She was sitting where she had sat with Wilfrid, on the fallen tree; the book lay at her side, and she was giving herself to memory. Treading on the grass, he did not attract her attention till he almost stood before her; then she looked at him, and at once rose. He expected signs of apprehension or embarrassment, but she seemed calm. She had accustomed herself to think of him, and could no longer be taken by surprise. She was self-possessed, too, in the strength of the thoughts which he had disturbed.
He fed his eyes upon her, and kept so long silent that Emily’s cheek coloured, and she half turned away. Then he spoke abruptly, yet with humility, which the consciousness of his purpose could not overcome.
‘You know that I have been away since I saw you last. I tried to put you out of my mind. I couldn’t do it, and I am driven back to you.’
‘I hoped we should not meet again like this, Mr. Dagworthy,’ Emily replied, in a low voice, but firmly. She felt that her self-respect was to be tested to the uttermost, but she was better able to control herself than at the last interview. The sense of being passionately sought cannot but enhance a woman’s dignity in her own eyes, and Emily was not without perception of the features in Dagworthy’s character which made him anything but a lover to be contemned. She dreaded him, and could not turn away as from one who tormented her out of mere ill-breeding.
‘I cannot ask you to pardon me,’ he returned, ‘for however often you asked me to leave you, I should pay no heed. I am here because I can’t help myself; I mean what I say—I can’t, I can’t help it! Since you told me there was no hope, I seem to have been in hell. These are not words to use to you—I know it. It isn’t that I don’t respect you, but because I must speak what I feel. Look—I am worn out with suffering; I feel as if it would take but a little more to kill me, strong man as I am. You don’t think I find a pleasure in coming and facing that look you have? I don’t know that I ever saw the man I couldn’t meet, but before you I feel—I can’t put it into words, but I feel I should like to hide my face. Still, I have come, I have followed you here. It’s more than I can do to give you up.’
At the last words he half sobbed. Her fear of him would not allow Emily to feel deep distress, but she was awed by the terrible evidence of what he endured. She could not at once find words for reply.
‘Will you sit down?’ he said. ‘I will stand here, but I have more to say to you before I go.’
‘Why should you say more?’ Emily urged. ‘Can you not think how very painful it is to hear you speak in this way? What purpose can it serve to speak to me when I may not listen?’
‘You must listen. I can’t be sent away as you would another man; no other on earth can love you as I do, no one. No one would do for you all that I would do. My love gives me a claim upon you. It is you that have brought me to this state; a woman owes a man something who is driven mad by her. I have a right to be here and to say all I feel.’
He was struggling with a dread of the words he had come to utter; a wild hope sprang in him that he might yet win her in other ways; he used language recklessly, half believing that his arguments would seem of force. His passion was in the death-grapple with reason and humanity.
‘If your regard for me is so strong,’ Emily replied, ‘should you not shrink from causing me pain? And indeed you have no such right as you claim. Have I in any way sought to win your affection? Is it manly to press upon me a suit which you know it is out of my power to favour? You say you respect me; your words are not consistent with respect. I owe you nothing, Mr. Dagworthy, and it is certainly my right to demand that you will cease to distress and trouble me.’
He stood with his eyes on the ground.
‘That is all you have to say?’ he asked, almost sullenly.
‘What more can I say? Surely you should not have compelled me to say even so much. I appeal to your kindness, to your sense of what is due from a man to a woman, to let me leave you now, and to make no further attempt to see me. If you refuse, you take advantage of my powerlessness. I am sure you are not capable of that.’
‘Yes, I am capable of more than you think,’ he replied, the words coming between his teeth. His evil demon, not himself, was speaking; in finding utterance at length it made him deadly pale, and brought a cold sweat to his brow. ‘When you think afterwards of what I say now, remember that it was love of you that made me desperate. A chance you little dream of has put power into my hands, and I am going to use it. I care for nothing on this earth but to make you my wife—and I can do so.’
Terror weighed upon her heart. His tone was that of a man who would stick at nothing, and his words would bear no futile meaning. Her thoughts were at once of her father; through him alone could he have power over her. She waited, sick with agonised anticipation, for what would follow.
‘Your father—’
The gulf between purpose and execution once passed, he had become cruel; human nature has often enough exemplified the law in prominent instances. As he pronounced the words, he eyed her deliberately, and, before proceeding, paused just long enough to see the anguish flutter in her breast.
‘Your father has been guilty of dishonesty; he has taken money from the mill. Any day that I choose I can convict him.’
She half closed her eyes and shook, as if under a blow. Then the blood rushed to her face, and, to his astonishment, she uttered a strange laugh.
‘That is your power over me!’ she exclaimed, with all the scorn her voice could express. ‘Now I know that you are indeed capable of shameful things. You think I shall believe that of my father?’
Dagworthy knew what it was to feel despicable. He would, in this moment, have relinquished all his hope to be able to retract those words. He was like a beaten dog before her; and the excess of his degradation made him brutal.
‘Believe it or not, as you choose. All I have to say is that your father put into his pocket yesterday morning a ten-pound note of mine, which he found in a ledger he took out of my room. He had to go to Hebsworth on business, and there he changed the note to buy himself a new hat; I have a witness of it. When he came back hoof course had nothing to say about the money; in fact, he had stolen it.’
She heard, and there came into her mind the story of Cheeseman’s debt. That was of ten pounds. The purchase her father had been obliged to make, of that also she had heard. Last night, and again this morning, her mother had incessantly marvelled at this money having been at length returned; it was an incredible thing, she had said; only the sight of the coins could convince her of its truth. Emily’s mind worked over the details of the previous evening with terrible rapidity and insight. To her directly her father had spoken not a word of the repayment; he had bidden her keep in another room while he informed her mother of it; he had shown disinclination to return to the subject when, later, they all sat together. ‘Well, here it is,’ he had said, ‘and we’ll talk no more about it.’ She heard those words exactly as they were spoken, and she knew their tone was not natural; even at the time that had struck her, but her thought had not dwelt upon it.
She almost forgot Dagworthy’s presence; he and his threats were of small account in this shaking of the depths of her nature. She was awakened by his voice.