The day lumbered along. Nothing happened.
She refused to think about anything, especially about events and images of the past two nights, but she could feel, down deep inside her, those experiences sorting themselves out, dropping into their proper pattern. The thing growing in her settled into a similar consolidation of its forces; it lay still and serene within her. It was alive, she had no doubt of that; it glowed like an iron stove in midwinter, not with heat, but with a cool power beyond any the doewoman or the deerrnan could show. It was like the great Owl come to nest inside her.
Nothing happened. She waited in a state somewhere between sleep and waking for the day to be over.
The sun crept down the western sky. She saw gold firedragons undulating around it, they were so beautiful she wept awhile; quietly, effortlessly she wept and smiled.
Geidranay came strolling along the mountaintops; he stopped when he was between her and the vanishing sun, lifted a hand in greeting and gave her a great glowing smile. He wandered on, vanishing into the clouds blowing up from the west.
Korimenei sighed and rubbed the back of her hand across her eyes. After the sun was completely down and the sky darkened to a velvet blue-black, she walked shakily to the stream and splashed water onto her face. She scooped up more water and drank from her hand. She straightened and stood rubbing her back. One last night, then this thing was over What good it was, she had no idea. She smoothed her hands over her swollen front, grimaced, then walked upslope to her blanket.
The Wounded Moon went down, the clouds thickened overhead; the night grew darker and darker. Korimenei wasn’t trusting her senses much, but sometime late, she thought it was around midnight, she had her first contraction.
Cool hands closed on her shoulders, eased her flat. Isayana Birthmistress bent over her, humming a song that flowed over her like water, calming her; she floated on a bed of air that the god rocked like a cradle. She retreated to a distant place, looking down on the body she’d left behind. The contractions came closer together. Isayana touched the body and left it bare where her fingers wandered. Korimenei snickered soundlessly, gods were great valets, no bother with buttons or ties.
After an hour, Isayana lifted Korimenei’s laboring body onto its feet and held it in a squat. A thing emerged, slick with blood and mucus. It dropped to the blanket, crouched a moment between Korimenei’s knees, then it tried to scuttle away. Isayana laughed and let Korimenei care for herself as she scooped it up, cradled it in gentle hands. “Oh, oh, oh,” she crooned. She held the small creature against her generous bosom with one hand, stroked it with the other, cleaning it. It was a tiny gray-furred beast with huge eyes, black hands and feet, like a combination of ferret and marmoset.
Korimenei lay back on the blanket, watching, not knowing how to feel about what had happened to her. Her insides churned. She had birthed the creature, what did that mean? What was it? What had she done? NO! what had been done to her?
*This is a mahsar.* Isayana’s voice was deep and caressing, she spoke in sounds like a warm wind makes when it threads through a blowhole, sounds that turned into meaning inside Korimenei’s head. *Your womb received and nurtured her, child, but she is no flesh of yours. Quiet your fears, child, untrouble your souls. Your body was prepared to receive her…* Isayana raised a delicate brow; her large brown-gold eyes glimmered with amusement, *and a pleasant preparing it was it, not so? Don’t speak, child, your blush answers me. Your body was made ready to receive her and she was drawn into you from the place where she and her kind dwell. She was drawn little by little into you until she was wholly here. She is tied to you,. Kori Heart-in-Waiting; were you a witch, she would be your familiar; as you are more, so she is more. She has many talents and more uses, they are yours to discover. She will stay with you until your first true-daughter is born, then go to your child to protect and serve her. Still cuddling the creature against her breasts, Isayana bent over Korimenei and stroked her clothing into existence as the Old Man Made Young had done, as the doewoman and the deerman had done. She tucked the mahsar into the curve of Korimenei’s left arm, touched Kori’s temple with gentle approving fingers and was gone, melting like mist into the night air.
Slowly, dreamily Korimenei sat up, bringing the mahsar around into her lap. She sat drawing her hand over her not-daughter’s small round head, down her springy spine and along her whippy tail. Over and over she drew her hand down, taking pleasure in the exquisite softness and silkiness of the mahsar’s short gray fur and in the warmth of the tiny body where it cuddled against her. “Mahsar, mahsar, mahsar…
She chanted the species name in a mute monotone, making a kind of mantra of the word. “
She stilled her hands and sat lost in a deep oneness with air and earth. Time passed. The clouds thickened. Rain came, no more than a fine mist that drifted on the intermittent wind and condensed in bead-sized droplets on every surface.
When she was damp and cold enough, she surfaced and pulled the laprobe around her head and shoulders. She tucked it around the mahsar too, smiled dreamily as she felt the little creature nestle cosily in its folds and vibrate with a sawtooth purr. “Ailiki,” she said suddenly. “That’s your name, daughter-not. Yes, Ai… li… ki… Ailiki. Yes. She knew most surely, with a shock that broke her free from her drift that she’d found the first NAME in all the NAMES she’d know the rest of her life, the first great WORD in all the WORDS she’d know. She drew her forefinger over the curve on Ailiki’s head, along her shoulder and down her foreleg to her three-fingered black hand. Ailiki edged her hand around and closed it on Korimenei’s finger. Kori laughed. “Words,” she said aloud. “Do you know, I think I’m going to be a sorceror. Maybe even a prime.” She laughed again, cut off the sound when it turned strange on her.
She pushed the damp hair off her face. Her hand felt hot. “You’re a little furnace, Aili my Liki. Sheeh!”
Later she threw off the laprobe and lifted her face to the unseen clouds. The mist droplets landed on it and puffed into steam. Heat was a river pouring irresistibly into her, coming from the heartroots of the earth and flowing into her. She sat unperturbed and bled it out again, until the air around her was white as daylight with the power of it and she the suncenter, a glass maid filled with fire.
The heat came harder, the river widened into a flood. She bled it off still, but the air burned her now, the radiance reached for the trees and she was suddenly afraid they would catch fire and burn like she was burning. She tried to control the flow, to pinch it down into a thread she could handle, but the attempt to control was enough in itself to send the river flaring hotter. She whimpered, allowing herself that small outlet for the uneasiness building in her, while she concentrated on channeling and, more important, understanding. She saw realization of her potential as a key. What she allowed now would determine the extent of her access to that potential. At worst she would burn to ash… no no, at worst she’d end a mediocrity, death was better than that. At best she had that chance of rivaling Settsimaksimin. Of wresting from him all he was and all he knew. She wanted that. She needed it.
She threw her strength against the flood. She could smell singed hair, the blanket under her was burning. Not that way, no no… all she’d been taught was control, all the Shahntien knew was control. But Shahntien Shere was limited, magistra not sorceror, immensely learned and knotted into that learning. Korimenei drew back as much as she could without giving her body to fire and ashing; she cooled, the heat flowed around her as the river had flowed when the White Hind took her to the island. She’d gone into the river then, she’d given herself to the current, let it take her where it must. Was that the answer? No, not the whole answer.