the Führer know you’re entertaining his doubles?”
“He’s happy to have them rewarded with the company of a good German woman. But he reminded me they’re still on duty. I must be aware of that at all times. At any moment one could… could…” Her frown and sputtering words made clear that losing one of the four Führers at a particular summit moment would be devastating.
“Where were they when that awful farmer tossed a hatchet at our Führer?”
“They were not sent for at that time and are very remorseful about not being there.”
“Especially since the Führer survived, as a double would have,” I said. “And the cherries?”
“For them, the dear ones. Fresh fruit from my summer home.” Cherry juice stained her fingers making delicate ruby swirls.
Magda did meet Sepp, Ewald, Jochen, and Baldur at the Potsdamer Station. The train was on time. They went directly to the Hotel Klomser where to her horror Magda found all four men impotent.
They lined up before her in bed. Four naked bodies with their poor putsches hanging down like old soggy fruit. It was so distressing that at first Magda felt they should be dismissed from their honor. Gradually she realized that perhaps they were more valuable this way—without distractions. Not that they cared for men, either. They just didn’t seem to care for anything but being a Führer double.
She and the four men sat on the hotel bed and ate cherries, the pink bow at her neck never disturbed. She felt unduly deprived having prepared herself with no underwear. There’s something sad about a woman with no underwear reduced to eating cherries.
When she returned home, husband Josef was away in Dresden. There was nothing to do but rub against the pointed frame edges of 32 Dürer sketches Josef had obtained from Poland. Dürer, Magda said happily, was not impotent.
19
NO, MAGDA IS NOT MY RIVAL. Nor are all the fat wives of his generals who coo over him, bring him dishes of cookies and play the piano for him after dinner. And I understand and accept his passion for Germany. I’m mostly jealous of Blondi.
Bormann gave Blondi to Adi. Why, why didn’t I give Adi a dog, a polite dog that would know its place, a mutt that didn’t try to imitate Adi’s speeches by rolling her eyes in wonder and dilating her snout.
A mutt that didn’t put paws over her ears, especially when I’m talking. And she lounges on the map table and is so lazy that Adi has to pick her up like a brick and move her out of the way.
Journalists wrote about Blondi. Sonnets and poems were composed about her, letters from various kennels arrived, tributes from breeders. Philosophical notes on German shepherds appeared in the daily paper. Once a woman wrote to ask if she could baptize her daughter “Blondi.” Bormann replied to such correspondence by sending glossy pictures of the Führer walking with Blondi at his side.
Having my two adorable little Scotties, Negus and Stasi, I certainly don’t dislike dogs. I had pets as a child—lizards, cats, a bird. And I was fond of my uncle’s pony that he used for his cart to haul lumber. I get along fine with Blondi. I have to. She has no reason to be jealous of me. She has Adi whenever she wants even while sleeping and loudly hiccupping at the foot of his bed every night.
“Adi, why can’t I sleep at the foot of your bed?” I was teasing, but as strange as it sounds, I’d really love to.
“Blondi is not only my watchdog, her higher temperature keeps my feet warm.”
“I think I could achieve that myself.”
Adi looks at me annoyed. With Blondi, there is no sarcasm. “You would do well to study her discipline.”
“I’m disciplined. Don’t I cut your toenails once a week?”
“You are saving them?” he asks earnestly.
“In a bank. On your side table. You know that.”
“Yes. Yes. Make sure you don’t default.”
“I won’t. I’m faithful as an old dog.”
Arching an eyebrow, he looks at me to observe even the slightest sign of mockery. He won’t stand for that. Blondi is a friend more valuable to him now that his generals are so erratic.
“Make sure your hands are clean.”
“Ja.” I scrub my hands with soap and alcohol as he’s fearful of germs and even more concerned about an epidemic in the Bunker. Although we don’t have proper bathtubs, we have plenty of water.
“And be very sterile with Blondi’s pups, too.”
“Ja. I don’t wish to wear fleas.”
Adi just stared sternly at me, not wanting to speak and acknowledge my disrespect.
Blondi had five babies in March. After giving birth, she began licking her two closest tits and drinking her own milk along with the pups. I’m not looking forward to nurturing five more silly creatures.
Adi asked Magda and me to put the infant pups between our breasts as it’s the fastest and easiest way to keep the little ones warm after birth. Cradled in our bras, they nestled and nipped restlessly like moving jaws. When I was not available, Magda could accommodate all five. As the five sucked on her one night, the sight and sounds of this baby orgy got Josef amorous. He jumped in to join the pups and even extended other delights to them saying their coyote ancestry was very appealing.
Favorite of the litter, Wolf, lets no one touch him except Adi. Wolf could be my second rival. With the war coming to an end, with the Russians circling us, I know Wolf will probably never grow up and that’s some consolation. Wolfie was allowed to play one day up above at the Bunker entrance and was wounded by flying glass. Adi extracted each sliver himself with a tweezers. Afterward, he made everybody put resin on their shoes so we wouldn’t skid and slide on the floor and disturb Wolfie’s naps.
Blondi talks. Or so Adi says. After the Ardennes when he was so depressed, he turned to Blondi more and more. Adi moves her lips, opening and closing them with his fingers and rewarding her with sweet bits of butterkuchen and spinatpudding. She’d growclass="underline" “Grrrr… kl… grrrr… kl… ah… grrrrr.” As she now spoke Adi’s mother’s name, Blondi became two loves in one, Klara and Blondi—connected with one tail. Hanging by a thread from that tail is me.