“I’m going to go find Jenny,” said the older brother, “see if she wants to get something to eat. We can finish the game later if you want.”
“That’s okay, I was losing anyway.” The younger brother gathered up the tiles and put the board away. “I’m going to go upstairs and see if I can catch a nap, tonight’s my night watching Mom.”
The older brother walked out and Charlie watched the younger brother drop the blue pills into his shirt pocket and leave the kitchen, leaving the Death Dealer to ransack the pantry and the cabinets looking for the soul vessel. But he felt before he even started that it wouldn’t be there. He was going to have to go upstairs.
He really, really hated being around sick people.
Madeline Alby was propped up and tucked into bed with a down comforter up around her neck. She was so slight that her body barely showed under the covers. Charlie guessed that she might weigh seventy or eighty pounds max. Her face was drawn and he could see the outlines of her eye sockets and her jawbone jutting through her skin, which had gone yellow. Charlie guessed liver cancer. One of her friends from downstairs was sitting at her bedside, the hospice-care worker, a big woman in scrubs, sat in a chair across the room, reading. A small dog, a Yorkshire terrier, Charlie thought, was snuggled up between Madeline’s shoulder and her neck, sleeping.
When Charlie stepped into the room, Madeline said, “Hey there, kid.”
He froze in his steps. She was looking right at him—crystal-blue eyes, and a smile. Had the floor squeaked? Had he bumped something?
“What are you doing there, kid?” She giggled.
“Who do you see, Maddy?” asked the friend. She followed Madeline’s gaze but looked right through Charlie.
“A kid over there.”
“Okay, Maddy. Do you want some water?” The friend reached for a child’s sippy cup with a built-in straw from the nightstand.
“No. Tell that kid to come in here, though. Come in here, kid.” Madeline worked her arms out of the covers and started moving her hands in sewing motions, like she was embroidering a tapestry in the air before her.
“Well, I’d better go,” said the friend. “Let you get some rest.” The friend glanced at the hospice woman, who looked over her reading glasses and smiled with her eyes. The only expert in the house, giving permission.
The friend stood and kissed Madeline Alby on the forehead. Madeline stopped sewing for a second, closed her eyes, and leaned into the kiss, like a young girl. Her friend squeezed her hand and said, “Good-bye, Maddy.”
Charlie stepped aside and let the woman pass. He watched her shoulders heave with a sob as she went through the door.
“Hey, kid,” Madeline said. “Come over here and sit down.” She paused in her sewing long enough to look Charlie in the eye, which freaked him out more than a little. He glanced at the hospice worker, who glanced up from her book, then went back to reading. Charlie pointed to himself.
“Yeah, you,” Madeline said.
Charlie was going into a panic. She could see him, but the hospice nurse could not, or so it seemed.
An alarm beeped on the nurse’s watch and Madeline picked up the little dog and held it to her ear. “Hello? Hi, how are you?” She looked up at Charlie. “It’s my oldest daughter.” The little dog looked at Charlie, too, with a distinct “save me” look in its eyes.
“Time for some medicine, Madeline,” the nurse said.
“Can’t you see I’m on the phone, Sally,” Madeline said. “Hang on a second.”
“Okay, I’ll wait,” the nurse said. She picked up a brown bottle with an eyedropper in it, filled the dropper, and checked the dosage and held.
“Bye. Love you, too,” Madeline said. She held the tiny dog out to Charlie. “Hang that up, would you?” The nurse snatched the dog out of the air and set it down on the bed next to Madeline.
“Open up, Madeline,” the nurse said. Madeline opened wide and the nurse squirted the eyedropper into the old woman’s mouth.
“Mmm, strawberry,” Madeline said.
“That’s right, strawberry. Would you like to wash it down with some water?” The nurse held the sippy cup.
“No. Cheese. I’d like some cheese.”
“I can get you some cheese,” said the nurse.
“Cheddar cheese.”
“Cheddar it is,” said the nurse. “I’ll be right back.” She tucked the covers around Madeline and left the room.
The old woman looked at Charlie again. “Can you talk, now that she’s gone?”
Charlie shrugged and looked in every direction, his hand over his mouth, like someone looking for an emergency spot to spit out a mouthful of bad seafood.
“Don’t mime, honey,” Madeline said. “No one likes a mime.”
Charlie sighed heavily, what was there to lose now? She could see him. “Hello, Madeline. I’m Charlie.”
“I always liked the name Charlie,” Madeline said. “How come Sally can’t see you?”
“Only you can see me right now,” Charlie said.
“Because I’m dying?”
“I think so.”
“Okay. You’re a nice-looking kid, you know that?”
“Thanks. You’re not bad yourself.”
“I’m scared, Charlie. It doesn’t hurt. I used to be afraid that it would hurt, but now I’m afraid of what happens next.”
Charlie sat down on the chair next to the bed. “I think that’s why I’m here, Madeline, you don’t need to be afraid.”
“I drank a lot of brandy, Charlie. That’s why this happened.”
“Maddy—can I call you Maddy?”
“Sure, kid, we’re friends.”
“Yes, we are. Maddy, this was always going to happen. You didn’t do anything to cause it.”
“Well, that’s good.”
“Maddy, do you have something for me?”
“Like a present?”
“Like a present you would give to yourself. Something I can keep for you and give you back later, when it will be a surprise.”
“My pincushion,” Madeline said. “I’d like you to have that. It was my grandmother’s.”
“I’d be honored to keep that for you, Maddy. Where can I find it?”
“In my sewing box, on the top shelf of that closet.” She pointed to an old-style single closet across the room. “Oh, excuse me, phone.”
Madeline talked to her oldest daughter on the edge of the comforter while Charlie got the sewing box from the top shelf of the closet. It was made of wicker and he could see the red glow of the soul vessel inside. He removed a pincushion fashioned from red velvet wrapped with bands of real silver and held it up for Madeline to see. She smiled and gave him the thumbs-up, just as the nurse returned with a small plate of cheese and crackers.
“It’s my oldest daughter,” Madeline explained to the nurse, holding the edge of the comforter to her chest so her daughter didn’t hear. “Oh my, is that cheese?”
The nurse nodded. “And crackers.”
“I’ll call you back, honey, Sally has brought cheese and I don’t want to be rude.” She hung up the sheet and allowed Sally to feed her bites of cheese and crackers.
“I believe this is the best cheese I’ve ever tasted,” Madeline said.
Charlie could tell from the expression on her face that it was, indeed, the best cheese she had ever tasted. Every ounce of her being was going into tasting those slivers of cheddar, and she let loose little moans of pleasure as she chewed.
“You want some cheese, Charlie?” Madeline asked, spraying cracker shrapnel all over the nurse, who turned to look at the corner where Charlie was standing with the pincushion tucked safely in his jacket pocket.
“Oh, you can’t see him, Sally,” Madeline said, tapping the nurse on the hand. “But he’s a handsome rascal. A little skinny, though.” Then, to Sally, but overly loud to be sure that Charlie could hear: “He could use some fucking cheese.” Then she laughed, spraying more crackers on the nurse, who was laughing, too, and trying not to dump the plate.