voice. "I wish that you could."
"But the contracts ... I can't go back without some agreement made, most
high. If you want me to take your message back, you have to leave me
enough credibility that anyone will hear it."
"I can't help you," Otah said. "Take the letter I've given you and go
home. Now."
As he turned and left the room, the letter in his hand sewn shut and
sealed, the Galt moved like a man newly awakened. At Otah's gesture, the
servants followed the emissary and pulled the great bronze doors closed
behind them, leaving him alone in the audience chamber. The pale silk
banners shifted in the slight breath of air. The charcoal in the iron
braziers glowed, orange within white. He pressed his hands to his eyes.
He was tired, terribly tired. And there was so much more to be done.
He heard the scrape of the servant's door behind him, heard the soft,
careful footsteps and the faintest jingling of mail. He rose and turned,
his robes shifting with a sound like sand on stone. Sinja took a pose of
greeting.
"You sent for me, most high?"
"I've just sent the Galts packing again," Otah said.
"I heard the last of it. Do you think they'll keep sending men to bow
and scrape at your feet? I was thinking how gratifying it must be, being
able to bully a whole nation of people you've never met."
"Actually, it isn't. I imagine news of it will have spread through the
city by nightfall. More stories of the Mad Khai."
"You aren't called that. Upstart's still the most common. After the
wedding, there was a week or so of calling you the shopkeeper's wife,
but I think it was too long. An insult can only sustain a certain number
of syllables."
"Thank you," Otah said. "I feel much better now."
"You are going to have to start caring what they think, you know. These
are people you're going to be living with for the rest of your life.
Starting off by proving how disrespectful and independent you can be is
only going to make things harder. And the Galts carry quite a few
contracts," Sinja said. "Are you sure you want me away just now? It's
traditional to have a guard close at hand when you're cultivating new
enemies.
"Yes, I want you to go. If the utkhaiem are talking about the Galts,
they may talk less about Idaan."
"You know they won't forget her. It doesn't matter what other issues you
wave at them, they'll come back to her."
"I know. But it's the best I can do for now. Are you ready?"
"I have everything I need prepared. We can do it now if you'd like."
"I would."
THREE ROOMS HAI) BEEN HER WORLD. A NARROW BED, A CHEAP IRON BRAzier, a
night pot taken away every second day. The armsmen brought her bits of
candle-stubs left over from around the palaces. Once, someone had
slipped a book in with her meal-a cheap translation of Westland court
poems. Still, she'd read them all and even started com posing some of
her own. It galled her to be grateful for such small kindnesses,
especially when she knew they would not have been extended to her had
she been a man.
The only breaks came when she was taken out to walk down empty tunnels,
deep under the palaces. Armsmen paced behind her and before her, as if
she were dangerous. And her mind slowly folded in on itself, the days
passing into weeks, the ankle she'd cracked in her fall mending. Some
days she felt lost in dreams, struggling to wake only to wish herself
back asleep when her mind came clear. She sang to herself. She spoke to
Adrah as if he were still there, still alive. As if he still loved her.
She raged at Cehmai or bedded him or begged his forgiveness. All on her
narrow bed, by the light of candle stubs.
She woke to the sound of the bolt sliding open. She didn't think it was
time to be fed or walked, but time had become a strange thing lately.
When the door opened and the man in the black and silver robes of the
Khai stepped in she told herself she was dreaming, half fearing he had
come to kill her at last, and half hoping for it.
The Khai Machi looked around the cell. His smile seemed forced.
"You might not think it, but I've lived in worse," he said.
"Is that supposed to comfort me?"
"No," he said.
A second man entered the room, a thick bundle under his arm. A soldier,
by his stance and by the mail that he wore under his robes. Idaan sat
up, gathering herself, preparing for whatever came and desperate that
the men not turn and close the door again behind them. The Khai Machi
hitched up his robes and squatted, his hack against the stone wall as if
he was a laborer at rest between tasks. His long face was very much like
Biitrah's, she saw. It was in the corners of his eyes and the shape of
his jaw.
"Sister," he said.
"Most high," she replied.
He shook his head. The soldier shifted. She had the feeling that the two
movements were the continuation of some conversation they had had, a
subtle commentary to which she was not privileged.
"This is Sinja-cha," the Khai said. "You'll do as he says. If you fight
hire, he'll kill you. If you try to leave him before he gives you
permission, he'll kill you."
"Are you whoring me to your pet thug then?" she asked, fighting to keep
the quaver from her voice.
"What? No. Gods," Otah said. "No, I'm sending you into exile. He's to
take you as far as Cetani. He'll leave you there with a good robe and a
few lengths of silver. You can write. You have numbers. You'll be able
to find some work, I expect."
"I am a daughter of the Khaiem," she said bitterly. "I'm not permitted
to work."
"So lie," Otah said. "Pick a new name. Noygu always worked fairly well
for me. You could be Sian Noygu. Your mother and father were merchants
in ... well, call it Udun. You don't want people thinking about Machi if
you can help it. They died in a plague. Or a fire. Or bandits killed
them. It isn't as if you don't know how to lie. Invent something."
Idaan stood, something like hope in her heart. To leave this hole. To
leave this city and this life. To become someone else. She hadn't
understood how weary and exhausted she had become until this moment. She
had thought the cell was her prison.
The soldier looked at her with perfectly empty eyes. She might have been
a cow or a large stone he'd been set to move. Otah levered himself back
to standing.
"You can't mean this," Idaan said, her voice hardly a whisper. "I killed
Danat. I as much as killed our father,"
"I didn't know them," her brother said. "I certainly didn't love them."
"I did."
"All the worse for you, then."
She looked into his eyes for the first time. There was a pain in them
that she couldn't fathom.