He had called his staff surgeon first, had told him about the tiny drops of blood he had found on the seat of his pants, but couldn’t bring himself to talk about the itch.
“Do you get burning, itching in your rectal passage?” the staff surgeon had asked.
“No,” he had said abruptly.
“Sir, internal bleeding can be dangerous but yours seems like a case of worms, tapeworms. If you let me know when you can come to the Combined Military Hospital I’ll arrange for a full check-up.”
General Zia had mumbled something about Code Red and dismissed the doctor. Although the staff surgeon was security cleared Zia didn’t want him to go around sending his tests to other labs or even consulting his doctor colleagues. His own daughter had just graduated from a medical school but he could hardly talk to her about something like this.
Then Prince Naif called and General Zia remembered that Prince Naif always travelled with his personal physician, the only person in his entourage who wore suits and carried a black leather bag, and the only one who stayed silent, neither cracked a joke nor laughed at the Prince’s non-stop comedy act.
“I don’t share my doctor with anyone,” Prince Naif said in mock seriousness when General Zia finally asked his permission to have a private consultation with his physician. “He has seen more of me than any of my wives. But anything for you, my brother, anything. Even my secret weapon.” He gestured towards the doctor, who sat pretending they were talking about someone else.
“It’s just a private little matter. I don’t want my military doctor going around discussing my private things. You know our Pakistani people, they love to gossip.”
“He takes care of all my private things,” Prince Naif chuckled. “And he never talks to anyone.” Then he turned towards the doctor and said, “Take care of my brother’s private things as if they were my own private things.” He rolled with laughter. General Zia forced a smile, got up and moved towards his office. The doctor didn’t join in the joke and followed him sullenly.
After spending eight years looking after Prince Naif’s libido nothing about these rulers surprised Dr Sarwari. They all spent too much time and energy keeping their cocks in shape. If they channelled some of this zeal towards their day jobs, the world would be a much better place, Dr Sarwari had thought in moments of despair. He had ordered the livers of so many houbara bustards to make aphrodisiacs for the Prince, he had rubbed so many ointments made from the Bengal tiger’s testicles on the Prince’s member that he himself had lost all appetite for sex. Even his colleagues in the Saudi medical establishment knew his status as the full-time caretaker of the royal member. After all, the Prince had his own heart specialist, skin specialist and even a plastic surgeon on the royal payroll. But what was dearest to the Prince’s heart was his sexual health and Dr Sarwari was the chosen man for the job. The Royal Dick Doctor, they called him behind his back.
With this job description Dr Sarwari could not be faulted when he shut the door to General Zia’s private office and asked: “You wanna a bigger or you wanna a longer?”
General Zia, who had never heard the doctor speak, was baffled both by his mixture of Arabic and American accents and his strange question. He ignored his hand gestures.
Dr Sarwari was pleasantly surprised when General Zia explained his problem. He smiled for the first time.
General Zia was ready when the doctor suggested an on-the-spot probe. He had thought about it so much that he automatically turned his back to the doctor, unfastened his belt and slipped his trousers down. He could feel movement behind him, then a rubber-gloved hand on his buttocks.
“Birather, bend please.” General Zia still couldn’t get over the man’s American accent. He had always heard him speak Arabic with the Prince. He put his elbows on the table. “More,” the doctor ordered. He put his right cheek on the table and tried to think of something to distract himself.
His head was between two flags. Pakistan’s national flag, green and white with a thin right-facing crescent, on one side and on the other side, the flag of the Pakistan Army. He had almost made up his mind to reverse the crescent on the national flag after an Islamic scholar pointed out that it was a descending moon and not an ascending one, but then his advisers reminded him that the flag had been around for forty years and since nobody actually had any problem with the direction of the crescent, it was better to leave the flag alone.
He was relieved to feel that the doctor’s probing finger was lubricated.
He looked at the army flag. Underneath the crossed swords was the famous slogan that the Founder of the Nation had given this country as its birthday present and motto: “Faith. Unity. Discipline.” Suddenly, the slogan seemed not only banal and meaningless to him but too secular, non-committal, almost heretical. Faith? Which faith? Unity? Discipline? Do soldiers need that slogan? Aren’t they supposed to be united and disciplined by the very nature of their calling? He felt the doctor’s breath on his arse. The rubbered finger was replaced by a cold metallic tube which didn’t hurt but caused some discomfort.
It also dawned on him that when the Founder came up with this slogan, he had civilians in mind, not the armed forces. This slogan, he told himself, had to go. His mind raced, searching for words that would reflect the true nature of his soldiers’ mission. Allah had to be there. Jihad, very important. He knew it would please his friend Bill Casey. He couldn’t decide on a third word but he knew it would come.
The doctor patted his buttock and said: “You can get up please.” The General pulled up his underwear before turning round, making sure that the doctor didn’t get a glimpse of his front. He still remembered his first question.
The doctor was grinning. “You eat a sugaa?” The General shook his head in confusion.
“Yes. Yes. I have a sweet tooth.”
“Birather, that’s why you so sweet.” The doctor patted his cheek with his gloved hand and General Zia blushed at the thought of where that hand had just been.
“You’ve worms, sir.” The doctor opened the palm of his left hand and showed him some tiny dead worms.
“Why does it itch so much, then?”
The doctor’s grin broadened. “They like prisoners. They worms. They eat sugaa, they get energy, they wanna out. They wanna find escape. The itch is like…” He tried to think of an expression, then made a shovelling movement with his hands. “The itch is worms tunnelling. Making tunnels.”
General Zia nodded his head slowly. This was the second time in three days that he had been warned about tunnels. Here he was, worried about being trapped in a whale, while the enemy was eating away at his innards. A blasphemous thought occurred to him; what if there was an army of little Jonahs trapped in his stomach praying to get out?
“I’ll cut down on sugar.”
“No cuttin sugaa.” The doctor took out bottle of Canderel. “Sugaa finish. OK? No sugaa. Take this.”
The doctor shut his bag and General Zia held his face in both hands and kissed him on both his cheeks in the customary Arab fashion.
Then he realised his pants were still around his ankles.
Later over dinner, savouring the bitterness of bitter gourd, Bill Casey spoke like a ghost with the enlightenment of hindsight. “Brother Zia.” He dabbed the corner of his mouth with his napkin to wipe off the drool. “You think your folks are tryin’ to kill ya? You should see those vultures at Capitol Hill. They have already killed me.”
NINE
The first light of the day catches me dozing on my feet, my back against the wall, my toes clenched in my boots, my sweat-soaked khaki shirt open to my navel. The light is a long thin shaft coming through the tiny gap where the metal door is clamped against the bathroom wall. The shaft of light illuminates the ancient dust particles of the Lahore Fort prison; it highlights the bathroom wall in front of me, revealing bits of graffiti, something for me to do besides fantasising about impossible escape plans. When my car journey with Major Kiyani ended in the Fort, I expected a prison cell worthy of a trainee officer and an expert team of interrogators. What I got is this shithole and my own company.