He sat down meekly to eat.
Somehow, for some reason he could not understand, fulfilling a need of which he was not aware, he suddenly felt safe. Safe and secure against a nagging worry and a half-formed fear that had been building up within him without his knowing it.
Carrie came through the living room, settling a determined hat upon her determined head. She had the very air of a woman who was late for her circle meeting through no fault of her own. She halted at the door.
“You got everything you need?” she asked, her eyes making a swift inventory of the table.
“Everything.” He chuckled. “Have a good time at the circle. Pick up a lot of gossip.”
It was his favorite quip and he knew it irked her—and it was childish, too. But he could not resist it.
She flounced out of the door and he heard her putting down her heels with unnecessary firmness as she went down the walk.
With her going, a hard silence gripped the house and the deeper dusk moved in as he sat at the table eating.
Safe, he thought—old Johnson Dean, school man, safe inside the house his grandfather had built—how many years ago? Old-fashioned now, with its split-level floor plan and its high-bricked fireplace, with its double, attached garage and the planter out in front.
Safe and lonely.
And safe against what threat, against what creeping disturbance, so subtle that it failed of recognition?
He shook his head at that.
But lonely—that was different. That could be explained. The middle-young, he thought, and the very old are lonely. The middle-young because full communication had not been established, and the very old because communication had broken down.
Society was stratified, he told himself, stratified and sectored and partitioned off by many different factors—by age, by occupation, by education, by financial status. And the list did not end there. One could go on and on. It would be interesting, if a man could only find the time, to chart the stratification of humanity. Finished, if it ever could be finished, that chart would be a weird affair.
He finished the meal and wiped his mouth carefully with the napkin. He pushed back from the table and prowled the darkening living area.
He knew that he should at least pick up the dishes and tidy up the table. By rights, he should even wash them. He had caused Carrie a lot of fuss because he had been late. But he couldn’t bring himself to do it. He couldn’t settle down. Safe, he still was not at peace.
There was no use in putting this business off any longer, he realized, no use to duck the fear that was nagging at him. He knew what it was he faced, if he only would admit it.
Stuffy was crazy, of course. He could not possibly be right. He’d been thinking too much—imagining, rather.
The kids were no different now than they’d ever been.
Except that the grade averages had improved noticeably in the last ten years or so.
Except that there were, as one might expect of such grade averages, an increase in scholarships.
Except that the glitter of competitive sports was beginning to wear off.
Except that there was, in Millville, almost no delinquency.
And those solemn childish faces, with the big, bright eyes, staring up at him from the papers on his desk.
He paced slowly up and down the carpeting before the big brick fireplace, and the dead, black maw beneath the chimney throat, with the bitter smell of old wood ashes in it, seemed to be a mouth making sport of him.
He cracked one feebly clenched old fist into a shaky palm.
“It can’t be right,” he said fiercely to himself.
And yet, on the face of all evidence, it was.
The children in Millville were maturing faster; they were growing up, intellectually, much faster than they should.
And perhaps even more than that.
Growing in a new dimension, he wondered. Receding farther from the savage that still lingered in humanity. For sports, organized sports on whatever basis, still remained a refined product of the cave—some antagonism that Man had carried forward under many different guises and which broke forth at least partially in the open in the field of sports.
If he could only talk with the students, he thought, if he could somehow find out what they thought, then there might be a chance of running this thing to the ground.
But that was impossible. The barriers were too high and intricate, the lines of communication much too cluttered. For he was old and they were young; he was authority and they were the regimented. Once again the stratifications would keep them apart. There was no way in which he could approach them.
It was all right to say there was something happening, ridiculous as it might sound. But the important matter, if such should be the case, was to discover the cause and to plot the trend.
And Stuffy must be wrong. For it was fantastic to suggest the Sitters were engineering it.
Peculiarly enough, the Sitters, alien as they were, had established themselves as solid citizens of Millville. They would, he was sure, do nothing to jeopardize the position they had won—the position of being accepted and generally let alone and little talked about.
They would do nothing to attract attention to themselves. Through the years, too many other aliens had gotten into trouble through attempts to meddle and by exhibitionism. Although, come to think of it, what might have seemed to be exhibitionism, from the human viewpoint, possibly had been no more than normal alien conduct.
It had been the good fortune of the Sitters that their natural mother-disposition had enabled them to fit into the human pattern. They had proven ideal baby-sitters and in this they had an economic value and were the more readily accepted.
For many years, they had taken care of the MillvilIe babies and they were everything that a sitter ought to be. And now they ran a nursery school, although, he remembered, there had been some ruckus over that, since they quite understandably did not hold formal education credits.
He turned on a light and went to the shelves to find something he could read. But there was nothing there that held any interest for him. He ran a finger along the backs of the rows of volumes and his eyes flicked down the titles, but he found absolutely nothing.
He left the shelves and paced over to the large front window and stared out at the street. The street lamps had not come on yet, but there were lights here and there in windows and occasionally a bubble-shaped car moved silently down the pavement, the fanning headlights catching a scurrying bunch of leaves or a crouching cat.
It was one of the older streets in town; at one time, he had known everyone who had lived upon it. He could call out without hesitation the names of the one-time owners—Wilson, Becket, Johnson, Random—but none of them lived here any longer. The names had changed and the faces were faces that he did not know; the stratification had shifted and he knew almost no one on the street.
The middle-young and the very old, he thought, they are the lonely ones.
He went back to the chair beside the lamp he’d lighted and sat down rather stiffly in it. He fidgeted, drumming his fingers on the arms. He wanted to get up, but there was nothing to get up for, unless it was to wash the dishes, and he didn’t want to wash them.
He could take a walk, he told himself. That might be a good idea. There was a lot of comfort in an evening walk.
He got his coat and hat and went out the door and down the walk and turned west at the gate.
He was more than halfway there, skirting the business section, before he admitted to himself that he was heading for the Stiles house and the Sitters—that he had, in fact, never intended doing otherwise.