Why then — for God’s sake, why?
The music had stopped. The girls stood quietly, their feet in the fifth position, their eyes cast down.
Except for this one girl; a good girl, hitherto known for her modesty and quietness, who now lifted her head, looked directly and with an expression of the most extraordinary happiness at the handsome English officer — and smiled.
Her name was Vanni. Giovanna, really, for the route that classical ballet had taken — Milan to Paris, Paris to St Petersburg — was reflected in her ancestry. Both her parents had been dancers and came to settle at the Maryinsky. At nine, dressed in white muslin, Vanni had carried her shoe-bag through the portals of the Ballet School for her audition as inevitably as Alex, dressed in grey shorts and a blazer with towers on the pocket, had climbed into his prep-school train.
She was an excellent pupil, industrious, obedient. Her teachers liked her; she got on well with the other girls.
Then, at a quarter-past three on the fifteenth of April, 1912, a week after her seventeenth birthday, in the middle of a cou de pied en devant, she felt… something.
When the music stopped, she turned and saw in a group of people standing by the piano only one man. A man who, in the now silent room, calmly and deliberately crossed the expanse of empty floor and came to stand, as she had known he would, in front of her.
It was a piece of extraordinary effrontery. The Principal hissed; the Brigadier stared, unable to believe his eyes; the other girls giggled nervously. The Tsar himself would have hesitated thus to single out one girl.
‘What is your name?’ said Alex. He spoke in French, the language of the dance, and urgently for it could only be minutes before they were separated.
‘Vanni. Giovanna Starislova. My school number is 157. I shall be here until May 1913, then at the Maryinsky.’
She had understood at once; given him what he needed.
‘I’m Alex Hamilton of the 14th Fusiliers. My home is Winterbourne Hall in Wiltshire.’
She nodded, a frown mark between her eyes as she memorised these English names. Quickly he took possession of his territory. A small bridge of freckles over the nose, gold glints in the brown eyes, lashes which shone like sunflower seeds… There was a tiny mole on her left cheek; a fleeting scent of camomile came from her hair. ‘She is good,’ he thought blissfully. ‘A good girl’. It was a bonus, unexpected.
‘I will come back,’ he said. His voice was very low, but each word as distinct as when he briefed his soldiers. ‘I don’t know when, but I shall return.’
She had folded her slender hands as women do in prayer. Now she tilted them towards him so that her fingertips rested for a brief moment on his tunic. ‘I will wait,’ she said.
Alex returned to England. Vanni was sent for by the Principal and questioned.
The questions yielded nothing. No, said Vanni, standing with downcast eyes in her blue serge dress, she had never seen the Englishman before and he had written no notes to her, made no assignations.
Then why had she smiled in that brazen manner, asked Varvara Ivanova, who could still recall the unmistakable radiance, the intention behind that smile.
Vanni shook her head. She did not know. But though usually so well-behaved and obedient, she did not apologise and the Principal decided not to prolong the interview for even at the mention of the Englishman, the girl became illumined, as if she had swallowed a small and private sun.
So Vanni was punished — refused permission to visit her parents for three successive Sundays — and watched. But there were no further misdemeanours. When a boy on the floor above sent her a red tissue rose from his Easter cake, she returned it. No letters came from England and at rehearsals, when the older pupils went to augment the Cupids and nymphs of the corps de ballet she was conspicuous for not making sheep’s eyes at the handsome premier danseur, Vassilov.
If she was still watched when she returned for her last year at the school, it was for a different reason.
‘There is something a little interesting, now, in her work,’ said Cecchetti, the most famous dancing master in the world, to Sonia Delsarte who taught the senior class. ‘And she seems stronger.’
But what he meant was ‘happier’.
In May 1913, a year after Alex’s visit, she left the school in Theatre Street and became a member of the corps de ballet at the Maryinsky Theatre. Her salary was six hundred roubles a month, her future assured. For her parents — for Vanni herself as they believed — it was the fulfilment of a dream.
Back with his regiment on Salisbury Plain, Alex threw himself into his work. In the summer he took his battalion to Scotland for manoeuvres. Getting his men fit, turning them into first-class soldiers, occupied him physically. At night in his tent he read the technical manuals which poured from the world’s presses now that his profession was growing ever more complex and scientific. And when his army duties permitted he went down to Winterbourne, the estate which, since the death of his father two years earlier, had been wholly his.
It was a place of unsurpassed and Arcadian loveliness. A Queen Anne house of rosy brick faced south across sloping lawns which merged with water meadows fragrant, in summer, with yellow iris and cuckoo pint and clover. Sheltered by verdant hills, Alex’s farmlands were rich and lush; the cows that grazed in the fields were the fattest, the most reposeful cows in the southern counties; his sheep moved in dreamy clusters as if waiting to be addressed by the Good Shepherd Himself. With Alex’s position at Winterbourne went the position of Master of Fox Hounds, a seat on the Bench, an elaborate system of duties to tenants and fellow landowners alike.
It could not be — surely to God it could not be — that to share these duties he proposed to install a dancing girl, probably of low birth, whom he had glimpsed for five minutes in a strange barbaric land.
For as the months passed, the memory of that extraordinary encounter became more and more blurred and dreamlike. He could remember Vanni’s posture at the barre but her face increasingly eluded him. So when his stately widowed mother told him that the Stanton-Darcys were coming for the weekend and bringing Diana, Alex was pleased. He had attended Diana’s coming-out ball, sat next to her at Hunt dinners. She was twenty-one, sweet, with curls as yellow as butter, large blue eyes and a soft voice.
Diana came. The weekend was a great success. She went with Alex round the farms, the tenants took to her, his factor presented her with an adorable bulldog puppy. She was already a little in love with him — being in love with the handsome foxy-haired Captain Hamilton had been the fashion among the debutantes of her year. Yet somehow it happened that three months later she became engaged to the Earl of Farlington’s youngest son, for girls with blonde curls and big blue eyes do not lie about unclaimed for long.
Alex’s mother swallowed her disappointment and tried again. Selena Fordington was an heiress — unnecessary in view of Alex’s considerable wealth — but agreeable none the less: a quiet, intelligent girl whose plainness vanished as soon as she became animated. Alex liked her enormously, took her to Ascot and Henley — and introduced her to his best friend who promptly married her.
A year had passed since his visit to Russia and his longing to be ordinary, not to be singled out in this bizarre way, grew steadily. Yet the following winter he stood aside and let Pippa Latham go. Pippa, his childhood love, a tomboy with the lightest hands in the hunting field and a wild sense of humour, who returned from India a raven-haired beauty with a figure to send men mad…