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Cyrus Goma said something to Shinza about the time. The little group took on the wariness, eyeing each other, of people expected elsewhere. Shinza scorned the mystery. “If you feel like it, come along …? If you wanted to …” Goma with his hunched head frowned down at himself; the others stood awkwardly. Shinza sensed the pressure of disapproval and passed over the invitation as if Bray had already refused, “I’m sorry … we’re just pushing off to see Dhlamini Okoi.” So Okoi, Minister of Posts and Telegraphs, was in the Shinza camp too, now. Shinza smiled lazily to see that conclusion in Bray’s face. But Goma looked sharply, gloomily annoyed. Bray paid his respects to the old woman again. Now that Bray was on his way out, Cyrus Goma was pleasant with relief, chatting to show that there was nothing personal. “… after all these years. And how’s Mrs. Bray? She’s happy out there in England? When you write please give her my greetings, I don’t know if she remembers me….” He still had on the West African cotton robe that was his form of dress for public appearances. “Let’s go.” Shinza gave the word. He said to Bray, as if in confidential amusement at the attitude of the others— “Till tomorrow morning. Don’t get into trouble in the big city.”

It was not yet ten o’clock and the darkness was thickly hot. A flying cockroach got into the car and slid itself, flattened like a knifeedge, under the torn floor mat when he swatted at it. Well, there were probably tasty pickings beneath the seats and in crevices, left over from journeys with the children. They had made the car as homely with crumbs and broken toys as Rebecca’s always was. He didn’t feel like bed, or drinking with Roly; he thought he would go round by way of the Silver Rhino and say hello to the Wentzes. They would expect him some time and he didn’t mean to linger in the capital after Congress was over. The Rhino was full; “Reduced rates for delegates — what can you do,” Hjalmar said. “We have to pay the staff the same, no matter what the guests pay.” Margot was in bed; “Not ill?” “Who knows, with Margot? She says she’s tired; and she’s ill. She says she’s ill; and she’s tired. I want her to go on a holiday. She says why don’t I go away for a few days.” He left the office unattended and they sat in the little private sitting — room with its round table under the cone of light from the low — hanging shade, the windows of this Vuillard interior pushed gasping — wide into the hot night smelling of red dust and grass fires. Hjalmar Wentz always generated the immediate intimacy of someone who has no one to talk to; he gave the impression, tonight, of a prisoner of whose cell Bray unknowingly had sprung the lock. The son Stephen had taken his A levels but there was no question of a university — it was the first time for as many generations they knew of in either his (Hjalmar’s) family or Margot’s that anyone simply left school and became one of the half — educated petite bourgeoisie. “He is a natural colonial — the adaptable kind who enjoys the sort of popularity you get when you run a bar and everybody calls you Steve — you know what I mean. There’s nothing you can do about it. Everybody likes him. Margot finds it disgusting. Of course I don’t exactly rejoice … but I see it as a solution to the problem of survival, nhh? We brought him here, in this world and this place, and that is how he’s worked things out for himself. Not intellectually, you understand — he has only instincts. Margot in Europe never knew such people. Her father, the old professor — when they went to a spa, he took all his meals in a private room. They were taught that solitude and contemplation develop the human faculties and wasting time with stupid people prevents them from — inhibits them. He was a great Hegelian; they were made to turn every accepted idea round about and think the opposite before making up their minds — you know, negative thinking and all that. He had a great contempt for middlemen … well, who hasn’t, specially if you have to become one. But he never did … he died before that might become necessary. Ah — ja-a-ah!”—it was not the German exclamation, but the unmistakable longer — vowelled Scandinavian one, with a rising cadence at the end— “All very Jewish — intellectual, although he hardly considered himself a Jew. If he’d been in Eastern Europe instead of Germany the old man would’ve been one of those Talmudic holy men who don’t have anything to do with earning money — part of the rabbinical tradition that to him was a much worse kind of ghetto than the real ones.”

Bray remembered the daughter was named after that remote and forbidding European. To distract Hjalmar from his son, he turned his attention to the girl he was much closer to. “And Emmanuelle? How’s her musical career on the radio going?”

“She broadcasts regularly every Thursday evening.” Hjalmar looked slightly taken aback; surely that was something everyone knew. But Bray never listened to anything except the news and was oblivious of his neglect.

“Oh, jolly good.”

Hjalmar rejected his own easy pride in her as contemptible. “She should be at the conservatoire in Copenhagen. In Paris. Blowing little flutes made of sticks and pinging away at bits of tin over a calabash. Ahh, I can’t talk about it. And now Margot with her ideas”—he took a breath and held it; let go hopelessly— “now Margot goes and brings her to the doctor, to fix her up. You take a pill and you take a man just like an aspirin, too.” He was addressing the absent Margot. “Who are you to decide for her whether she’s going to sleep with any man who comes along? She didn’t ask for it; you decide. You decide that’s how girls live these days.” He turned away from himself. Accusations followed him. “And I’m the one who is out of touch with reality, I’m the one who lives in a dream world. Oh yes. Any man with five or six children and a wife at home in the bush is all right for her, there’s nothing to worry about because Emmanuelle is protected. Against what? Can you tell me? Are there no miseries and sorrows left once a woman knows she will not risk a child?”

“We do what we can, that’s all,” Bray said.

“Your daughters are married.”

“Yes. That’s no form of immunity, either.”

There was an easy pause; Hjalmar tugged the rim of his wellshaped ear. “You know, often I’ve felt I’d like to come up to your place for a couple of days — just a break, just to have a look. I’ve seen nothing of the country.”

“Well, why don’t you.”

“An idea to play with.” He shrugged. “You can’t get away half a day, in this game. It’s becoming more impossible to get staff, all the time. Margot’s just been back in the kitchen again — the cook was stabbed in a fight. Well, what can I do? You can’t call up cooks from thin air. I’ve told her, what we should do is get someone out from Europe, an immigrant. Advertise in Italy or Germany.”

Emmanuelle appeared, at once the expression on her face registering: on about that again. She held out her slender sallow hand, shaking it like a tambourine. “Keys, keys, please. — Hullo, Colonel Bray, I didn’t know you were here.”

“Unfortunately he’s snubbed us this time, he’s with Mr. Dando. We’re deserted.”

What did one say to girls of Emmanuelle’s age? Not you’ve grown … although it seemed she had. She looked taller than when he had seen her last, and even more elegantly thin. They chatted a few moments; but she asserted an equality of adult status that, of course, they had established last time. He had forgotten the talk in the garden. “Come and have a drink with us,” she said, leaving the invitation open, as if he would know the company she had temporarily left. She shook her hand for the keys again, standing legs planted apart, before her father. “What do you want?” “Never you mind.” He smiled, giving in. “No, Emmanuelle, what is it?” “I’m going to unlock all the family secrets and display before the jealous eyes of the populace all the family jewels, that’s what.” Her dark, narrow face was still bare of any make — up but her hair was grown and hung forward on either side of her long neck from the pointed peak of her skull, straight, coarse and shiny. She looked at him with love and pity, a strangely ruthless and devouring look. So one might make the decision to put down a faithful and beloved horse, when the time came. Then she was gone, with her sloppy stalk, very female in its disdain of femininity.