She burrowed closer. “A day’s travel, a day there, another day to get home. Three days you’ll be gone, tops.”
“I don’t want to.”
“He’s your father.” She raised her head and searched his face. “Bobby, don’t you have one good memory of your father? Did he take you fishing, or hold you on your first bicycle, or cheer you on during a baseball game? Did he read you a story over and over again, or hold you when you were sick, or let you crawl in with him and your mother when you had a nightmare?”
He let his head fall back against the head of the couch and closed his eyes. “Maybe. One or two of those.” He opened his eyes. “Maybe all. But Lynnie’s dead because this supposedly good man called her a whore in front of her parents and her family and her friends. And me.”
Dinah chose her words carefully. “They called you a fornicator, and a sinner.”
He said nothing.
“And you didn’t kill yourself.”
His laugh was brief and bitter. “No, I let the Cong take care of that for me.”
She straddled his lap and took his face between her hands. Never before had she noticed how white they were against the black of his face, and she could and would curse his brother loud and long for that. “Bobby, what if he dies? What if he dies and you don’t say good-bye?”
“I said good-bye a long time ago, Dinah.”
“What about your mother?”
He shook his head. “I always came second to Jeffie. He was the oldest, the smartest, the most gendemanly. If she has Jeffie, she won’t want me.” He looked at her with a ghost of his old twinkle. “Jeffie got a full scholarship to MIT, did you know?”
“I think I heard him mention it twelve or fourteen times.”
They both laughed a little.
Kate walked in, followed by Johnny with a full daypack over his shoulder. “Don’t tell me, let me guess,” she said. “The evil brother strikes again.”
Bobby managed a smile. “And how was your day, dear?”
Johnny let the screen door slam behind him. “Kick him out, Bobby.”
“I did, squirt.”
“Good. Look at what we’re studying in science, Bobby. Light is both a particle and a wave, did you know that?”
Bobby was more than glad to have the subject changed. “Explain it to me, squirt.”
The men folk retired to the central console and bent over Johnny’s textbook. Bobby’s voice eventually regained full volume.
Dinah poured Kate coffee and set about trying to salvage the bread dough. “Want some fry bread?” she said over her shoulder.
Kate moaned. “Auntie Vi stuffed me full earlier today.”
“Does that mean you don’t want any more?”
“Did I say that?” Kate pulled out a large skillet and poured in oil and set it over a medium flame. She took the plateful of round patties of bread dough and fried them until both sides were a golden brown. She set the first batch on the table along with butter, powdered sugar, honey, and three kinds of jams and said, “Come and get it!” stepping back quickly so she wasn’t trampled in the rush.
She returned to the stove where the second batch was already in. “So?”
“Same old, same old.” Dinah sighed and closed her eyes briefly. “He’s only been here three days, Kate, and all I can think of is how nice it would be if our friendly neighborhood grizzly would just… kill him and serve him up for Sunday brunch to her cubs.”
“Not much meat on the man,” Kate observed.
“Not much incentive for a hungry bear,” Dinah agreed. “Damn it.”
“Want me to get rid of him?”
Dinah eyed her. “And how would you do that?”
Kate shrugged. “I’d figure it out.” She saw Dinah’s expression and choked on a piece of fry bread. “I didn’t mean I’d kill him,” she said, laughing out loud.
“What did you mean?”
“I don’t know. Sneak up on him one dark night, throw a sack over his head, and trundle him out to the airstrip, where I’d have George standing by ready to fly his ass to Anchorage and dump it on the first plane south.”
Dinah examined Kate carefully. It wasn’t braggadocio she saw on her friend’s face, it was sincerity and determination. “I believe you would.”
“Say the word.”
“You tempt me greatly,” she said, and sighed again, wistful. “But no.” She looked over her shoulder at their two men, one of whom was instructing the other in the fine art of pirating a little radio wave for the broadcast of Park Air. “There’s a lot Bobby’s been waiting to say to his family. I think he needs to.”
Kate was surprised. “You sending him home?”
“This is his home,” Dinah said firmly. “Katya and I are his home. But we are who our parents make us. His father’s dying. If he doesn’t say good-bye…” She let her voice trail off.
“Will he go?”
“He says not.” Dinah looked at her husband.
“Want me to take Katya and Johnny and clear out for a while?”
Dinah shook her head. “No, I’ve already said all I’m going to.” She gave a wan smile. “The rest is up to him.” She shook herself. “Enough of that. How the hell was your day, dear?”
Before Kate could play along, there was a knock at the screen door and they looked up to see Jim Chopin standing there.
“Hey, Jim,” Dinah said. She sounded less than friendly, which surprised Kate, because Dinah, while never having numbered among the legions of Jim’s lovers, was not immune to his manifest charms, either.
“Hey, yourself.” He looked at Kate.
Kate met his eyes without a trace of her usual discouraging scowl.
He looked confused, and then alarmed.
“Chopper Jim Chopin, long time no see,” Bobby said. “Must be all of twelve hours.”
Maybe it was the lower decibel level, maybe he didn’t want to see what was on Kate’s face, but Jim actually looked away from Kate. He frowned down at Bobby. “Who died?”
“My father,” Bobby replied. “Or the son of a bitch is about to.”
It was a toss-up who was more surprised at the words, Bobby or any of the rest of them.
“Screw it,” he said. “Let’s get drunk and go dancing.”
They commandeered the big round table in the back corner, Bobby and Dinah and Jim and Kate. Katya had been dropped off with Auntie Vi, who had taken one look at Bobby and made plans for keeping the baby overnight, overriding all obligatory, if feeble, parental objections. Johnny had made a vigorous bid to stay alone at Bobby’s-“I’m too old for a baby-sitter!”- which suggestion had been summarily squashed by Kate, and was also at Auntie Vi’s.
Bernie brought over a round, took the temperature of the table, and departed at speed with the barest minimum allowable bonhomie.
“Drink up,” Bobby said, and upended a bottle of Alaskan Amber like it was the last bottle in the last case Bernie had in stock.
Jim had left his cap, badge, and sidearm in his vehicle, which indicated that alcohol would be involved in whatever happened for the rest of the evening. He had a beer and a shot. He was out before Bobby was. Dinah was sipping at a double shot of Gran Marnier, warmed, in a snifter. Kate brooded over a sparkling water over ice, with lime.
The mood was not what you could call convivial.
As one might expect on a Friday night after breakup and before fishing season, the Roadhouse was jammed to the rafters. A gang of climbers stumbled in unshaven and smelly from a successful summit of Big Bump, and Bernie poured out Middle Fingers for all, the downing of which was accompanied by chanting and cheers from everyone else in the bar. Park rats admired insanity so long as it was sincere, and there was nothing more insane or sincere than the ambition of every mountain climber on the North American continent to summit the technically unchallenging but relatively high Angqaq Peak. Pastor Bill of the Jesus Loves You New Gospel Little Chapel in the Park and his congregation of four, down two since the wife of one had run off with the husband of another the year before, were singing hymns in the back room, although a rhythmic chinking sound accompanied by zither music indicated that they might be sharing space with the belly dancers that practiced at the Roadhouse once a month.