Never—they had never come this close to discussing what had happened to him.
I approached Rhys’s side, brushing my fingers against his. His own curled around mine.
“If Amarantha offered us a slim shot at survival,” Rhys said, his gaze unflinching, “then I would not give a shit that she made me fuck her for all those years.”
Cassian flinched. The entire room flinched.
“If Amarantha showed up at that door right now,” Rhys snarled, pointing toward the foyer entry, “and said she could buy us a chance at defeating Hybern, at keeping all of you alive, I would thank the fucking Cauldron.”
Mor shook her head, tears slipping free again. “You don’t mean that.”
“I do.”
Rhys.
But the bond, the bridge between us … it was a howling void. A raging, dark tempest.
Too far—this was pushing them both too far. I tried to catch Cassian’s gaze, but he was monitoring them closely, his golden-brown skin unnaturally pale. Azriel’s shadows gathered close, half veiling him from view. And Amren—
Amren stepped between Rhys and Mor. They both towered over her.
“I kept this unit from breaking for forty-nine years,” Amren said, eyes flaring bright as lightning. “I am not going to let you rip it to shreds now.” She faced Mor. “Working with Keir and Eris is not forgiving them. And when this war is over, I will hunt them down and butcher them with you, if that is what you wish.” Mor said nothing—though she at last looked away from Rhys.
“My father will poison this city.”
“I will not allow him to,” Amren said.
I believed her.
And I think Mor did, too, for the tears that continued sliding free … they seemed to shift, somehow.
Amren turned to Rhys, whose face had now edged toward—devastation.
I slid my hand through his. I see you, I said, giving him the words I’d once whispered all those months ago. And it does not frighten me.
Amren said to him, “You’re a sneaky bastard. You always have been, and likely always will be. But it doesn’t excuse you, boy, from not warning us. Warning her, not where those two monsters are involved. Yes, you made the right call—played it well. But you also played it badly.”
Something like shame dimmed his eyes. “I’m sorry.”
The words—to Mor, to Amren.
Amren’s dark hair swayed as she assessed them. Mor just shook her head at last—more acceptance than denial.
I swallowed, my voice rough as I said, “This is war. Our allies are few and already don’t trust us.” I met each of them in the eye—my sister, Lucien, Mor, and Azriel and Cassian. Then Amren. Then my mate. I squeezed his hand at the guilt now sinking its claws deep into him. “You all have been to war and back—when I’ve never even set foot on a battlefield. But … I have to imagine that we will not last long if … we cleave apart. From within.”
Stumbling, near-incoherent words, but Azriel said at last, “She’s right.”
Mor didn’t so much as look in his direction. I could have sworn guilt clouded Azriel’s eyes, there and gone in a blink.
Amren stepped back to Nesta’s side as Cassian asked me, “What happened with the mirror?”
I shook my head. “Keir says it’s mine, if I dare to take it. Apparently, what you see inside will break you—or drive you insane. No one’s ever walked away from it.”
Cassian swore.
“Exactly,” I said. It was a risk perhaps none of us were entirely prepared to face. Not when we were all needed—each one of us.
Mor added a bit hoarsely, straightening the ebony pleats and panels of her gossamer gown, “My father spoke true about that. I was raised with legends of the mirror. None were pleasant. Or successful.”
Cassian frowned at me, at Rhys. “So what—”
“You are talking about the Ouroboros,” Amren said.
I blinked. Shit. Shit—
“Why do you want that mirror?” Her voice had slipped to a low timbre.
Rhys slid his free hand into his pocket. “If honesty is the theme of the night … Because the Bone Carver requested it.”
Amren’s nostrils flared. “You went to the Prison.”
“Your old friends say hello,” Cassian drawled, leaning a shoulder against the sitting room archway.
Amren’s face tightened, Nesta glancing between them—carefully. Reading us. Especially as Amren’s quicksilver eyes swirled. “Why did you go.”
I opened my mouth, but the gold of Lucien’s eye caught my attention. Snared it.
My hesitation must have been indication enough of my wariness.
Jaw tight with a hint of frustration, Lucien excused himself to his room. Frustration—and perhaps disappointment. I blocked it out—what it did to my stomach.
“We had some questions for the Carver.” Cassian gave Amren a slash of a smile when Lucien was gone. “And we have some for you.”
Amren’s smoke-filled eyes flared. “You are going to unleash the Carver.”
I said simply, “Yes.” A one-monster army.
“That is impossible.”
“I’ll remind you that you, sweet Amren, escaped,” Rhys countered smoothly. “And have stayed free. So it can be done. Perhaps you could tell us how you did it.”
Cassian had stationed himself by the doorway, I realized, to be closer to Nesta. To grab her if Amren decided she didn’t particularly care for where this conversation was headed. Or for any of the furniture in this room.
Precisely why Rhys now placed himself on Amren’s other side—to draw her attention away from me, and Mor behind us, every muscle in her lithe body on alert.
Cassian was staring at Nesta—hard enough that my sister at last twisted toward him. Met his gaze. His head tilted—slightly. A silent order.
Nesta, to my shock, obeyed. Drifted over to Cassian’s side as Amren replied to Rhys, “No.”
“It wasn’t a request,” Rhys said.
He’d once admitted that merely questioning Amren had been something she’d allowed him to do only in recent years. But giving her an order, pushing her like this …
“Feyre and Cassian spoke to the Bone Carver. He wants the Ouroboros in exchange for serving us—fighting Hybern for us. But we need you to explain how to get him out.” The bargain Rhys or I would strike with him would suffice to hold him to our will.
“Anything else?” Her voice was too calm, too sweet.
“When we’re done with all of this,” Rhys said, “then my promise from months ago still holds: use the Book to send yourself home, if you want.”
Amren stared up at him. It was so quiet that the clock on the sitting room mantel could be heard. And beyond that—the fountain in the garden—
“Call off your dog,” Amren said with that lethal tone.
Because the shadow in the corner behind Amren … that was Azriel. The obsidian hilt of Truth-Teller in his scarred hand. He’d moved without my realizing it—though I had no doubt the others had likely been aware.
Amren bared her teeth at him. Azriel’s beautiful face didn’t so much as shift.
Rhys remained where he was as he asked Amren, “Why won’t you tell us?”
Cassian casually slid Nesta behind him, his fingers snagging in the skirts of her black gown. As if to reassure himself that she wasn’t in Amren’s direct path. Nesta only rose onto her toes to peer over his shoulder.
“Because the stone beneath this house has ears, the wind has ears—all of it listening,” Amren said. “And if it reports back … They will remember, Rhysand, that they have not caught me. And I will not let them put me in that black pit again.”
My ears hollowed out as a shield clicked into place. “No one will hear beyond this room.”