Sims looked around, making sure he was still alone.
“There ain’t no proof of what I’m saying, but it’s true and you’ll want to know it.” He lowered his voice, as if confiding a secret. “I know who did it that night. Iknow. ”
The tone he used and the obvious implications made the hairs on the back of Miles’s neck suddenly stand on end.
“What are you talking about?”
Sims wiped his lip again, knowing he had Miles’s full attention now.
“I can’t tell you no more unless you let me go.”
Miles moved toward the cell, feeling off-balance. He stared at Sims until Sims stepped back from the bars.
“Tell me what?”
“I need a deal first. You gotta promise me you’ll get me out of here. Just say that because I didn’t take the Breathalyzer, you don’t have any proof I was drinking.”
“I told you-I can’t make deals.”
“No deal, no information. Like I said, I can’t go back to prison.”
They stood facing each other, neither of them looking away. “You know exactly what I’m talking about, don’t you?” Sims said finally. “Don’t you want to know who did it?”
Miles’s heart began to race, and his hands clenched involuntarily at his side.
His mind was spinning.
“I’ll tell you if you let me go,” Sims added.
Miles’s mouth opened, then closed as everything-all the memories-rushed back, spilling over him like the water from an overflowing sink. It seemed unbelievable, preposterous. Yet… what if Sims was telling the truth? What if he knew who killed Missy?
“You’ll have to testify,” was all he could think to say.
Sims raised his hands. “No way. I didn’t see nothing, but I overheard people talking. And if they find out that I’m the one who told, I’m as good as dead. So I can’t testify. I won’t. I’ll swear that I don’t remember telling you nothing. And you can’t tell ’em where you learned it from, either. This is just between us-you and me. But…”
Sims shrugged, his eyes narrowing, playing Miles perfectly. “You don’t really care about that now, do you? You just want to know who did it, and I can do that. And may God strike me dead if I ain’t telling the truth.” Miles grabbed the bars, his knuckles turning white. “Tell me!” he shouted. “Get me out of here,” Sims responded, somehow keeping his cool in spite of Miles’s outburst, “and I will.”
For a long time, Miles simply stared at him.
“I was at the Rebel,” Sims finally began, after Miles had agreed to his demands.
“You know the place, right?”
Sims didn’t wait for an answer. He swiped his greasy hair with the back of his hand. “This was a couple of years back or so-I can’t really recall when it was, exactly-and I was having a few drinks, you know? Behind me, in one of the booths, I saw Earl Getlin. You know him?”
Miles nodded. Another in a long line of people well-known in the department. Tall and thin, pockmarked face, tattoos up both arms-one that showed a lynching, the other a skull with a knife driven through it. Had been arrested for assault, breaking and entering, dealing in stolen goods. Suspected drug dealer. A year and a half ago, after being caught stealing a car, he’d been sent up to Hailey State Prison. Not due for release for another four years. “He was kind of antsy, fidgeting with his drink, like he was waiting for someone. That’s when I saw them come in. The Timsons. They stood in the door for just a second, looking around until they found him. They ain’t the kind of people I like being around, so I didn’t draw no attention to myself. Next thing I know, they were sitting across from Earl. And they were talking real low, almost whispering, but from where I was, I could hear every word they were saying.”
Miles’s back had gone rigid with Sims’s story. His mouth was dry, as though he’d been outside in the heat for hours.
“They were threatening Earl, but he kept saying that he didn’t have it yet. That’s when I heard Otis speak up-until then, he’d let his brothers do the talking. He told Earl that if he didn’t have the money by the weekend, he’d better watch out, because nobody screwed with him.”
He blinked. Blood had drained from his face.
“He said the same thing would happen to Earl that had happened to Missy Ryan.
Only this time, they’d back up and run him over again.”
Chapter 18
Iremember that I was screaming even before I brought the car to a halt. I recall the impact, of course-the slight shudder of the wheel and the nauseating thud. But what I remember most are my own screams from inside the car. They were ear-shattering, echoing off the closed windows, and they went on until I turned the ignition off and was finally able to push open the door. My screams then turned into panicked prayer. “No, no, no…” is all I remember saying.
Barely able to breathe, I ran to the front of the car. I didn’t see any damage:
The car was, as I said, an older model, one structured to withstand more impact than the cars of today. But I didn’t see the body. I had a sudden premonition that I’d run over her, that I’d find her body wedged beneath the car, and as the horrible vision passed in front of my eyes, I felt my stomach muscles constrict. Now, I’ll tell you that I’m not the kind of person who is easily rattled-people often comment on my self-control-but I confess that at that moment I put my hands on my knees and nearly vomited. As the feeling finally subsided, I forced myself to look beneath the car. I didn’t see anything.
I ran from side to side, looking for her. I didn’t see her, not right away, and I had a strange sense that maybe I’d been mistaken, that it must have been my imagination.
I started to jog then, checking one side of the road and then the other, hoping against hope that somehow I’d simply grazed her, that maybe she’d merely been knocked unconscious. I looked behind the car and still didn’t find her, and I knew then where she had to be.
As my stomach started doing flip-flops again, my eyes scanned the area in front of the car. My headlights were still on. I took a few hesitant steps forward, and it was then that I spotted her in the ditch, about twenty yards away. I debated whether I should run to the nearest house and call an ambulance or whether I should go to her. At the time, the latter seemed like the right thing to do, and as I approached, I found myself moving more and more slowly, as if slowing down would make the outcome less certain.
Her body, I noticed right off, was lying at an unnatural angle. One leg looked bent somehow, sort of crossed over the other at the thigh, the knee twisted at an impossible angle and the foot facing the wrong way. One arm was sandwiched beneath her torso, the other above her head. She was on her back. Her eyes were open.
I remember that it didn’t strike me that she was dead, at least in that first instant. But it didn’t take more than a couple of seconds to realize that there was something about the glaze in her eyes that wasn’t right. They didn’t seem real-they were almost a caricature of the way eyes look, like the eyes of a mannequin in a department store window. But as I stared, I think it was their utter stillness that really drove the point home. In all the time I stood above her, she didn’t blink at all.
It was then that I noticed the blood pooling beneath her head, and everything sort of hit at once-her eyes, the position of her body, the blood… And for the first time, I knew with certainty that she was dead. I think I collapsed then. I can’t remember making the conscious decision to get close to her, but that’s exactly where I found myself a moment later. I put my ear to her chest, I put my ear to her mouth, I checked for a pulse. I checked for any movement at all, any flicker of life, anything to prod me to further action.
There was nothing.
Later, the autopsy would show-and the newspapers would report-that she died instantly. I say this so that you’ll know I’m telling the truth. Missy Ryan had no chance at all, no matter what I might have done later. I don’t know how long I stayed beside her, but it couldn’t have been long. I do remember staggering back to my car and opening my trunk; I do remember finding the blanket and covering her body. At the time, it seemed like the right thing to do. Charlie suspected that I’d been trying to say that I was sorry, and looking back, I think that was part of it. But the other part was that I simply didn’t want anyone to see her the way that I had. So I covered her up, as if covering my own sin.