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had balked and he had taken the task himself. For years, those few

minutes had haunted him.

"He knew what was coming," Otah said. "He knew it was necessary. The

consequences if he had lived would have been worse. Heshai was right

when he warned you to let the thing drop. The Khai Saraykeht would have

turned the andat against Galt. There would have been thousands of

innocent lives ruined. And when it was over, you would still have been

yoked to Seedless. Trapped in the torture box just the way Heshai had

been all those years. Heshai knew that, and he waited for me to do the

thing."

"And you did it."

"I did."

Maati was silent. Otah sat. His knees seemed less solid than he would

have liked, but he didn't let the weakness stop him.

"It was the worst thing I have ever done," Otah said. "I never stopped

dreaming about it. Even now, I see it sometimes. Heshai was a good man,

but what he'd created in Seedless...."

"Seedless was only part of him. They all are. They couldn't be anything

else. Heshai-kvo hated himself, and Seedless was that."

"Everyone hates themselves sometimes. There isn't often a price in

blood," Otah said. "You know what would happen if that were proven.

Killing a Khai would pale beside murdering a poet."

Maati nodded slowly, and still nodding, spoke.

"I didn't ask on the Dai-kvo's behalf. I asked for myself. When

Heshai-kvo died, Seedless ... vanished. I was with him. I was there. He

was asking me whether I would have forgiven you. If you'd committed some

terrible crime, like what he had done to Maj, if I would forgive you.

And I told him I would. I would forgive you, and not him. Because ..."

They were silent. Maati's eyes were dark as coal.

"Because?" Otah asked.

"Because I loved you, and I didn't love him. He said it was a pity to

think that love and justice weren't the same. The last thing he said was

that you had forgiven me."

"Forgiven you?"

"For Liat. For taking your lover."

"I suppose it's true," Otah said. "I was angry with you. But there was a

part of me that was ... relieved, I suppose."

"Why?"

"Because I didn't love her. I thought I did. I wanted to, and I enjoyed

her company and her bed. I liked her and respected her. Sometimes, I

wanted her as badly as I've ever wanted anyone. And that was enough to

let me mistake it for love. But I don't remember it hurting that deeply

or for that long. Sometimes I was even glad. You had each other to take

care of, and so it wasn't mine to do."

"You said, that last time we spoke before you left ... before Heshaikvo

died, that you didn't trust me."

"That's true," Otah said. "I do remember that."

"But you've come to me now, and you've told me this. You've told me all

of it. Even after I gave you over to the Khai. You've brought me in

here, shown me where you've hidden. You know there are half a hundred

people I could say a word to, and you and all these other people would

be dead before the sun set. So it seems you trust me now."

"I do," Otah said without hesitating.

"Why?"

Otah sat with the question. His mind had been consumed for days with a

thousand different things that all nipped and shrieked and robbed him of

his rest. To reach out to Maati had seemed natural and obvious, and even

though when he looked at it coldly it was true that each had in some way

betrayed the other, his heart had never been in doubt. He could feel the

heaviness in the air, and he knew that I don't know wouldn't be answer

enough. He looked for words to give his feelings shape.

"Because," he said at last, "in all the time I knew you, you never once

did the wrong thing. Even when what you did hurt inc, it was never wrong."

To his surprise, there were tears on Maati's cheeks.

"Thank you, Otah-kvo," he said.

A shout went up in the tunnels outside the storehouse and the sound of

running feet. Maati wiped his eyes with the sleeve of his robes, and

Otah stood, his heart beating fast. The murmur of voices grew, but there

were no sounds of blade against blade. It sounded like a busy corner

more than a battle. Otah walked to the door and, Maati close behind him,

stepped out into the main space. A knot of men were talking and

gesturing one to the other by the mouth of the stairs. Otah caught a

glimpse of Kiyan in their midst, frowning deeply and speaking fast.

Amiit detached himself from the throng and strode to Otah.

"What's happened?"

"Bad news, Otah-cha. Daaya Vaunyogi has called for a decision, and

enough of the families have hacked the call to push it through."

Otah felt his heart sink.

"They're hound to decide by morning," Amilt went on, "and if all the

houses that hacked him for the call side with him in the decision, Adrah

Vaunyogi will be the Khai Machi by the time the sun comes up."

"And then what?" NIaati asked.

"And then we run," Otah said, "as far and fast and quiet as we can, and

we hope he never finds us."

THE SUN HAD PASSED ITS HIGHEST POINT AND STARTED THE LONG, SLOW slide

toward darkness. Idaan had chosen robes the blue-gray of twilight and

bound her hair hack with clasps of silver and moonstone. Around her, the

gallery was nearly full, the air thick with heat and the mingled scents

of bodies and perfumes. She stood at the rail, looking down into the

press of bodies below her. The parquet of the floor was scuffed with the

marks of hoots. There were no empty places at the tables or against the

stone walls, no quiet negotiations going on in hallways or teahouses.

That time had passed, and in its wake, they were all brought here.

Voices washed together like the hushing of wind, and she could feel the

weight of the eyes upon her-the men below her sneaking glances up, the

representatives of the merchant houses at her side considering her, and

the lower orders in the gallery above staring down at her and the men

over whom she loomed. She was a woman, and not welcome to speak or sit

at the tables below. But still, she would make her presence felt.

"How is it that we accept the word of these men that they are the

wisest?" Ghiah Vaunani pounded the speaker's pulpit before him with each

word, a dry, shallow sound. Idaan almost thought she could see flecks of

foam at the corners of his mouth. "How is it that the houses of the

utkhaiem are so much like sheep that they would consent to be led by