“Dr. O’Hara, is Jacob with you?”
Nothing from the past few weeks equaled the cold fear that smashed into Caitlin now.
“He is not with me,” she said tightly. “Is he not at school?”
There was the tiniest of pauses during which a well-trained educator kept himself from cursing in the ear of a parent.
“Dr. O’Hara, we have lost track of your son. We think he may have walked from the building about half an hour ago but we aren’t sure. However, we have looked everywhere…”
Caitlin had no idea what the man said next. She couldn’t hear him over her internal screaming. She stood on the street shouting into the phone for a few minutes but it felt like years. Then somehow she said to herself, beneath the screaming, Where would he go? Start there. Somewhere near school?
Caitlin hung up on the vice principal, saying only, “I’ll call you back.” She glanced around, registered where she was, then started sprinting with a stamina she didn’t know she had.
Her peripheral vision grayed out. Looks from the people she passed hardly registered. Vaguely she wondered whether she should try to reach for Jacob using this new power. Was it even possible? But the thought was a bare blip in the total urgency of running. She lunged across the street before traffic had fully stopped. Horns honked, someone yelled, she heard nothing. Her lungs started to beg for a pause. She didn’t notice.
And then she was on Twenty-Seventh Street. Her phone buzzed in her bag while she was pounding up the stairs but somehow she knew and didn’t bother picking up. She shoved open the door to the lobby of Jacob’s cooking school and the receptionist stood up, the phone to her ear.
“Oh thank god, Dr. O’Hara, we were trying to—”
Caitlin ignored her and looked around, gasping. No sign of him. She hurried past the desk and bashed open the door to the long, bright test kitchen. At the far end of the room Jacob was on his hands and knees on the floor. He looked like he was vomiting.
The receptionist rushed up behind her. “He just wandered in here, he was talking but he wouldn’t respond to us—he kept saying something that sounded like ‘towers.’”
Caitlin was already diving across the floor to him, her feet and then her knees skidding across spilled sauces and fragments of food. Large bowls were scattered everywhere. A small cluster of people surrounding him drew back as Caitlin reached him. His small back was arched and he heaved hard, but nothing came out but a horrible rasping. There was no vomit on the floor in front of him.
“What is he trying to throw up?” Caitlin shouted, placing her hands on his back. “What did he eat?”
“He didn’t eat anything,” someone said. “We were watching. He came in and he was spasming, walking and spasming. He looked like he was reaching for us but his arms were all over the place, like he wasn’t trying to knock things over but…”
“We’ve sent for an ambulance,” the receptionist said.
“Not now,” Caitlin said. “Everyone get out. Please.”
The receptionist hesitated but then gestured for the staff and onlookers to leave them be. The door swung shut behind them and the room grew muffled, quiet, still, dead. There was only the mother and her son.
And whatever the hell was preying on Jacob. Caitlin knew it was there, cold and possessing.
“Jacob, it’s me, Mom,” Caitlin said, trying to modulate her voice. She leaned down to look at his face. His hearing aid was still in but he didn’t turn toward her. Then he screamed, and it was like nothing Caitlin had ever heard, not from him, not from the souls in Galderkhaan. Her boy made a sound like aluminum being ripped apart by a high wind.
“Jacob, I’m here,” Caitlin started. She kept up a long murmur to him, hardly knowing what she was saying. It was the sound of her voice that mattered, the tone, not so much the words. Jacob still didn’t acknowledge her. He crawled forward, grasping at the tiles with his nails—but scratching the floor was better than scratching his forearms, as Maanik had done, Caitlin thought with a shudder. His back heaved again but still nothing. Caitlin tried to cup his chin in her hand and turn his face to her. She caught one glimpse of his eyes passing over her face. There was so little of the normal Jacob there that a fresh sob climbed along her throat.
He kept turning, looking over her shoulder and then he forced himself up, to standing. He reached to the counter for support and another bowl overturned, something milky white flying across the surface.
“Fire,” he said and signed. “Fire. Fire below me.”
Christ, no!
Caitlin continued speaking to him. “Jacob, I’m going to start counting now, I want you to count with me. One… two…”
She kept going but he wasn’t listening. Her hands were on his shoulders, which were damp with the sweat rolling down his face and neck. She wasn’t restraining him but hoped that his body would register the weight and familiarity of her touch. She didn’t want to take that away to sign for him, and he wasn’t looking anyway. He was looking at a stove.
Jacob started making sounds and Caitlin’s flesh chilled in anticipation—but it wasn’t Galderkhaani. It wasn’t English either. They were animal sounds, like he was a toddler again learning to use his voice, but with the pacing and pauses of English. Jacob pulled himself away from her toward the stove and Caitlin though of Atash setting himself on fire in the library in Iran. Jacob reached for a knob on the stove, his mouth still working around the same odd nonlanguage. Caitlin grabbed him with one hand to stop him, and at the same time she reached out with the other hand and began knocking on the counter, re-creating his tapping on their shared wall at home. He showed no sign of hearing. His fingers were on the knob but they kept sliding off in an odd way, as if the knob were covered with oil, though Caitlin could see that it was dry.
Suddenly, Jacob’s head jerked in an upward, backward swing that was not normal—still human, but not normal. His head turned so quickly that his shoulders and torso followed, and now he was looking at her. There was a chill in the air around him, something that had no apparent source, something that moved when he moved.
“Twenty-seven, twenty-eight, twenty-nine…” Caitlin kept going, her voice rigidly calm over her fear. Her hands dropped to his elbows, placing pressure there but not squeezing desperately the way she wanted to.
The curious sounds died away and Jacob was just looking at her. For one moment, Caitlin thought she saw his face shift away from his face. She shivered with terror. It was if his face were momentarily displaced. Underneath were other eyes… dark eyes.
“Jacob!” she screamed, and shook him.
And then he spoke. Not animal sounds, not English, and not “towers.”
“Tawazh,” he said with a voice that sounded like gravel.
He turned very slowly away from her. Again, he reached for the knob. Again, Caitlin stopped him as gently as possible. She did not want to shock him but she watched carefully, closely. He fought her and she held him more firmly. She didn’t wrest his hand back: if she were to know how to treat him, she had to know if he was in the same situation as Maanik and especially poor Atash, who had burned himself to death. The small fingers reached out, tried to turn on the flame.
“No,” Caitlin said softly. “Jacob, you mustn’t touch that.”
The fingers wriggled, tensed, then dropped limply. A moment later, so did Jacob. The cold around him exploded away, like a fever breaking. He was warm again, and Jacob was back. He became alert, suddenly, as if he’d been daydreaming.
“Mom,” he said, and turned to her. “I could hear!”