"My God, Inspector, I think you're serious."
"Listen carefully, Irishman, I might find a voice we never knew I had."
He looked sad, as if something in him had bent to its limit. I could see he was uneasy. He tried to shake it off, cleared his throat and ran a hand over his scalp, just to get an extra second. That wasn't enough, so he coughed and looked at the clock. Finally, he crossed his arms over his chest.
"However you want to proceed, Inspector."
"fust pretend you didn't hear me say that. I'm not looking for sympathy."
"Don't worry." He nodded, and I knew he'd found himself again.
"I'm not looking to give any. You said Pak told you to go to Manpo. Curious thing for him to do. Makes me wonder. Why would he send you right into Kang's arms?"
"Pak spent most of his days trying to keep me out of trouble, one way or another. It's always been easy for me to step over the line, I don't even know where it is half the time. The other half I don't care. Pak didn't want me transferred away. We were comfortable, a comfortable office, nice way to spend the days. Pak took his job seriously, and he looked out for me. That's just the way he was. I would have done the same for him." I paused. "I should have."
The Irishman lit a cigarette, looked at it with distaste, then put it out.
"Should have. Another way of saying, 'Didn't.'" He tapped the tape recorder. "Ready? Nice and slow. Keep your voice level, would you?"
"Screw all machines, Richie. Have they got buttons on that thing for sarcasm, or irony, or the unspeakable? Do they make machines like that in the West? We don't. We still just use our voices to help out where words can't quite bridge the gap."
"Now you're really breaking my heart, Inspector. Can we get on with it?"
A mountain road runs by
The stream where we rested.
Listening to the wind in the larch trees, I wonder if summer Still lingers in Manpo.
The station platform at Manpo at three in the morning is filled with people, but it is eerily quiet because none of them speak. When they move, they are no different than the fog drifting past the naked bulbs that flicker on the low wooden ceiling overhead. It was August, but colder here than in Kanggye, and I wasn't dressed for it.
Later in the morning, maybe I could find a jacket; for now I needed a place to stay and something to eat. I had a few meal coupons with me, some dirty Chinese currency, and about a hundred wrinkled dollars, but at this hour there probably wouldn't be anything open.
I squeezed through the crowd and emerged onto the square in front of the station. I did not expect to find anything, and I didn't. The vendors were all gone. Out of the darkness I heard a voice behind me, low and close. "You want a girl?" In Pyongyang, I would have grabbed the voice by the throat and pushed it against the wall. One thing I didn't allow in my sector was pimping out in the open. I couldn't stop it in the clubs or the hotels, but I drew the line at the street, and after a couple of months nearly everyone got the word. Once in a while someone came in from out of town who didn't know the rules. They learned, or they sashayed into another section of the city. Here, though, I had no jurisdiction. I turned around slowly. The voice belonged to an old man.
The sleeves of his shirt were too long for his arms, while his trousers were too short and the waist, too big, was cinched tightly with a rope belt. When he raised his hands, a gesture to show he meant no harm, I saw that both of his sleeves were torn at the elbows. He dropped his hands to his sides, then put his thumbs through his belt and smiled. I was amazed to see he had all his teeth. "Nice girls." He smiled again, not a leer, no hint of anything lascivious, just a friendly observation.
"Grandfather, I want a place to stay and something to eat."
He kept smiling. "So do we all, my friend. So do we all." He paused.
When he turned slightly, I saw that despite the worn elbows, his shirt was crisp, freshly pressed, not a wrinkle on it, and on his chest was a badge, a small round portrait of Kim II Sung. It was from maybe twenty-five or thirty years ago, the sort ranking cadres used to wear.
"How the mighty have fallen." He watched me closely, the unwavering smile no longer necessary, past time to fade. Most people smile quickly at a stranger and are done with it.
The air was getting unpleasant as the fog thickened. It passed through my mind that standing in the damp, holding a conversation with this old man, was not what I wanted at this hour of the morning, yet there was something hypnotic about him. He glanced down at the badge, then back at me. "The sun rises, the sun sets. It only seems brighter at noon," he said, and grunted softly. "Yet right now, it is very dark." After the barest breath of a moment, the smile left his lips and his face became a portrait of indifference. Too blank, too fast. I felt my stomach tighten. He looked past me. "Not much open at this hour, but I know a restaurant. A few Russian girls. A few Chinese girls. You'll have to buy them drinks. If you like, after that, there may be a place to stay."
"No, thanks. Too complicated. I'll just walk a little."
"I wouldn't advise that." He didn't look thin or old anymore. Something stern passed over him, as if he suddenly recalled a time when he was obeyed immediately and without question. "This isn't Pyongyang."
Just as the last word was spoken, I felt the back of my head explode, the dim light behind the old man went red, and my knees buckled. The left one went first, so I knew that, as usual, I would wrench my back. As I slipped to the ground, I wondered if there was any tea where I was going, and then I was gone.
2
I knew I was in a bed. I was pretty sure not much time had passed. I didn't know my name, or why I smelled perfume. If I didn't open my eyes, I didn't have to deal with where I was, or why. But if I didn't open my eyes, the perfume might go away forever.
There was one lamp in the room. The bulb was dim under the yellowed shade, and the light didn't get very far. The perfume was a woman sitting on a chair tipped against the wall. She didn't look Korean, barely Asian. Her eyes were closed and she might have been asleep, but she was smoking. It was a Russian cigarette. She had long black hair and wore a white blouse with shiny blue buttons. The buttons annoyed me. So did the cigarette. The perfume still won. It was like sitting in a meadow looking at rows of mountains slumbering against the dawn. I groaned, remembering how I got here. Sunrise, waiting for a black car to come up from the south.
"Good, you're alive." The woman sat up in the chair and opened her eyes. They were Asian but reaching west. Even in the half shadows of the room, her eyes were vivid, brighter than the lamp beside the bed.
For a moment I could see the steppes, Mongols on ponies sweeping through villages, blood and flames. Then I realized I didn't have a shirt on. I pulled the blanket up.
"Did the earth move for you, too?" I said to no one in particular.
"Hemingway," she said. One word, but she took her time saying it.
Her voice was like what I remembered from breakfast in Budapest, honey on warm bread. "Nice. But don't flatter yourself. I only took off your shirt because when you fell, you fell into something not so sweet.
It's bad for business if the bed smells like a sewer." I wondered if my head had been hit harder than I thought. One minute she looked Asian, then she didn't.
I noticed she had a cup of tea on the small table beside her. She watched me lick my lips. "Sorry, the hot plate is broken and I'm out of coal for the firebox until tomorrow morning. All I have is beer and black bread with jam."
"No honey? Maybe a drop of vodka?" Beer and jam. I shuddered, and it wasn't from the cold.