Jade wanted me to go back into the club but I had had too much “excitement” for one night and decided to go back to the hotel. She told me I could sleep in her room but I thought some of us deserved to have some fun while in Vegas. I didn’t even change out of my outfit. I just cuddled under the covers and cried myself to sleep.
I couldn’t believe it!
The second I decided to move on with my life and push my crush on Jason into the deepest part of my soul he calls me, “His girl,” punches some asshole in the face defending me, creams my panties with just his lips on mine, his tongue on my neck licking and sucking and then breaks my heart all over again.
I just can’t believe this huge mess that I have created. I wish that I could have told Jason how I felt our freshman year of college and said, “Screw it.” But nooo! I have to have a secret crush on him and let it consume my life and then have a “fake” boyfriend.
I mean am I that desperate to try and attempt to get him to notice me?
… I guess so.
I was woken up later to someone yelling and others trying to calm the person down. I thought it was just another drunken idiot but then I heard the person say, “Ash,” and I automatically knew it was Jason.
I jumped out of bed and turned on the bedside light. I didn’t want to but I opened the door to our room and saw Gabe and Maddox trying to take Jason to Sarah and Gabe’s room, but the second he heard our door open he turned around and smiled at me.
I wanted to slap that smile right from his beautiful face. He must have been able to read my mind because his smile quickly disappeared and then he was wobbling over to me.
Before I could say anything he was cradling my face in his hands and wiping my face whispering over and over, “I’m so sorry Ash,” in a drunken slur.
I thought I had finished crying but I closed my eyes and more tears escaped.
I felt limp and numb because for the longest time this mess was mine to carry but now Jason knew. I mean I don’t think he knew exactly how deeply I felt about him, but now he knew something was going on.
Gabe and Maddox started to walk over to us but I put my hand up to let them know that everything was going to be ok. At least for tonight.
After they left the hall Jason pulled away and put his hand in mine and we walked back into our room together. I thought he was going to let go of my hand but he walked me into the bathroom and picked me up and sat me down on the counter. He walked out of the room for a minute and then walked back in with my make-up removal wipes.
Taking one out he cradled my face in his hand and my eyes instantly closed. He applied the wipe to my face and removed all of the mascara that I knew was all over my face. When he was satisfied with the job he threw the wipe away and picked me up. Without releasing me back onto the floor he walked us over to my bed and laid me down.
I thought he was going over to his bed but he turned the bedside lamp off and crawled in after me. He nestled up next to me and wrapped an arm around my waist. After kissing my neck Jason whispered, “I’ll fix this mess Ash. I promise.”
Chapter 3
Jason
The second Ash ran off I didn’t know what to do. I stood in the same position she left me in for a few seconds wondering how I was going to tell her why I couldn’t do this between us. I wanted to tell her how I would kick myself every single second, minute, hour of every day because I couldn’t be with her.
I started to run off in the direction of Ashlynn and Jade but Maddox walked up to me and placed a hand on my chest and said, “Not right now man.” I immediately stopped dead in my tracks and my head slumped over in defeat.
Up until Maddox met Isabelle he was a huge player. In fact I think he was getting more pussy than I was and that’s saying something. I swear he could have a different girl every day for four years of college and there would still be remaining girls for the rest of us pathetic fucks who hadn’t gotten all pussy whipped and fallen in love yet.
That’s just how easy it was for him. However, the second he met Isabelle everything changed. That motherfucker was pussy whipped from the get go and it was kind of hysterical. Anyone with eyes could see how he felt about her. I saw him watch her the entire time she first walked into the café with Sarah and I knew I just had to be a dick to him.
It was like perfect timing when Isabelle started choking. I immediately got up from my seat and started to pat her back because I just wanted to see what the dipshit would do. Of course I didn’t think about how Ash would react to it and I was surprised when I saw her flinch when I touched Iz.
While Iz was gorgeous, Ash was, well, she was something.
Maddox looked like he was going to turn into the Incredible Hulk and fuck my shit up so I just gave him this sly grin. Once Ash saw my face I saw her calm down so it was all good in the motherfuckin’ hood.
I also had to push his buttons when I spotted Maddox and Isabelle at the bar with Ash. I looked at her and she laughed and said, “Go get ‘em tiger.” We all knew Maddox had a major crush on Iz but that girl was fuckin’ blind because he practically was at her beck and call. Of course the secrets came out about how her mom was a huge bitch and secretly Jade and I could relate.
However as soon as I saw Madd carry her out of the bar like a fuckin’ caveman I knew that was it and that he was off the market. It just took a girl who wasn’t on her knees waiting to suck dick for that prick to fall in love. I knew he would do anything for that girl and that’s how I would feel about Ash for the rest of my life.
Unfortunately, I could never put my thought into play. I mean, technically, I could but I wanted Ash to be happy and I knew she would not get that with me. In fact I was certain of it because up until Jade and I left for our freshman year of college my life had been a mess. Oh, who the fuck am I trying to kid? It still is.
Maddox grabbed me by the shoulder. Looking up into his eyes he nodded in the direction of our table. Sitting down at the booth I picked up my bottle and took a good healthy gulp. Placing the bottle back down on the table I looked over at Maddox and waited for the interrogation to begin.
He took a sip of his beer and setting it down on the table in front of us he looked over at me and quirked an eyebrow. “You want to talk about what just happened between you and Ash?”
I just shrugged my shoulders and said, “I don’t really know what to say.”
In a more serious tone he said, “Well, let’s start with what exactly happened Jason.”
I was starting to get really pissed off with Maddox. It wasn’t really any of his business.
A little bit louder I said, “Like I said Maddox, I don’t really know what happened.” I wanted to try and explain it to him but he got his girl. I didn’t.
Getting up from his seat Maddox walked over to me and placed an arm around me and said, “Well, since you don’t know what just happened out there then I’ll tell you what happened. Some jackass who hasn’t seen what’s been right in front of him got jealous and made out with a girl who has had a crush on him since forever.”
Looking over at him I began to say something but he put his finger up to stop me and continued on. “You gave that girl hope and you crushed her all over again. I don’t know what the fuck your problem is because I notice the way you look at her and I can tell you right now it’s the same way I look at Isabelle. I just don’t know what the fuck your problem is man.”
Looking over at Maddox I shook my head. I thought I was hiding my feelings pretty well. Apparently not.