Poul Mer Lo knew litde of the religion of the Bayani. But as he surveyed its outward forms, he could feel himself coming under its spell, could sense the mystery that bound a people together in the undoubted knowledge that their ideas, their philosophy and their way of life were the most perfect expression of the mystery of existence.
At times, Poul Mer Lo was frightened; knowing that if he were to live and remain sane he would have to assume to some extent the role of serpent in this sophisticated yet oddly static Eden. He would have to be himself—no longer an Earth man, and not a man of Baya Nor. But a man poised dreadfully between two worlds. A man chastened by light-years, whipped by memories, haunted by knowledge. A man pinned by circumstances to a speck erf cosmic dust from that other speck he had once called home. A man who, above all, needed to talk, to make confession. A man with a dual purpose—to create and to destroy.
At times he revelled in his purpose. At times he was ashamed. At times, also, he remembered someone who had once been called Paul Marlowe. He remembered the prejudices and convictions and compulsions that this strange person had held. He remembered his arrogance and his certainty—his burning ambition to journey out to the stars.
Paul Marlowe had fulfilled that ambition, but in fulfilling it he had died. Alas for Paul Marlowe, who had never realized that it was possible to pay a greater price for private luxuries than either death or pain.
Paul Marlowe, native of Earth, had accomplished more than Eric the Red, Marco Polo, Columbus or even Darwin. But it was Poul Mer Lo, grace and favour subject of Enka Ne, who paid the price for his achievement.
And the price was absolute loneliness.
EIGHT
The half-starved youth, dad in a threadbare samu, who climbed up the steps as Poul Mer Lo watched from his verandah, seemed vaguely familiar. But though there were not many beggars in Baya Nor, their faces all looked the same— like those of the proverbial Chinamen to people on the other side of a world on the other side of the sky…
‘Oruri greets you,’ said the youth, neglecting to hold out his begging bowl.
‘The greeting is a blessing,’ retorted Poul Mer Lo automatically. After two fifty-day Bayani months, he found ritual conversation quite easy. According to form, the youth should now tell of the nobility of his grandfather, the virility of his father, the selfless devotion of his mother and the disaster that Oruri had inflicted upon them all to bring joy through penitence.
But the boy did not launch into the expected formula. He said: ‘Blessed also are they who have known many wonders. I may speak with you?’
Suddenly, Poul Mer Lo, who had been sitting cross-legged with Mylai Tui, enjoying the light evening breeze, recognized the voice. He sprang to his feet.
‘Lord, I did not ’
‘Do not recognize me!' The words shot out imperiously. Then the boy relaxed, and carried on almost apologetically: ‘I am Shah Shan, of late a waterman. I may speak with you?’
‘Yes, Shah Shan, you may speak with me. I am Poul Mer Lo, a stranger now and always.’
The boy smiled and held out his begging bowl. ‘Oruri has seen fit to grace me with a slight hunger. Perhaps he foresaw our meeting.’
Silently, Mylai Tui rose to her feet, took the bowl and disappeared into the house. Poul Mer Lo watched her curiously.
She had seemed almost not to see Shah Shan at all.
‘Poul Mer Lo is gracious,’ said the boy. ‘It is permitted to sit?’
‘It is permitted to sit,’ returned Poul Mer Lo gravely.
The two of them sat cross-legged on the verandah, and there was silence. Presendy Mylai Tui returned with the bowl. It contained a small quantity of kappa, the cereal that was the staple diet of the poor and that the prosperous only ate with meat and vegetables.
Shah Shan took the kappa and ate it greedily with his fingers. When he had finished, he belched politely.
‘I have a friend,’ he said, ‘whose head has been troubled with dreams and strange thoughts. I think that you may help him.’
‘I am sorry for your friend. I do not know that I can help him, but if he comes to me, I will try.’
‘The kappa is still green,’ said Shah Shan.
Poul Mer Lo was familiar enough with idiomadc Bayani to understand that the time was not ripe.
‘My friend is of some importance,’ went on the boy. ‘He has much to occupy him. Nevertheless, he is troubled … See, I will show you something that he has shown me.’
Shah Shan rose to his feet, went down the verandah steps and found a small stick. He proceeded to draw in the dust.
Poul Mer Lo watched him, astounded.
Shah Shan had drawn the outline of the Gloria Mundi.
‘My friend calls this a silver bird,’ he explained. ‘But it does not look like a bird. Can you explain this?’
‘It is truly a silver bird. It is a—a ’ Poul Mer Lo floundered. There was no Bayani word for machine, or none that he knew. ‘It was fashioned by men in metal,’ he said at last, ‘as a sculptor fashions in stone. It brought me to your world.’
‘There is another thing,’ continued Shah Shan. ‘My friend has seen the silver bird passing swiftly round a great ball. The ball was very strange. It was not a ball of yarv such as the children play with. It was a ball of water. And there was some land on which forests grew. And in the forests there were waterways. Also there was a city with many temples and four great reservoirs … My friend was disturbed.’
Poul Mer Lo was even more amazed. ‘Your friend need not be disturbed,’ he said at length. ‘He saw truly what has happened. The great ball is your world. The reservoirs are those of Baya Nor … Your friend has had a very wonderful dream.’
Shah Shan shook his head. ‘My friend has a sickness. The world is flat—flat as the face of water when there is no wind. It is known that if a man journeys far—if he is mad enough to journey far—from Baya Nor, he will fall off the edge of the world. Perhaps if he is worthy, he will fall on to the bosom of Oruri. Otherwise there can be no end to his falling.’
Poul Mer Lo was silent for a moment or two. Then he said hesitantly: ‘Shah Shan, I, too, have a friend who seems wise though he is still very young. He told me a story about six men who found a sleeping tlamyn. Each of the men thought the damyn was something else. Eventually, they argued so much that it woke up and ate them.’
‘I have heard the story,’ said Shah Shan gravely. ‘It is amusing.’
‘The tlamyn is truth. It is not given to men to understand truth completely. However wise they are, they are only permitted to see a little of the truth. But may not some see more than others?’
Shah Shan’s forehead wrinkled. ‘It is possible,’ he said presently, ‘that a stranger to this land may see a different countenance of the truth … A stranger who has journeyed far and therefore witnessed many happenings.’
Poul Mer Lo was encouraged. ‘You speak wisely. Listen then, to the strange thoughts of a stranger. Time is divided into day and night, is it not? And in the day there is a great fire in the sky which ripens the kappa, rouses the animals and gives the light by which men see … What is the name of this great fire?’
‘It is called the Sun.’
‘And what is the name of all the land whereon the sun shines?’
‘It is called the earth.’
‘But the sun does not shine on the earth by night. At night there are many tiny points of light when the sky is clear, but they do not give warmth. What is the Bayani word for these cold, bright points of light?’
‘Stars.’