But my roommate didn't wake. He merely let out a phlegmy gurgle, moaned, gasped, shifted a little, and resumed snoring. Kulaski blinked, his tongue flicking across his lips, and the tension in his body eased. He moved back in his chair, unclenching his fingers, composed once more. I exhaled. The moment of danger had passed. My body ached all over, as though it had been struck by phantom fists.
"Perhaps it's time," Kulaski said, "that we talk about the assault you underwent, Mr. Lapid. As it so happens, I'm the investigating officer. Can you tell me what happened?"
"Nothing you don't already know," I said through gritted teeth.
"But I hardly know anything, I'm sorry to say. There were no witnesses to the attack. No one saw a thing." He spread his hands in a what-can-you-do gesture. "I spent all day yesterday pursuing leads, but so far nothing."
He was sending me a message, telling me I had no hope in hell of seeing the men who'd attacked me brought to justice. Not that I expected any different.
"I'm sure you couldn't sleep a wink because of it," I said.
He ignored my sarcasm. "Would you be able to recognize the assailants?"
"They came at me from behind, it was dark, and they wore something across their faces."
"So they could be anyone?"
"Yes. Even you."
He chuckled, wagging his finger as though reproaching me for telling an inappropriate joke. "Just so you know, I was at the station throughout that night, Mr. Lapid. Other officers would vouch for me."
Sure they would. And he would vouch for them if called for. That was how it worked. Cops protecting each other and avenging their comrades. I had no doubt that my assailants were police officers. Told by Kulaski that I'd put one of their colleagues in the hospital and then escaped justice. And then informed that I was back in their city, on their turf, thumbing my nose at them merely by walking freely on their streets. I felt only a limited measure of anger at these men despite the injuries they'd inflicted on me. As far as they knew, I was a violent criminal who'd pulled strings to avoid paying the price for beating one of their own. I'd evaded the justice of the law, so they set out to impose an alternative brand of justice. In their shoes, goaded by the right words from the mouth of an esteemed fellow officer, I might have been persuaded to do the same.
Only Kulaski was to blame. Kulaski with his personal vendetta against me. For some reason, I had become the focal point of his unbounded rage at the demonstrators who had warred with the police outside the Knesset. As through a sniper's scope, his desire for retribution had concentrated all its firepower on a single target: me.
And, deprived initially, his fury and thirst for vengeance had only increased. At first, it was at an intense yet reasonable level. Now it was an obsession.
"Normally, the police could dedicate more manpower to the investigation of your assault," Kulaski said, speaking in a tone that would sound doleful to other ears, but in which I heard an underlying glee, "but, regretfully, many of our officers are unable to carry out their duties because of injuries they sustained defending the Knesset from you and your buddies. So don't expect any breakthroughs."
"I won't be holding my breath," I said.
"A wise decision, Mr. Lapid. A wise decision. And speaking of wise decisions, another unfortunate symptom of the large number of incapacitated officers is an increase in crime here in Jerusalem. Cause and effect, you see. Fewer cops patrolling the streets, the more dangerous the streets become. As you can personally attest." He ran his eyes over me, lingering over various parts of my face, a thin smile on his thin lips. The bastard was relishing the signs of my injuries.
He said, "Jerusalem may remain dangerous for some time, I'm afraid. The smarter, safer thing for you to do would be to return home to Tel Aviv and stay away from the capital. Otherwise, in the current situation, who knows what other calamities may befall you."
The lines sounded rehearsed. Perhaps he had practiced them before the mirror as he was scraping his throat raw with his razor. They were part of the message he'd come here to deliver. The first part was him claiming responsibility for my assault; the second was the threat of worse to come if I did not heed his warning and get out of Jerusalem and never return.
It was effective. Again pain throbbed throughout my body. Fear made each tender spot ache. I curled my fingers into fists to keep the pain from showing on my face, but that only increased my suffering, as battered muscles in my arms tightened and flexed.
"I'll take that under advisement," I said, feeling foolish to keep up the pretense of self-assurance. I was beaten, and we both knew it.
"See that you do," he said. "If I were you, I'd go back to the safety of Tel Aviv as soon as possible. Today."
I stared at him in shock. "The doctor said I should stay in the hospital for several days."
"I'm sure he has his reasons, but the doctor doesn't know everything we do, Mr. Lapid, does he? He doesn't know how dangerous the streets of Jerusalem can be. Or even its hospitals."
Another message. This one saying that I wasn't safe from Kulaski anywhere in the capital. Not even here in the hospital. And this time, the outcome would not be confined to a bevy of injuries. This time, I would end up dead.
Looking at the inspector, I realized with horror that Kulaski's obsession with me had crossed the boundary of sanity. He wouldn't be making this threat otherwise. I doubted he could get another officer to make good on it. Certainly not in a public place like a hospital. Kulaski would have to do the dirty deed himself.
And he would. Without compunction. I could see it in the twin gray stains of mad malice that his eyes had become.
He said, "You know, Mr. Lapid, before I came to see you, I paid a visit to the brave officer you beat near the Knesset. He's still hospitalized."
"I didn't do it; I already told you that."
He nodded as though to a stupid child. "Yes, I know. You tried to help him. In some ways, he's worse off than you are. You didn't lose any teeth." It was obvious he considered this an oversight on his part. An unjust state of affairs.
Again, it seemed like the inspector was struggling to remain in control, to not let his violent urges get the better of him. The tics had returned. The skin on his face moved constantly, as though maggots milled about beneath it.
Fear squeezed my lungs at the sight. I couldn't draw air. I knew I was in terrible danger. Only when Kulaski picked up his cap, returned it to its place under his left arm, and stood, did the pressure in my chest subside and I could suck in air.
He said, "I apologize I could not be the bearer of good news today, Mr. Lapid. But I'm glad we had this little talk, aren't you?"
"Yes," I said, relief flooding my veins. He was leaving. The immediate danger had passed. "Yes, I am."
"I'm glad to hear it." He flicked a glance toward the door of the room, at the bed where my old roommate still snored, and added, "But just to make sure you grasp my full meaning..."
And before I could react, not even cry out, he drew back his right hand and rammed his fist into my ribs.
He knew of my injuries; his remark about my teeth proved that. That was why he chose the ribs. The pain was like a volcano eruption—scorching, searing, all-consuming. It snapped me up like a leaf in an evil wind, tossed me about, and then plunged me into a black abyss of seething agony. I was blind. I was deaf. I was in a vacuum of sensation. All my senses but that of pain were devoured by the lava that burned through my chest, spreading all over me. I was choking. My brain was shooting garbled messages, warped signals, panicked by its loss of control over my body.
The disconnection from everything around me could not have lasted more than a few seconds, but it felt as though I'd been exiled from myself for years and only now allowed to return.