“THIS IS THE WARDEN. IT’S NINE-THIRTY. GOT THAT?”
“Yes, Warden,” the guard answered.
“Now we can talk,” the warden said, smiling at Feldman.
“The rules are for me,” Feldman said. “Is that it?”
“The rules are for everybody. Somebody has to make them up,” he said quietly.
Feldman wondered if it was an apology. He looked at the warden and knew it wasn’t. He thought of the year ahead, of the rules. He was lonely. What he missed, he supposed, was the comfort of his old indifference when nothing counted and madness was all there was. Now there was a difference. It was because he counted; his life counted. It always had. How could it be? It didn’t make sense.
“So,” the warden said comfortably, “it was the chocolate-covered cherries.” He regarded Feldman intensely, with a swift, inexplicable ardor. “Stop to figure. Corner-cutter, clown, stop to figure a minute. Who do you suppose stocks that canteen, decides the items and proportions? Who fixes the prices? Didn’t you know? Didn’t you even know that? It’s the texture that gets these old men — the thick syrup, the fruit, smooth, bright as a prize, the dark chocolate soft as meat. I know the chemistry of old men, their sweet greeds. It’s detail, Feldman, painstaking attention to dependency. I have to know who’s vulnerable here.”
Feldman felt his heart scratched by the homunculus.
“So,” the warden said, “what was the bargain? What did you make him do for you? What’s your dependency? Speak up. I’ll order it for the canteen on the next requisition. No? It doesn’t come in a box? Wait, wait, you’ve still got your teeth. What did you make that old man — my trusty, my trusty, Feldman — promise you? This is the warden speaking.”
“I needed a man,” Feldman said hoarsely.
The warden stared at him. “Fool,” he said.
Feldman added his losses — twenty-five cents for the candy, the money for the stamp on the letter to his lawyer, the five dollars it was too late to stop, his valuable time at eight and a third cents a day, say another two cents. It was as Sky said. It was the Depression.
9
One morning when Feldman could not endure the thought of being in the prison, or of going to his job in the canteen, or of fencing one more time with the guards and trusties and pencil men, or of having to cope one more day with the elaborate rules of the community, complex and arbitrary as the laws of a boxed game, he chose to remain in his cell. It would cost him. It was bad time and did not count toward the fulfillment of his sentence. He lay on his cot, seething. The idea that it was costing him, that in several months he would have to relive this day, made him furious. He couldn’t afford his holiday. Ah, he was a sucker, he thought angrily. The shame and guilt he felt came from his recognition of how futile it is to defy one’s poverty.
He heard someone humming tunelessly and looked up. It was a prisoner on his hands and knees. The man pushed a scrub brush before him and pulled a pail. He crawled along like a chipper pilgrim, scrubbing forcefully with the brush. Feldman stared at his soapy hands and at the brush, its thick, plain wooden handle like something baked in an oven.
The man paused for a moment and raised his sweat shirt to wipe his face. “Whew,” he said, “whew,” and saw Feldman. He dipped into the pail. “Son-of-a-bitching brown soap,” he said, holding it up for Feldman to see. “What the hell’s wrong with you guys in Seven Block? In Five, where I’m from, we get Tide, Glo, all the latest products. Brown soap’s for poison ivy, clap. It’s medicine. It ain’t no more effective on floors than fucking spit. It’s your maintenance screw, Jerrold. I told Dean I wouldn’t be able to get along with him.” He looked at the floor. “Who does this floor anyway? Who’s Crew in here? I hope he gets better soon, so’s I can go back to Five. Who is he?”
Feldman shook his head.
“Me neither,” the man said. “The guy wouldn’t last ten minutes in Five. He’d be thrown the hell off Crew like that. Dean doesn’t take no shit. You know Dean?”
Feldman shook his head again.
“Chief of Crew in Five. The best maintenance screw in this place, I don’t care who you work for. He works us hard as hell. When I first come with him I thought: Why, you son of a bitch, I’d like to get you on the outside sometime. But that was just to see if we could take it — he was testing. You play ball with Dean, Dean’ll play ball with you. That guy ain’t put me on report once in fourteen years.”
“You’ve got it made,” Feldman said.
“But let him catch me talking to you like this, he’d kick his boot so high up my ass I’d be three days crapping it out,” the man said, chuckling.
“He kicks you?”
“Hell yes, he kicks me. Dean’s old school. But he won’t kick a man unless that man’s disappointed him.”
“Fair enough,” Feldman said.
“A guy has to bug out once in a while, though,” the man said. “Dean knows that.”
“It’s human nature,” Feldman said.
“I don’t care how hard a worker a man is,” the man said. “There’s more to life than scrubbing floors.” He stood up. “Let me go get my rinse water.” He disappeared and Feldman lay down again on the cot.
“Our detail picks up the supplies for all the other crews.” Feldman looked around. The man was rubbing the bars of Feldman’s cell with a cloth.
“It’s treated,” he explained, showing Feldman a dark purple-stained cloth. “It’s yellow in the tube. Ferr-all. It turns that color on the cloth. It’s a chemical. I seen Dean use it on his pistol barrel once. He let me borrow it to try on the bars.”
Feldman winced at the odor.
“It stands to reason. They got the same base. It works too. Look at that. He showed Feldman the bar he had been working on. The dark iron bristled with light. “I wanted you to see that because you work in the canteen.”
“You know that?”
“Sure. You’re Feldman. I’m pleased to meet you. I’m Lurie.”
He pushed his hand and wrist through the bar, and Feldman shook it. “It’s my forearms,” Lurie said apologetically, “they’re too big. I can’t get them all the way through. It’s from scrubbing.”
Feldman released Lurie’s big, clean hand.
“Excuse the stink,” the man said. “It’s this stuff, the Ferr-all. I don’t mind it, but I guess you’ve got to get used to it.” Feldman smelled his hand. It smelled ferrous, dense, like the odor of pistol barrels. The bars had such an odor too, of pistol barrels, spears, chains, the blades of knives.
“It’s too expensive for the state to buy for the inmates. They just get it for the guards. The men use it for their armor. I was the one first found out it works on bars. I told Dean, and he took it up with Requisitions. I’m glad I ran into you. If you stocked it in the canteen the men would buy it and do their cells. You see how it shined up this bar? And it wouldn’t take that much effort. Three, four times a year tops, that’s all it takes. It makes a difference.”
“I don’t have the authority,” Feldman said.
“I know that,” Lurie said. “But you could talk to the men. You’re in a position. If enough guys wanted it, the warden would stock it.” He put his face close to the bars and lowered his voice. “You know what would happen if a few guys started treating their bars? Pretty soon it would become mandatory. For the uniformity. That’s what happens,” he whispered. “They’d make it a rule.” Feldman sat down on his cot. “Some of these soreheads would grouse. Sure. What the hell? Cons. But it makes a difference.”
“I’ll see what I can do,” Feldman said.