Erma was making progress. Oh, she still grieved of the past. She still trembled when speaking of Lucas’s dark mood at the loss of their child—as though it had been her fault. She still wept on occasion over the little chest at the foot of her bed—but she also had her cheerier times. She had even smiled slightly on one or two occasions. Kathleen felt encouraged.
“Have you heard from your sis yet?” Erma asked as they sat sipping tea and watching Sean devour a tea biscuit.
“No. I’ve tried twice more to get a letter off to her—and they both came back again,” Kathleen said, her voice filled with despair.
“It’s a strange thing, it is,” observed Erma, her eyes shadowed.
“I can’t understand it at all. I can get my letters to the school headmistress, so the address I was given is correct. But they insist they have never heard of her.”
“Oh look!” squealed Erma. “He shoved the whole thing in,” and Erma began to chuckle merrily over the small Sean who had pushed such a large bite of biscuit into his mouth that he couldn’t even chew.
It was so good to hear Erma laugh again—Kathleen felt like weeping. Instead she went to rescue her small son.
“You little piggy,” she scolded gently. “You’ll be choking yourself, and that’s the truth.”
But the laugh had been good for them both.
Donnigan’s eyes were dark with concern when he met her later on, and Kathleen braced herself to hear whatever bad news he carried.
“Risa is gone,” he said.
“Gone? What do you mean, gone?”
“She left. Left on the stage.”
Kathleen could only stare. She knew by Donnigan’s face that he wasn’t teasing.
“Did Wallis go?” she asked in a half whisper.
“Wallis? No. Not Wallis,” replied Donnigan.
“How—? What happened?”
“I don’t know. Sam only knows that she left—and that Wallis is nearly beside himself.”
Kathleen shifted the small Sean to her other arm. “That’s terrible,” she responded. “What can we do?”
“I’ve no idea—but I’d like to get home as quick as we can. I’ll have to go over and see Wallis.”
Chapter Seventeen
Understanding
It was true. Risa had left Wallis. She had gone to town to shop—she said—and not returned. Wallis went to look for her and was told that she had caught the two-o’clock stage heading east. Risa had talked to no one but the ticket agent. “She said she was going to Raeford to catch the train,” said the man. “Thet’s all I know.”
“But why?” wailed Wallis. “Why?”
Donnigan spent some time with his old friend, letting him talk, hearing him out, offering his help.
“Shore, we had our times,” admitted Wallis, wiping at unashamed tears. “All couples do I guess. But they weren’t of much importance—an’ they didn’t last fer long.”
Donnigan nodded. He and Kathleen had experienced their “times” as well. It took a good deal of adjusting to get things worked out in a marriage. There were still occasions when they seemed to look at the same situation with two different sets of eyes.
“She came from a big city. Didn’t care much fer the farm. She called it dirty an’ a weed patch,” went on Wallis. He sniffed forlornly. “I thought we was gettin’ things whipped into pretty good shape.”
Wallis stopped to look around his little cabin and Donnigan’s eyes followed his. The room bore the marks of a woman’s hands. An edge of lace curtain hung at the sparkling window. The cupboard shelves were covered with a ruffle of blue gingham. Woven rugs were scattered across the floor, and the crude table’s cracks were hidden by an oil cloth with sprays of bright yellow flowers. It certainly didn’t look like the cabin Donnigan remembered. With a wry grin he noticed that there were no bridles or pieces of harness anywhere. Not on the pegs by the door—not on the chairs. Not even on the floor in the corner.
It was Donnigan who put on the coffeepot. Wallis didn’t seem to be thinking too well. He hadn’t eaten since he’d had the news.
Donnigan wished he could say, “She’ll be back,” but he wasn’t sure if it was true.
Instead he said, “We’ll see what we can find out. Surely there is some way to trace her. Find out just why—what it was that—” He didn’t know how to say it. Didn’t know how to go on with his thoughts. Wallis didn’t seem to even notice.
Wallis looked up at the smell of the boiling coffee. Donnigan went to the cupboard and found some bread and jam. It wasn’t much but it might get the man through the day.
But Wallis just looked at the bread and his face crumpled again. “She sure could bake good bread,” he said to Donnigan and the tears were running down his cheeks again.
Donnigan supposed that the next days would hold many memories for Wallis. It seemed that everywhere he looked there were reminders of Risa’s presence in the home.
At length Donnigan faced the fact that there was really nothing more he could do for the grieving man, and he had a pack of chores waiting for him at home. He bid Wallis good-night with the promise that he’d be back the next day.
“How is he?” asked Kathleen.
Donnigan’s shoulders slumped in discouragement. He took off his broad hat and ran a hand through his hair. “He’s pretty badly shaken up,” he said wearily.
“I know—I know it must have been hard for her. But how could she do that to him?” said Kathleen, anger edging her voice.
“I don’t think Risa was ever happy there—and you must admit that Wallis wouldn’t be an easy man to live with.”
“No man is easy to live with,” said Kathleen.
“Even me?” he quipped.
But she was in no mood for teasing. He knew that her anger had to have vent. He only smiled to himself. Kathleen still had trouble with her temper.
“That doesn’t give one call to—to just pack up and leave,” Kathleen went on.
“No. No,” agreed Donnigan, “it wasn’t fair for her to just leave—without—without giving the man a chance—without saying her piece—or even saying goodbye. It wasn’t a good way to be doing it.”
He pushed his fingers through his hair again. “I need to get to the chores,” he said, weariness tinging his voice again.
“I slopped the pigs and fed the hens,” said Kathleen.
His eyes dropped to her waistline and Kathleen could read his thinking. “Kathleen—I wish you wouldn’t—” He was trying to shelter her again.
“I didn’t fill the pails to the top,” she argued. “And the pigs were squealing for their supper. And I had to go to the chicken pen to gather the eggs anyway.”
Donnigan nodded, but his thoughts were still heavy as he left the house. He ached for Wallis. The poor man was grieving as if he had faced a death. And maybe he had. How could a man lose what was a part of him and not feel that something—something real and important had died? And what on earth would he ever do if something happened to his Kathleen?
“Sure now, and that boy’s not an Irishman,” Kathleen commented as she and Donnigan watched their small son playing on the floor. “He’s even fairer than his father.”
Sean squealed as he batted at the new red ball that Donnigan had brought home from town.
“Well, he doesn’t have an Irish temper—and that’s the pure truth,” teased Donnigan and got the response that he had expected as a towel Kathleen was folding came flying through the air.
He caught it and tossed it back, grinning in playfulness.
Kathleen sobered. “You’re right,” she admitted. “He’s never had a temper fit.”
“Well, he is all of nine months old,” Donnigan reminded her.