Up he went, into a nightmare.
Jenna found an old cotton painter's drop cloth, and put it around Nick's shoulders. Each word of his story sent a shiver from her neck to the base of her spine. Like shards of glass stabbing. Like ice. Nick was looking at her then, measuring the impact of his words, not sure if he was losing her or winning her over. What he had to say was nothing, however, compared with what he'd seen in his parents' bedroom.
"It was bad," he whispered. "It wasn't some movie set or anything like that, but I wanted it to be fake. To be like some big joke. But I knew that my mom and dad would never play a joke like that."
Jenna held him closer. Her heart ached for what he was about to disclose.
"You're going to be all right, Nick. You're going to be fine. I'm here"
He shot her a look that stopped her cold. He didn't even have to say the words. She felt stupid. Of course, he wasn't all right. How could he be?
"I want to smoke," he said.
"Later. I can't help you if I don't know what happened"
He drew in a deep breath and held it. He wished he didn't have to breathe at all. Breathing meant living. He'd wished to God that he'd been dead, that he never seen what was in his parent's bedroom.
"Mom? Dad?"
The room was dark and absolutely still. The blinds glowed orange from the daylight outside, but the light was out and Nick couldn't see anything. He reached for the switch. The flash from an overhead bisque and brass fixture filled the room with creamy light ... and red.
The red, he knew with the visceral response that comes with complete fear was blood.
Not this. No. No. Please.
His mother was nude on the bed. Shed been bound with something on her legs and feet. His father; dressed, was beside her. A spray of blood spatter arced behind the bed. There was so much blood! He took each piece of the scene in like a Polaroid, not waiting to really see what he was viewing. Later the images would emerge from the fog of what he d seen. His father's curly silver hair was caked in shiny whorls of blood. His mother's skin was tissue white. Everything had been touched by the dark red color of blood.
"Mom! Dad!" Nick lunged for the bed and tried to shake them into waking, though he knew they were dead. His father's dark eyes stared blankly at the ceiling. His mother had doll eyes, too. Open, but seeing nothing at all. He was crying then. His hands were wet with blood and he spun around, as the reality of what he d seen sucked him deeper into terror. "Momma! Daddy!"
On the floor, he saw afoot, a leg, and then the rest of his brother. Still. Lifeless like his parents. Nick started circling the front of the bed. He was a caged animal. The door was open, he could leave, of course, but he just kept circling. He needed to call 911. Call the police. But he was paralyzed by fear He called out, a wail of emotion, for his brother and his parents. Had Dad killed Mom, then Donny? Why? Nick felt his pocket for his cell phone, but it was gone. Must be in my backpack. Or the truck.
Family pictures looked on from the dresser. Among them was a shot ofNick and Donny grinning in cutoffs and Grand Canyon T-shirts standing against the celebrated red rocks of Sedona, Arizona. His mom and dad's wedding photo, his dad having to forever live down the white and powder blue tux that he d put on because he loved Peg so much. Mom with her medallion for winning the Tri-State Cat Fanciers show
Blood spatter mottled the mirror. Nick caught a glimpse of his own horror, a face he almost didn't recognize, so twisted in fear He turned away to go for the phone when a guttural sound called out from the bed. It was a plaintive cry, not quite human sounding. He wondered if Natasha had followed him upstairs.
The noise was a gurgling sound, but it wasn't the cat. It came from his father. Nick bent close. He could feel the warmth of his dad's breath.
Mark Martin was alive.
`Dad! What happened? What? I'm getting help now"
Mark Martin's eyes weren't tracking his son, but his lips were moving Blood pooled from his mouth.
"Nick? "
Fighting back his tears, Nick wanted to tell his father how sorry he was for everything he d done to disappoint him. He put his hand under his father's head, cradling him like a baby. He could feel the wetness under his dad's back that he thought at once had to be blood.
"I'm getting help. Going right now," Nick said.
Mark Martin tried to lift his head, he gurgled out another cry. He wheezed. "Closer ... thought Donny was you." His words disappeared into the agony of his ebbing life.
Nick was near hysterics by then. He couldn't hear what his dad was saying. It just didn't make sense. Donny wasn't him. Of course, he wasn't.
"What, Dad? "
"Get out ... son ... go. Not safe. Angel here. Hide. Won't stop until you're dead."
And with that, Mark Martin's seemingly dead eyes rolled back into his head. He had taken his last breath to issue his son some kind of a warning. Hide. Not safe. Get out. Nick was in such a state of anguish and fear that he thought he might have dreamt the whole thing.
How he wished that could be true.
Nick was crying so hard by then that Jenna knew her words couldn't console him. Nobody's words could. He hadn't done anything wrong. He hadn't shot his mother and father and brother. She believed everything Nick said, not because she was some gullible young girl, but because the Nick Martin she knew, the one that she had fallen a little in love with, was the gentlest of boys. He would never hurt anyone. He never had.
It was as if all the emotion had sputtered out of him. Nick Martin was immobile. He'd relived the images of what he'd seen in his parents' bedroom. He wasn't even crying anymore. The lack of emotion was nearly as disturbing as what Jenna had heard him describe. She kept her arms around him, not sure what to say. He was like some kind of bird who had smacked into a window and slumped down to the ground. Stunned. Motionless.
"I'm all right," Nick finally said. "My dad saved me. He told me to get out. The killer might have been there. I don't know. I just got in my truck and drove. I didn't know where to go. I was so messed up. I came here"
"I'm so sorry," Jenna said. "We need to get help. My mom can help. You didn't do this."
He looked more hurt than distraught just then. "Did you think that I did?"
"No. I didn't. But Nick, I don't understand any of this. Who would have killed your family?"
Nick stood. "Do you think I know? Do you think that I would be sitting in this crap hole if I knew who did this? I want to make them pay! I'll kill them myself." His voice was rising with anger and it scared Jenna.
"Calm down, Nick. I'm here for you. I believe in you." She didn't let go, though her heart was pounding. Fear was filling the room. She wasn't really sure what had happened back at the Martin house, but she could accept that Nick hadn't played a role in it. "We have to think. We have to figure out what happened."
"A couple of weeks ago, my parents told me that my birth mother had wanted to meet me when I turned eighteen next month. She -I guess through a lawyer-contacted my dad through a lawyer here in Cherrystone-Cary McConnell."
"I know Cary," Jenna said, a disgusted look now on her face. "He's a jerk"
"You told me about your mom and him hooking up, so I didn't want to say anything to you. Basically I didn't want any part of this. I love my mom and dad. Sure I'm not exactly what they wanted, I guess. They are my parents. Not some woman who gave me up for adoption. Some guy who knocked her up and left her. Whatever her lame story is, I don't care. I told my dad that"
"Your mom and dad really loved you."
"My dad saved me"
"He called you his angel."
Another tear rolled down his cheek. Nick didn't bother to wipe it. He was lost in his thoughts. His father, mother, brother. All gone.