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“Suspicious of you? What have you been saying?”

“No, it’s got nothing to do with me. They’re petrified of something.”

Flora took a restrained breath. “Mikel, what do you think it might be?”

“If you got me on that flight I’d be able to ask them, wouldn’t I?”

“I will overlook your tone, Mr. Jasso.”

“Sorry, I’m tired—”

“And I will arrange your transport. It seems we’ve more reason than ever to get you to Halley VI.”

“Why? Something else going on?” he said, ignoring the last of the whiskey in favor of something—finally—more interesting.

Flora described the vector of animal madness.

Mikel sighed. “So you claim the stone I brought to you is interacting with something in Antarctica—never mind the total implausibility of that—but it’s also affecting humans and mammals along a global route?”

“Yes. And I am extremely interested to see what is lying on the Antarctic section of that route, close up.”

“But with the ice moving up to half a mile per year now, and who knows at what rate in the past, and with Galderkhaan existing millennia ago, then—”

“Whatever the other point of this vector is, it has to be under the ice.” She added, “Not far from that research station.”

“As the crow flies, you mean. Halley VI is on the moving ice sheet, nearly forty miles from the coast of the mainland. And to get to the ground, I’d have to do god knows how much tunneling down through hundreds of meters of snow and ice. Dr. Davies, even if you sent me with a team of experts and the British government falling over itself with permissions and assistance, it couldn’t be done.”

“That’s true,” she said, “but only if you never start.”

“Don’t give me that ‘every journey begins with a single step’ line.”

“I’m not. I’m only asking for your best effort, Mikel.”

“Flora—”

“Your best, which I know is considerable. One other thing. Your incident with the albatrosses was not on the vector.”

“Wait,” he said, “how is that possible?”

“Precisely,” Flora said.

Mikel considered what she implied. “Your calculations must be off.”

“They’re not,” Flora assured him. “I’m wondering if you actually experienced what you think you did.”

“Are you questioning what I saw?”

“That’s not what I said. You told me yourself that the flight attendant didn’t seem to know what you were talking about.”

“Yes, but what I said happened, happened,” he barked into the phone.

“So what does that suggest?” Flora asked.

“I don’t know.”

“Think about it,” urged Flora.

“I am. Nothing’s coming.”

“Now you’re just being lazy,” she said. “What if you saw the albatrosses as they were, but in some other time?”

The words cut sharply through the whiskey. That was new. And a little unnerving. But remotely possible? Mikel gazed across the bar as if he were looking through the wall at the birds themselves.

“Mikel?”

“I’m here,” he said. “I think.”

“Touché,” she replied.

“But crap,” he said. “Arni.”

“What about him?”

“Maybe he got hit with the same ‘something’ I did, only his synesthete’s brain magnified it. Maybe I’m lucky I’m not so advanced.”

Flora let the thought sit a moment. “Look, I think it best that you keep track of what you experience with and without supporting evidence. Both are valuable but keep them separate in your reporting. Clear?”

“Very,” Mikel said, and he meant it. He felt as though the grunge had suddenly been cleared from his brain and a universe of possibilities had opened.

CHAPTER 5

As Caitlin hurried from the subway to her office, she left a message for Barbara asking for an appointment as soon as possible. So much had blown in on her in the last few hours that she felt unable to prioritize which questions and feelings she should heed first… which were real, which were intuited, and which might be wholly imagined.

She was certain the exchange with Odilon was real. The rising power she felt in her hands, the look of amazement on his face, and the sudden well of emotion; those were all completely honest.

That’s the place to start, she decided, the part you know is true.

The question she couldn’t answer was how far to take it, how much to tell Barbara.

Maybe the choice wouldn’t be hers. The feeling of openness and expansion had not returned since she’d seen the dark-haired woman on the subway.

What happened?

Had Caitlin shut the power down? Maybe there was a mental off switch in her brain that she’d stumbled onto blindly. Maybe it wasn’t off but simply sleeping.

And then there was that woman herself. Was she just a convenient, innocent figure? Or did she open the power? Had Caitlin’s mind, overloaded, grabbed at a meaningless gesture and ascribed power to it? Was she developing paranoia? Imagining that someone was watching her was certainly a first step.

She was unclear about everything, except for the surprising but unmistakable welter of sadness that had risen since that moment on the train when Caitlin had shut the cascade of faces down. It was a form of mourning, of suddenly losing this new and frightening but vital window on the world… perhaps on several worlds. She imagined her mother chastising her, but there was no way she could let this be.

Caitlin felt suddenly, strangely defensive when she received a text from Barbara confirming an availability the next morning. What if Barbara wouldn’t understand and judged her?

Caitlin was relieved to have scheduled patients that afternoon. More than once in her individual therapy sessions with the high school and college students, she longed to try a repeat of the conduit she had manifested with Odilon.

But these students didn’t need a drastic assist. They were doing the long, slow slog through their psyches, identifying old patterns, accepting their entrenchment, learning and trying and failing and trying again to deprogram from the distortions, succeeding by increments. It was steady, honorable work, made possible by the relatively stable lives they were living. Odilon was different. He’d been on the edge of a cliff and unable to ask for help. These kids faced challenges but no immediate danger. To interrupt their process would have impugned their responsibility for themselves.

After Caitlin’s last session, though, the grief washed back into her so powerfully she put her head in her hands. Thinking was a burden she no longer wished to bear. She needed to talk to someone who wouldn’t need a preamble. It was four thirty here; in Cornwall, Ben would probably still be up.

She checked Skype first and there he was. She hesitated, wondering if he might be talking to someone. Ow, she thought. And her heart floundered when the call resulted in silence. But it was only a delay, and he blipped on-screen with the biggest smile and a warm “Hi.”

“I only have half an hour before I have to pick up Jacob, I’m sorry,” she began.

“I’ll take it,” he said, continuing to smile.

“But if you want to get a late dinner tomorrow, if you’re not too blown out from the flight back—”

“I won’t be,” Ben replied. “I want to take you out for your birthday.” She smiled, but he must have seen the hesitancy she felt because he quickly switched subjects. “Okay, half an hour, counting down. What’s happening?”