Jason was so sweet and decided to pick me up a movie while he was at the grocery store picking up soup and ginger ale. I didn’t know what movie it was until I walked out into the living room and saw Jade opening the DVD case to The Vow with Rachel McAdams and Channing Tatum. Jade looked up at me and we both just started laughing hysterically at the memory this movie held for us.
Since Jade and I were both single on Valentine’s Day we’d decided to go see that movie because it looked really good. Plus Channing Tatum was in it and you can’t beat that!
On our way to the movie theatre Jade texted Jason and asked what he was doing that night. When he texted back that he wasn’t doing anything both Jade and I turned to each other with mischief all over our faces and decided to kidnap him and drag him along with us to the movies because we didn’t want him to be alone on Valentine’s Day. At first he didn’t want to come with us but we promised to get him a huge bucket of popcorn and any kind of candy his little heart desired.
The second we mentioned food Jason was on board but little did he know he would have to sit through a two hour movie with a bunch of single girls in the theatre. For the most part Jason was a good sport but half way through we could tell he was bored out of his mind. He kept checking his phone and I think at one point he even fell asleep but as soon as it ended everybody started clapping and cheering because Rachel McAdams and Channing Tatum finally got back together.
There were all of these screaming girls cheering and then out of nowhere you heard Jason screaming, “FUCKING FINALLY!” If the movie theatre wasn’t loud with laughter and cheers before it was then.
Once Jade and I wiped the tears falling from our faces and controlled our laughter I plopped down onto the sofa and snuggled under a blanket while Jade put the DVD into the player.
She started to walk over to the couch but went to the kitchen instead. I heard her cracking open a can while she said, “Jason got you ginger ale and some soup. Are you hungry?”
As soon as she asked me my stomach made the loudest growling sound known to man. I guess Jade could hear it because she said, “I guess so.”
Getting out from underneath the blanket I went over and sat down at the breakfast bar. I started to take a sip of my ginger ale when Jade opened the container for the soup and before I knew it I had my hand to my mouth and I was running to the bathroom.
I barely made it to the toilet before I was throwing up. I hadn’t eaten anything today because I slept it away so it was just stomach acid and then a bunch of dry heaving. By the time my stomach settled I looked over and saw Jade was staring at me with a weird look on her face.
Standing, I walked over to the sink and grabbed my toothbrush. Squeezing out toothpaste onto the brush I said, “Alright Jade, what’s with the face?”
Wetting the brush I put it into my mouth and began to brush away the disgusting taste in my mouth while I waited for Jade to spill. I looked over at her with a confused look on my face and she was staring at my stomach with wide eyes and an open mouth. I didn’t understand what she was acting so weird about so I just went back to brushing my teeth. I could see her in the mirror still staring at my stomach and that’s when it hit me.
The brush fell from my hand into the sink and looking at her through the mirror I screamed, “HOLY FUCKBALLS!”
I quickly spit out the excess toothpaste and ran into my room like a fucking lunatic and searched for my purse. The second I found my purse I unzipped it and found my birth control packet. Sliding the pills out I looked at the remaining tablets and my mouth dropped. I ran over to my nightstand table and unplugged my phone and searched the application I had downloaded which was a period calendar.
With the phone in one hand and the birth control pills in the other I looked up and saw Jade staring at me.
I let out some pathetic noise and then Jade said, “Ok I know you and my brother had sex and I know you’re a smart girl, Ash. So please, for the love of all that is good in this world, tell me that Jason wore a condom.”
I made another pathetic noise and then Jade screamed, “ARE YOU FUCKING PSYCHOTIC?”
I was still stunned when Jade walked over to me and pushed me back so I was sitting on my bed. Taking the birth control packet and phone from my hands she placed them on the nightstand.
Turning back to me she sat down on the bed and said, “Spill right now!” I looked over at her and a tear fell down my face because of the realization I might have to face.
Taking a deep breath I wiped the tears away and explained everything.
“The first time we had sex Jason didn’t have a condom and I told him I was on birth control. We were both just caught up in the moment and it happened. After that, um, we just didn’t.”
I was too embarrassed to look at Jade’s face when I told her but when I looked up at her the emotions just hit me. I mean I ugly cried. Tears were falling down my face, my chin was quivering, my face was scrunching together and I’m pretty sure boogers were running out of my nose.
I don’t know when it happened but next thing I knew I was cradled in Jade’s arms while she tried to calm me down. Running her fingers through my hair she said, “Ashlynn, we don’t know if you’re pregnant yet, so please calm down.”
Calming down was the last thing on my mind. I immediately got out of the warmth I felt being embraced in Jade’s arms and word spewed everything I had running through my mind.
Looking at her I said, “But what if I am pregnant? Jason’s already said that he doesn’t want to have children. He doesn’t want to mess up their lives the way your dad messed up both of yours. I feel like as soon as Jason and I are okay something comes along and just messes it all up and I don’t know what I’m going to do. What am I supposed to say to him? I mean I told him I was on birth control and I was but I might be pregnant. Oh my god, he’s going to think I lied to hi-”
“You stop right there Ashlynn Paisley Miller! Yes, you guys didn’t use a condom the first time but certainly Jason carried condoms in his wallet or his pocket or glued to his motherfucking hand the other times after that. This is not all your fault! Yes, Jason and I had a messed up childhood but if you are pregnant I know my brother will take care of that child. Ashlynn, he loves you and if you can’t see that yet then you are seriously messed up.”
Taking a few calming breaths I said, “I know Jason loves me but it just seems like we can’t catch a break. As soon as we find happiness it just all gets messed up again and I don’t know what to do. I don’t even know how to tell him.”
Wrapping her arms around me Jade kissed me on the cheek and said, “You take a nice long bath and I will be back with the essentials. No matter what Ashlynn, it’s going to be okay.”
Giving her a squeeze I said, “Thanks Jade, I love you.”
Kissing me on the cheek she said, “Well I love your dumb ass too,” which got me to smile just a tiny bit. Releasing one another I looked at her. She must have sensed me staring at her because after she got off the bed she looked at me and asked, “What?”
Tilting my head to the side I asked, “How’d you come to the conclusion that you thought I was pregnant?”
Looking into my eyes she said, “We don’t know if you’re pregnant yet but when mom was pregnant with Jason and I she couldn’t stand the smell and look of meat, especially chicken. It just really grossed her out and she’s been a vegetarian ever since.”
I must have had a worried look on my face because Jade walked over to me and tilting my chin up she said, “It’s going to be okay, Ashlynn. Everything will be okay. Now smile that beautiful smile you have going on and show your bestie all those pearly whites you’ve got going on there.”