“Flora?” Mikel shouted urgently over the static. “Flora!”
“Hang up,” Casey whispered.
Flora ended the call.
“I’m going to sit you down now, Flora,” Casey said. He put one of his knees behind one of hers and nudged until she took a step. “But even when I let you go, remember that I can still kill you before you can scream.”
He nudged her again.
“What are you doing Casey—” she started.
“It’s time you understood our point of view,” Casey said, and walked her across her office.
In the basement, the stone had flickered brilliant green, just once, after Flora left. Adrienne was not asleep—not exactly. Her eyes were still open and suddenly she was swimming joyfully in the sea, entirely in touch with her senses in a way she had never experienced.
She was frolicking with penguins, hundreds of swimming penguins, but taking her time, not yet ready to return to shore. There was so much information to take in. Every part of her body seemed to be tuned, monitoring the changing swell of deep water all around her. A map was forming for her, a village she was remembering as if she were someone else. Then she was back on shore, locating masses of ice and whales swimming hundreds of feet away in the same direction as the penguins. They were all heading toward a long cliff of ice, the ocean running beneath it. She heard the call of home just as they did, and her will and her consciousness and her body were wholly one.
My god, she thought. I can feel everything.
Jacob O’Hara drummed on the wall. There was no answer.
“Mommy?” he said and signed, eyes still closed.
“She’s not here right now, Jacob,” a sweet voice told him.
The boy rubbed the sleep off and looked up to see a vaguely familiar face. His eyebrows reflected his confusion.
“Remember me?” Anita tried to sign. “From your mother’s office?”
“Your signing is bad,” Jacob said mildly, reaching for the box with his hearing aids.
“I am pretty terrible,” she admitted. “So maybe you will show me how to do it better?”
The intercom buzzed down the hall. Anita motioned that she’d come back, then headed to the white box on the wall and peered at its screen. In the predawn light the camera showed a very thin black woman with high cheekbones, a kerchief over her hair and a blue bag in her arms. Behind her stood a younger black man wearing sunglasses.
Anita hit the “talk” button. “Yes?”
“I am a friend to Dr. O’Hara,” said Madame Langlois. “She is in the coils of the great serpent. Let me come in.”
EPILOGUE
There was nothing to hold on to.
Caitlin tried again and again. Her strongest memory of Jacob in their shared history was not moving her. She tried reaching for Ben. She even attempted to invoke the night they spent together, when they’d expanded so far beyond themselves that reality was eclipsed by total joy. Though the memory warmed her slightly, Ben wasn’t there.
In fact, she could not feel a path away from this place. Nothingness surrounded her.
“Azha?” she called tentatively.
Nothing.
A cold death seemed to have taken over the tiles, too. She felt nothing from them, not the ones in the South Pole, not the two just to the north.
It’s not possible to feel nothing, she told herself. Not unless—
But she wasn’t dead. She couldn’t be. She still had conscious thought. Then those thoughts turned to the dead of Galderkhaan—all those she’d been speaking to. They were dead. They had conscious thought.
Frightened now, Caitlin argued with herself. She was fairly sure that Rensat and Pao were gone, truly gone, so she took comfort in that. Perhaps the void left by their departure was responsible for what she was feeling—some kind of psychic aftershock, a spiritual coma. Maybe she would come out of it if she was patient.
But that wasn’t happening. Nothing was. That was the operative word right now for all sensation: nothing.
Self-doubt began to fill her, along with exhaustion and the urge to give up.
“No!” she said aloud. “I have a son and I’m getting back to him, goddamn it!”
Her voice didn’t even echo. It didn’t have a sound. It was only in her head. What was this?
I’m breathing, she suddenly realized. I must be in shock.
Deciding to assume that she wasn’t dead and still had a body, Caitlin chose to remember the moment when she was most thoroughly inhabiting it, when she had been almost completely consumed by her body, all other consciousness blanked out. That wasn’t a time with Ben or any other man. It was the overwhelming pain of giving birth to Jacob. She remembered the joyous agony, felt it, reached through it—
Still, there was no hook. There was no connection.
Caitlin wanted to weep but moaned instead. She tightened her hands into fists.
Wait—you did that!
She felt her hands, balled tight. A surge of excitement swept through her. She flexed her fingers. She couldn’t have done that if she were dead or injured.
Toes—she tested her toes. She felt them, too.
Relax, she told herself. You’re alive—just let this happen now.
She went back to thoughts, to images.
My god, she told herself, almost giddy with the thrill of it: these images were unfamiliar but they felt exactly like dreams, nothing like any of the visions she’d experienced over the last few weeks. No emotions were associated with them, either her own or anyone else’s. She was simply watching a huge sheet of ice move, creeping a millimeter forward. Then, in the kind of non sequitur of a normal dream, suddenly she was watching eels twist and plunge through the ice, which of course was impossible. Fish—strange fish, but maybe not strange for South Polar waters—leaped for the sky, a sky of vivid blue, with clouds and… nets? Huge cigar-shaped balloons?
Well, this is a dream… a lucid dream… allowing me to editorialize on the strangeness of it.
And then she was awake, with the normal if pronounced feeling of early-in-the-morning laziness.
The sun was shining on her eyelids. Had she lain in the damn park all night? Was she in a hospital room? She breathed in, stretching out her arms, and smelled faint traces of sulfur and jasmine. Then she spread her fingertips into the sunlight for warmth, and the sensation was hers but the hand was not.
Nor was the world of strange buildings and airships that surrounded her.
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