Beron gave her a withering glare, but shoved off the sword and strode forward. He practically chucked that fleck of light onto Rhys. I didn’t care about that, either.
I didn’t know the spell, the power it came from. But I was High Lady.
I held out my palm. Willing that spark of life to appear. Nothing happened.
I took a steadying breath, remembering how it had looked. “Tell me how,” I growled to no one.
Thesan coughed and stepped forward. Explaining the core of power and on and on and I didn’t care, but I listened, until—
There. Small as a sunflower seed, it appeared in my palm. A bit of me—my life.
I laid it gently on Rhys’s blood-crusted throat.
And I realized, just as he appeared, what was missing.
Tamlin stood there, summoned by either the death of a fellow High Lord or one of the others around me. He was splattered in mud and gore, his new bandolier of knives mostly empty.
He studied Rhys, lifeless before me. Studied all of us—the palms still out.
There was no kindness on his face. No mercy.
“Please,” was all I said to him.
Then Tamlin glanced between us—me and my mate. His face did not change.
“Please,” I wept. “I will—I will give you anything—”
Something shifted in his eyes at that. But not kindness. No emotion at all.
I laid my head on Rhysand’s chest, listening for any kind of heartbeat through that armor.
“Anything,” I breathed to no one in particular. “Anything.”
Steps scuffed on the rocky ground. I braced myself for another set of hands trying to pull me away, and dug my fingers in harder.
The steps remained behind me for long enough that I looked.
Tamlin stood there. Staring down at me. Those green eyes swimming with some emotion I couldn’t place.
“Be happy, Feyre,” he said quietly.
And dropped that final kernel of light onto Rhysand.
I had not witnessed it—when it had been done to me.
So all I did was hold on to him. To his body, to the tatters of that bond.
Stay, I begged. Stay.
Light glowed beyond my shut eyelids.
Stay.
And in the silence … I began to tell him.
About that first night I’d seen him. When I’d heard that voice beckoning me to the hills. When I couldn’t resist its summons, and now … now I wondered if I had heard him calling for me on Calanmai. If it had been his voice that brought me there that night.
I told him how I had fallen in love with him—every glance and passed note and croak of laughter he coaxed from me. I told him of everything we’d done, and what it had meant to me, and all that I still wanted to do. All the life still left before us.
And in return … a thud sounded.
I opened my eyes. Another thud.
And then his chest rose, lifting my head with it.
I couldn’t move, couldn’t breathe—
A hand brushed my back.
Then Rhys groaned, “If we’re all here, either things went very, very wrong or very right.”
Cassian’s broken laugh cracked out of him.
I couldn’t lift my head, couldn’t do anything but hold him, savoring every heartbeat and breath and the rumble of his voice as Rhys rasped, “You lot will be pleased to know … My power remains my own. No thieving here.”
“You do know how to make an entrance,” Helion drawled. “Or should I say exit?”
“You’re horrible,” Viviane snapped. “That’s not even remotely funny—”
I didn’t hear what else they said. Rhys sat up, lifting me off him. He brushed away the hair clinging to my damp cheeks.
“Stay with the High Lord,” he murmured.
I hadn’t believed it—until I looked into that face. Those star-flecked eyes.
Hadn’t let myself believe it wasn’t anything but some delusion—
“It’s real,” he said, kissing my brow. “And—there’s another surprise.”
He pointed with a healed hand toward the Cauldron. “Someone fish out dear Amren before she catches a cold.”
Varian whirled toward us. But Mor was sprinting for the Cauldron, and her cry as she reached in—
“How?” I breathed.
Azriel and Varian were there, helping Mor heave a waterlogged form out of the dark water.
Her chest rose and fell, her features the same, but …
“She was there,” Rhys said. “When the Cauldron was sealing. Going … wherever we go.”
Amren sputtered water, vomiting onto the rocky ground. Mor thumped her back, coaxing her through it.
“So I reached out a hand,” Rhys went on quietly. “To see if she might want to come back.”
And as Amren opened her eyes, as Varian let out a choked sound of relief and joy—
I knew—what she had given up to come back. High Fae—and just that.
For her silver eyes were solid. Unmoving. No smoke, no burning mist in them.
A normal life, no trace of her powers to be seen.
And as Amren smiled at me … I wondered if that had been her last gift.
If it all … if it all had been a gift.
CHAPTER
78
Amongst the sprawling field of corpses and wounded, there was one body I wanted to bury.
Only Nesta, Elain, and I returned to that clearing, once Azriel had given the all-clear that the battle was well and truly over.
Letting Rhys out of my sight to wrangle our scattered armies, sort through the living and dead, and figure out some semblance of order was an effort in self-control.
I nearly begged Rhys to come with us, so I didn’t have to let go of his hand, which I had not stopped clutching since those moments I’d heard his beautiful, solid heartbeat echoing into his body once more.
But this task, this farewell … I knew, deep down, that it was only for my sisters and me.
So I released Rhys’s hand, kissing him once, twice, and left him in the war-camp to help Mor haul a barely standing Cassian to the nearest healer.
Nesta was watching them when I reached her and Elain at the tree-lined outskirts. Had she done some healing, somehow, in those moments after she’d severed the king’s head? Or had it been Cassian’s immortal blood and Azriel’s battlefield patching that had already healed him enough to manage to stand, even with the wing and leg? I didn’t ask my sister, and she supplied no answer as she took the water bucket dangling from Elain’s still-bloody hands, and I followed them both through the trees.
The King of Hybern’s corpse lay in the clearing, crows already picking at it.
Nesta spat on it before we approached our father. The crows barely scattered in time.
The screams and moaning of the wounded was a distant wall of sound—another world away from the sun-dappled clearing. From the blood still fresh on the moss and grass. I blocked out the coppery tang of it—Cassian’s blood, the king’s blood, Nesta’s blood.
Only our father had not bled. He hadn’t been given the chance to. And through whatever small mercy of the Mother, the crows hadn’t started on him.
Elain quietly washed his face. Combed out his hair and beard. Straightened his clothes.
She found flowers—somewhere. She laid them at his head, on his chest.
We stared down at him in silence.
“I love you,” Elain whispered, voice breaking.
Nesta said nothing, face unreadable. There were such shadows in her eyes. I had not told her what I’d seen—had let them tell me what they wanted.
Elain breathed, “Should we—say a prayer?”
We did not have such things in the human world, I remembered. My sisters had no prayers to offer him. But in Prythian …
“Mother hold you,” I whispered, reciting words I had not heard since that day Under the Mountain. “May you pass through the gates; may you smell that immortal land of milk and honey.” Flame ignited at my fingertips. All I could muster. All that was left. “Fear no evil. Feel no pain.” My mouth trembled as I breathed, “May you enter eternity.”