While I was standing with Zechariah Rosen I saw a man looking at me. When Zechariah left me this man came up and asked how I was, and stroked my coat, as one who has a liking for me and for my clothes.
He was dressed in a thin, patched garment with a tattered collar sticking up toward his chin. His face was very lean and his eyes shining. He was bending his fingers, putting them up to his mouth to warm them with his breath, and talking to me between the blue fingers. Seeing that I did not recognize him, he smiled and said, “Don’t you recognize me, sir? You used to visit me often.” I asked him if he was the photographer.
What was there that made me ask him if he was the photographer? And what if he was the photographer? I had never had anything to do with the photographer. Again he stroked my coat and asked, “Are you pleased with this coat I made for you?” I took his cold fingers in my hands and apologized for having been so preoccupied with Hanoch’s trouble that I did not recognize him at once, and now that I had recognized him, I wondered at my failure to do so before. I asked him how his wife was.
Schuster smiled and said, “Healthy and good, thank God, like a merry devil in the women’s balcony of the synagogue. As for her lying in bed, that is first of all to spoil herself, and second so that her neighbors should come to visit her and see her bedclothes, which have come from a count’s mansion — for the friendship between us I do not give his name, because he has gone down in the world, and it is no honor to a noble to speak about his decline. But I will tell you in a whisper that I did him a good turn and took them in payment for clothes I made him. As for Hanoch, I say definitely that it’s a bad business.”
The tailor sighed deeply, put his blue fingers to his mouth, and said again, “A bad business.” I asked him if he found the fast a hardship. He twisted his lips into a kind of smile and said, “The fast a hardship? Why should I find the fast a hardship? I am not fasting. I redeemed myself with money. I am a craftsman, full up with work, and I can’t waste even an hour, and anyone who fasts can’t work, especially in the cold weather, when the chill drives a man to distraction. It’s a bad winter we have, and everyone wants warm clothes. Even lords and ladies, who have many clothes, want to have more made. The district governor has already sent for me, saying, ‘Make me two suits, and a third for ceremonial occasions, for I am invited to meet Pilsudski.’ I sent to tell him I was busy and could not go to him. He sent back, ‘If you do not make them for me I will be angry with you.’ I sent back, ‘Your honor knows that the whole town is practically naked; if I go to you that will keep me from my work, and the whole town will die of cold. Even for myself I do not find the time to make a coat. No, your honor, have pity. Jews are dying of cold.’”
Here the tailor’s compassion was aroused and enveloped his smile. His face grew pale and his lips began to quiver. Finally he made a downward motion with his hand and said, “And I tell you, sir, all our trouble is in vain. Hanoch is already dead. How? Well, he follows on behind his cart, and the horse walks on in front, and the snow is falling, and Hanoch’s hands get colder and colder, and all his body is cold. Still he summons up strength and goes up to his horse to see if the horse is not dead. The horse is still alive, but Hanoch is cold as a corpse. Hanoch stretches out his hands to his horse’s neck and embraces him, and so they stand together. The one is cold and the other is cold, but when they stand together it seems to them that they are getting warmer, because of the power of imagination that is in every creature. Says Hanoch to his horse, ‘Kindchen, are you cold?’ ‘No, I am not cold,’ says the horse to Hanoch. ‘I know you are cold,’ says Hanoch to the horse, ‘but you say that so as not to grieve me. I am sure your words will not be counted against you as lies. Kindchen, are you cold?’ Before the horse can reply, the snow covers him and Hanoch. Hanoch peers from the snow and wants to get out, to reach a place where Jews live, so that he can be buried in a Jewish grave. He lifts one foot out of the snow. But what is the use of lifting one foot when you have to sink it back into the snow to take out the other foot that is sunk in the snow? But Hanoch does not think anything, for his mind is frozen and he is not capable of any thoughts in the world, but he takes out a foot and puts in a foot and bends his whole body, sometimes one way and sometimes the other, as I am showing you. But since his blood has been chilled, the body has no strength to stand, and he collapses. When he collapses he falls, and when he has fallen he cannot rise, and so he collapses and falls.” As the tailor was demonstrating Hanoch’s fall, his legs collapsed, and he fell.
At the sound of his fall, many were startled and alarmed. Some moved farther off and some came closer. Cries of alarm were heard. “Bring water, water!” “No, vinegar, vinegar!” “Bring a little water!” “A man has fainted!” “He can’t lie there, you should rub him, so that his blood shouldn’t freeze.” “Who’s fainted here?” “It’s the tailor from Berlin.” “But only a minute ago I saw him talking.” “It seems he found it too hard to fast.” “If so we’ll have to make him eat.” “Father in heaven, what are you standing there for? Move away.”
Three or four people came forward, lifted him, and brought him to the old Beit Midrash, where they put him on a table, raised his head, sprinkled water on his face, and wet his dry lips. They took the cloth from the reading desk and a tattered prayer shawl that no one would claim and put them under his head. They wanted to bring brandy and some food. The tailor opened his eyes, looked around and said, “There’s no time, sir, I’m too busy. Why are you crowding around me? Can I clothe the whole town?” While he was talking, he dozed off again and fell asleep. His lips grew paler and paler, but his smile did not go away, as if it had frozen on his lips.
So the stricken body lay on the table in the Beit Midrash, and the pure soul ascended to beg mercy for him. It was good for the body to lie still without being vexed by the soul. And while the one was lying and the other was pleading with its Maker, brandy was brought, and they opened his mouth and poured some into it. Reb Hayim came with a pot of black coffee in one hand and a piece of sugar in the other, and made him drink the coffee, sweetened with the sugar. Little by little the tailor returned to health to undergo fresh tribulations.
As I left, the rabbi saw me and greeted me amicably. Did I like his sermon? he asked, and what did I like about it? Finally he said that he had wanted to say more, but he saw that the congregation was weary with the fast and there were no learned men in it to understand the profundities of the Torah, so he cut it short. In the end he took my hand and said, “Come to break your fast with me, sir, and I will tell you all I left out.”
I said to myself: If you have been in a place once, it is known that you will go back there. I will go today and I shall not have to go some other day. I asked his permission to come after the meal; I knew that he was a poor man and I did not wish to eat of a meal that is not sufficient even for the hosts themselves.