I glanced between them, my mouth going dry. “Please. Just listen to him.”
The guard hanging between the posts had such hope and gratitude in his eyes.
In this … in this, my revenge edged toward something oily, something foreign and queasy. He would heal from the pain, but the blow to his honor … It’d take a little piece out of mine as well.
Tamlin stared at me, then Ianthe. Then glanced to the smirking Hybern royals—to Jurian, who crossed his arms, his face unreadable.
And like I’d gambled, Tamlin’s need for control, for strength, won out.
Ianthe was too important an ally to risk isolating. The word of a low sentry … no, it did not matter as much as hers.
Tamlin turned to the sentry tied to the posts. “Put the bit in,” he quietly ordered Bron.
There was a heartbeat of hesitation from Bron—as if the shock of Tamlin’s order had rippled through him. Through all the guards. Siding with Ianthe—over them. His sentries.
Who had gone over the wall, again and again, to try to break that curse for him. Who had gladly done it, gladly died, hunted down as those wolves, for him. And the wolf I’d felled, Andras … He’d gone willingly, too. Tamlin had sent them all over, and not all of them had come back. They had gone willingly, yet this … this was his thanks. His gratitude. His trust.
But Bron did as commanded, sliding the small piece of wood into the now-trembling sentry’s mouth.
Judging by the barely concealed disdain in the guards’ faces, at least they were aware of what had occurred—or what they believed had occurred: the High Priestess had orchestrated this entire attack to cast herself as a savior, offering up the reputation of one of their own as the asking price. They had no idea—none—that I’d goaded her into it, pushed and pushed her to reveal just what a snake she was. How little anyone without a title meant to her.
How Tamlin listened to her without question—to a fault.
It wasn’t much of an act when I put a hand to my throat, backing up a step, then another, until Lucien’s warmth was against me, and I leaned fully into him.
The sentries were sizing up Ianthe, the royals. Tamlin had always been one of them—fought for them.
Until now. Until Hybern. Until he put these foreign monsters before them.
Until he put a scheming High Priestess before them.
Tamlin’s eyes were on us, on the hand Lucien put on my arm to steady me, as he drew back the whip.
The thunderous crack as it cleaved the air snapped through the barracks, the estate.
Through the very foundations of the court.
CHAPTER
9
Ianthe wasn’t done.
I knew it—braced myself for it. She didn’t flit back to her temple a few miles away.
Rather, she remained at the house, seizing her chance to worm her way closer to Tamlin. She believed she’d gained a foothold, that her declaration of justice served at the bloody end of the whipping hadn’t been anything but a final slap in the face to the guards who watched.
And when that sentry had sagged from his bindings, when the others came to gently untie him, Ianthe merely ushered the Hybern party and Tamlin into the manor for lunch. But I’d remained at the barracks, tending to the groaning sentry, drawing away bloodied bowls of water while the healer quietly patched him up.
Bron and Hart personally escorted me back to the estate hours later. I thanked them each by name. Then apologized that I hadn’t been able to prevent it—Ianthe’s scheming or the unjust punishment of their friend. I meant every word, the crack of the whip still echoing in my ears.
Then they spoke the words I’d been waiting for. They were sorry they hadn’t stopped any of it, either.
Not just today. But the bruises now fading—at last. The other incidents.
If I had asked them, they would have handed me their own knives to slit their throats.
The next evening, I was hurrying back to my room to change for dinner when Ianthe made her next move.
She was to come with us to the wall tomorrow morning.
Her, and Tamlin, too.
If we were all to be a united front, she’d declared over dinner, then she wished to see the wall herself.
The Hybern royals didn’t care. But Jurian winked at me, as if he, too, saw the game in motion.
I packed my own bags that night.
Alis entered right before bed, a third pack in her hands. “Since it’s a longer trip, I brought you supplies.”
Even with Tamlin joining us, it was too many people for him to winnow us directly.
So we’d go, as we’d done before, in segments. A few miles at a time.
Alis laid the pack she’d prepared beside my own. Picked up the brush on the vanity and beckoned me to sit on the cushioned bench before it.
I obeyed. For a few minutes, she brushed my hair in silence.
Then she said, “When you leave tomorrow, I leave, too.”
I lifted my eyes to hers in the mirror.
“My nephews are packed, the ponies ready to take us back to Summer Court territory at last. It has been too long since I saw my home,” she said, though her eyes shone.
“I know the feeling,” was all I said.
“I wish you well, lady,” Alis said, setting down the brush and beginning to braid back my hair. “For the rest of your days, however long they may be, I wish you well.”
I let her finish the plait, then pivoted on the bench to grip her thin fingers in mine. “Don’t ever tell Tarquin you know me well.”
Her brows rose.
“There is a blood ruby with my name on it,” I clarified.
Even her tree-bark skin seemed to blanch. She understood it well enough: I was a hunted enemy of the Summer Court. Only my death would be accepted as payment for my crimes.
Alis squeezed my hand. “Blood rubies or no, you will always have one friend in the Summer Court.”
My throat bobbed. “And you will always have one in mine,” I promised her.
She knew which court I meant. And did not look afraid.
The sentries did not glance at Tamlin, or so much as speak to him unless absolutely necessary. Bron, Hart, and three others were to join us. They had spotted me checking on their friend before dawn—a courtesy I knew none of the others had extended.
Winnowing felt like wading through mud. In fact, my powers had become more of a burden than a help. I had a throbbing headache by noon, and spent the last leg of the journey dizzy and disoriented as we winnowed again and again.
We arrived and set up camp in near-silence. I quietly, shyly asked to share a tent with Ianthe instead of Tamlin, appearing eager to mend the rift the whipping had torn between us. But I did it more to spare Lucien from her attention than to keep Tamlin at bay. Dinner was made and eaten, bedrolls laid out, and Tamlin ordered Bron and Hart on the first watch.
Lying beside Ianthe without slitting her throat was an exercise in patience and control.
But whenever the knife beneath my pillow seemed to whisper her name, I’d remind myself of my friends. The family that was alive—healing in the North.
I repeated their names silently, over and over into the darkness. Rhysand. Mor. Cassian. Amren. Azriel. Elain. Nesta.
I thought of how I had last seen them, so bloodied and hurting. Thought of Cassian’s scream as his wings were shredded; of Azriel’s threat to the king as he advanced on Mor. Nesta, fighting every step toward the Cauldron.
My goal was bigger than revenge. My purpose greater than personal retribution.
Dawn broke, and I found my palm curled around the hilt of my knife anyway. I drew it out as I sat up, staring down at the sleeping priestess.
The smooth column of her neck seemed to glow in the early-morning sun leaking through the tent flaps.
I weighed the knife in my hand.
I wasn’t sure I’d been born with the ability to forgive. Not for terrors inflicted on those I loved. For myself, I didn’t care—not nearly as much. But there was some fundamental pillar of steel in me that could not bend or break in this. Could not stomach the idea of letting these people get away with what they’d done.