Yusuf paused, caught off guard.
“Excuse me?”
“You are Zeba’s lawyer.”
“Yes, I am,” he said cautiously, his hand still resting on the metal handle. “I’m very sorry. You are. .”
“Mother of the prisoner.”
He stopped abruptly, retreating a step and turning to face Gulnaz. He felt himself pulled by the crystalline green of her eyes.
How exotic, he thought, feeling fully Western as it occurred to him. These were the kinds of eyes that foreign photographers would plaster on magazine covers. His Afghan senses returned, and the sparkle of Gulnaz’s eyes also brought a chill to his bones.
Bewitching. His mother would have been muttering prayers under her breath if she were caught under the gaze of such eyes.
Yusuf reined in his thoughts.
“Pleasure to meet you. You’re here to visit your daughter?”
“I sat with her for a time.”
“How is she doing today?” It felt like the right thing to ask though he wasn’t clear why he was spending time with pleasantries. Surely there were more pressing things to ask Zeba’s mother.
Gulnaz must have agreed. She ignored his question and asked a more relevant one.
“Has she spoken much with you?”
“Well, she’s been reluctant to say much of anything so far,” Yusuf replied slowly. The family wasn’t paying a lot for his services, but they were paying something. He had disappointingly little to show for the case thus far.
“She knows better,” her mother confirmed. “My son-in-law’s body was found in his home. That means only that he’s dead — not that she killed him. Tell me your plans.”
Yusuf shifted his weight and moved the strap of his bag to his left shoulder.
“Well, for one, I’m going to be traveling to her village. I need to speak with the neighbors, people who knew her and her husband. I’ve got to see where it happened, especially since she’s not saying much. I’m going to do my job, Khanum. Your daughter seems to think she’s a lost cause, but I don’t see it that way. There’s always a way to. .”
“People don’t speak badly of the dead. Do you really think you’ll find the truth there?”
“It is a starting point.”
“You don’t have a plan,” Gulnaz surmised.
“This is a complicated case, mostly because of how uncomplicated it looks. It’s not going to be simple to argue for her innocence.” Yusuf sounded defensive and he knew it.
“Innocence is a luxury not everyone can afford.”
Whether Gulnaz was referring to prisoners bribing their way out of convictions or her daughter’s role in Kamal’s death, Yusuf could not tell.
Gulnaz lifted the ends of her black-and-green head scarf, crossed them in front of her, and let them drape over her shoulders in one fluid motion.
“I need you to do something for me,” she said as the sound of a diesel engine rumbled past the prison. “I need you to tell the qazi that Safatullah’s daughter wishes to see him.”
“I see. May I ask, who is Safatullah?”
“My father.”
“I’m sorry I don’t recognize your father’s name. Should I?”
“No,” Gulnaz said without elaborating.
Yusuf’s eyebrows lifted slightly.
“Do you know this judge?”
“I have no business knowing judges here,” Gulnaz replied flatly.
“No, I suppose you wouldn’t.”
They weighed each other’s words for a moment.
“I’ll speak to the qazi,” Yusuf offered. “But how about you and I sit down and speak for a moment? Maybe we could go inside and find a place to talk.”
“I prefer not to be in a prison. We can speak here.” Gulnaz took a few steps away from the building. Yusuf had no choice but to follow. “What is it you want to speak about?”
“In order to defend Zeba, I’ve got to understand her. I need to know what kind of person she is. I need to know what kind of mother she is. I need to know about her relationship with her husband.”
Gulnaz had never been one to speak of private matters. The daughter of the murshid had been raised in a world of discretion. People could not know how the murshid knew the things he seemed to know. They could not find out that the family compound was a network of observers, scouts, runners, and messengers. Safatullah was the murshid, but without his family, he would have been deaf and blind and impotent.
Discretion served Gulnaz well later in her life, too. People asked lots of uncomfortable questions when Gulnaz’s husband disappeared.
She didn’t tell anyone, not even their children, that she’d watched him fill a flask with tea and tuck a rusted gun into the coiled hat on his head. In a small bag, he’d packed one of Gulnaz’s old housedresses and a few sets of clothing. He’d kissed his wife on the cheek and told her the entire world had turned into a battlefield.
The determination on his face told Gulnaz it would not be useful to argue.
He went off to end the war, she maintained over the years, wondering if maybe that weren’t some form of the truth.
“MY DAUGHTER DOES NOT SPEAK TO ME ABOUT HER HUSBAND. She never has.” Why should she? Zeba had matched her mother’s reticence in the last few years. It was a punishment.
“Tell me what she was like when she was younger,” Yusuf suggested. There had to be some kind of useful information she could offer.
Gulnaz looked back toward the prison, squinting in the midday sun. Zeba as a girl. Nothing brought Gulnaz as much joy as thinking about her daughter as a child. Before she could stop herself, she was reminiscing.
“Zeba twinkled like a star. She laughed often and followed her brother around everywhere he went. I kept her close at my side and taught her everything I could about managing a household. We were a pious home and Zeba grew up saying her prayers, honoring her family. She was a good girl, always obedient.”
“What was her relationship like with her father?” Yusuf asked gently.
“She was in his arms from the moment she was born. He would pick her up and toss her into the air. They were very close up until he was gone.”
“Gone?”
“He went off to fight the Russians,” Gulnaz continued with rehearsed ease. “He never came back.”
Yusuf sighed empathetically.
“A brave man. You’ve not heard from him since then?”
“Not a word, not a letter.”
“How did Zeba react to his absence? It must have been hard on her.”
“It was hard on all of us. That was not a time that passed easily.” Gulnaz turned her gaze back to Yusuf. “She was only six years old then. She cried. She asked for him often. But people move on and Zeba did too. He was not a warrior. I knew she would never see him again. My husband’s family, they wanted to hold on to hope. They wanted to believe he would walk through the front door at any moment and tell grand stories of war.”
“You didn’t think there was even a chance he would return?”
“If he could have returned, he would have. But he didn’t, which is how I knew he was dead.”
“I see. Of course.”
He couldn’t possibly see, Gulnaz thought. Every family was a mystery to outsiders. There was no way to understand a father and his children or a husband and wife by sitting with them and asking a few questions.
“Tell me about her marriage.”
“It was meant to be a happy marriage.”
“Aren’t they all,” Yusuf said, chuckling, though Gulnaz thought it an odd thing for someone so young to say.
“Kamal’s grandfather was an army general, a very respected man. He was good friends with my father. They sat together one day and, over a cup of tea, decided that Zeba and Kamal should be husband and wife. They tied themselves to each other through their grandchildren.”