The building was sound, functional, and clean.
The fundamental question was, did it feel like home?
No. At least, not yet.
But that might change.
Did he want it to feel like home?
But it was a question he couldn’t answer to his own satisfaction. Maybe what he wanted was not so much a house as a cave: a warm, dry place in which to nurse his wounds until they healed—or at least until the pain was bearable.
But the house was genuinely interesting.
He ran his hand idly along a blank basement wall and was startled to feel … what?
The hum of machinery, carried up through gypsum board and concrete block—instantly stilled?
Faint tingle of electricity?
Or nothing at all.
“Tight as a drum.”
This was Archer, back from his sojourn. “You may have found a bargain here, Tom. We can go back to my office if you want to talk about an offer.”
“Why the hell not,” Tom Winter said.
The town of Belltower occupied the inside curve of a pleasant, foggy Pacific bay on the northwestern coast of the United States .
Its primary industries were fishing and logging. A massive pulp mill had been erected south of town during the boom years of the fifties, and on damp days when the wind came blowing up the coast the town was enveloped in the sulfurous, bitter stench of the mill. Today there had been a stiff offshore breeze; the air was clean. Shortly before sunset, when Tom Winter returned to his room at the Seascape Motel, the cloud stack rolled away and the sun picked out highlights on the hills, the town, the curve of the bay.
He bought himself dinner in the High Tide Dining Room and tipped the waitress too much because her smile seemed genuine. He bought a Newsweek in the gift shop and headed back to his second-floor room as night fell.
Amazing, he thought, to be back in this town. Leaving here had been, in Tom’s mind, an act of demolition. He had ridden the bus north to Seattle pretending that everything behind him had been erased from the map. Strange to find the town still here, stores still open for business, boats still anchored at the marina behind the VFW post.
The only thing that’s been demolished is my life.
But that was self-pity, and he scolded himself for it. The quintessential lonely vice. Like masturbation, it was a parody of something best performed in concert with others.
He was aware, too, of a vast store of pain waiting to be acknowledged … but not here in this room with the ugly harbor paintings on the wall, the complimentary postcards in the bureau, pale rings on the wood veneer where generations had abandoned their vending-machine Cokes to sweat in the dry heat. Here, it would be too much.
He padded down the carpeted hallway, bought a Coke so he could add his own white ring to the furniture.
The phone was buzzing when he got back. He picked it up and popped the ring-tab on the soft-drink can.
“Tom,” his brother said.
“Tony. Hi, Tony.”
“You all by yourself?”
“Hell, no,” Tom said. “The party’s just warming up. Can’t you tell?”
“That’s very funny. Are you drinking something?”
“Soda pop, Tony.”
“Because I don’t think you should be sitting there all by yourself. I think that sets a bad pattern. I don’t want you getting sauced again.”
Sauced, Tom thought, amused. His brother was a well-spring of these antique euphemisms. It was Tony who had once described Brigitte Nielsen as “a red-hot tamale.” Barbara had always relished his brother’s bon mots. She used to call it her “visiting Tony yoga”—making conversation with one hand ready to spring up and disguise a grin.
“If I get sauced,” Tom said, “you’ll be the first to know.”
“That’s exactly what I’m afraid of. I called in a lot of favors to get you this job. Naturally, that leaves my ass somewhat exposed.”
“Is that why you phoned?”
A pause, a confession: “No. Loreen suggested—well, we both thought—she’s got a chicken ready to come out of the oven and there’s more than enough to go around, so if you haven’t eaten—”
“I’m sorry. I had a big meal down at the coffee shop. But thank you. And thank Loreen for me.”
Tony’s relief was exquisitely obvious. “Sure you don’t want to drop by?” Brief chatter in the background: “Loreen’s done up a blueberry pie.”
“Tell Loreen I’m sorely tempted but I want to make it an early night.”
“Well, whatever. Anyway, I’ll call you next week.”
“Good. Great.”
“Night, Tom.” A pause. Tony added, “And welcome back.”
Tom put down the phone and turned to confront his own reflection, gazing dumbly out of the bureau mirror. Here was a haggard man with a receding hairline who looked, at this moment, at least a decade older than his thirty years. He’d put on weight since Barbara left and it was beginning to show —a bulge of belly and a softness around his face. But it was the expression that made the image in the mirror seem so ancient. He had seen it on old men riding buses. A frown that announces surrender, the willing embrace of defeat. Options for tonight?
He could stare out the window, into his past; or into this mirror, the future.
The two had intersected here. Here at the crossroads. This rainy old town.
He turned to the window.
Welcome back.
Doug Archer called in the morning to announce that Tom’s offer on the house—most of his carefully hoarded inheritance, tendered in cash—had been accepted. “Possession is immediate. We can have all the paperwork done by the end of the day. A few signatures and she’s all yours.”
“Would it be possible to get the key today?”
“I don’t see any problem with that.”
Tom drove down to the realty office next to the Harbor Mall. Archer escorted him through paperwork at the in-house Notary Public, then took him across the street for lunch. The restaurant was called El Nino—it was new; the location used to be a Kresge’s, if Tom recalled correctly. The decor was nautical but not screamingly kitschy.
Tom ordered the salmon salad sandwich. Archer smiled at the waitress. “Just coffee, Nance.”
She nodded and smiled back.
“You’re not wearing your realty jacket,” Tom said.
“Technically, it’s my day off. Plus, you’re a solid purchase. And what the hell, you’re a hometown boy, I don’t have to impress anybody here.” He settled back in the vinyl booth, lean in his checkerboard shirt, his long hair a little wilder than he had worn it the day before. He thanked the waitress when the coffee arrived. “I looked into the history of the house, by the way. My own curiosity, mainly.”
“Something interesting?”
“Sort of interesting, yeah.”
“Something you didn’t want to tell me until the papers were signed?”
“Nothing that would change your mind, Tom. Just a little bit odd.”
“So? It’s haunted?”
Archer smiled and leaned over his cup. “Not quite. Though that wouldn’t surprise me. The property has a peculiar history. The lot was purchased in 1963 and the house was finished the next year. From 1964 through 1981 it was occupied by a guy named Ben Collier—lived alone, came into town once in a while, no visible means of support but he paid his bills on time. Friendly when you talked to him, but not real friendly. Solitary.”