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Before Beatrice spoke again, her aunt resumed.

‘Don’t lay traps for me, my dear. Suppose you explain at once your interest in Emily Hood’s whereabouts.’

‘Yes, I wish to do so. I have come to you to talk about it, aunt, because I know you take things quietly, and just now I want a little help of the kind you can give. You have guessed, of course, what I am going to tell you,—part of it at least. Wilfrid and she have met.’

‘They have met,’ repeated the other, musingly, her face still rather anxious. ‘In what way?’

‘By chance, pure chance.’

‘By chance? It was not, I suppose, by chance that you heard of the meeting?’

‘No. Wilfrid told me of it. He told me on Sunday—’

Her voice was a little uncertain.

‘Give me your hand, dear,’ said Mrs. Baxendale. ‘There, now tell me the rest.’

Beatrice half sobbed.

‘Yes, I can now more easily,’ she continued, with hurried utterance. ‘Your hand is just what I wanted; it is help, dear help. But you mustn’t think I am weak; I could have stood alone. Yes, he told me on Sunday. And that of course was the end.’

‘At his desire?’

‘His and mine. He was honest with me. It was better than such discoveries when it would have been too late.’

‘And he is going to marry her?’

‘They were married an hour ago.’

Mrs. Baxendale looked with grave inquiry into Beatrice’s face. Incredulity was checked by what she saw there. She averted her eyes again, and both were silent for awhile.

‘So it is all well over, you see,’ Beatrice said at length, trying at light-heartedness.

‘Over, it seems. As to the well or ill, I can’t say.’

‘Surely well,’ rejoined Beatrice. ‘He loves her, and he would never have loved me. We can’t help it. She has suffered dreadful things; you see it in her face.’

‘Her face?’

‘I went to see her on Monday evening,’ Beatrice explained, with simplicity, though her lips quivered. ‘I asked leave of Wilfrid to do so; he had told me all her story, as he had just heard it from herself, and I—indeed I was curious to see her again. Then there was another reason. If I saw her and brought her to believe that Wilfrid and I were merely intimate friends, as we used to be—how much easier it would make everything. You understand me, aunt?’

Mrs. Baxendale was again looking at her with grave, searching eyes, eyes which began to glimmer a little when the light caught them. Beatrice’s hand she held pressed more and more closely in both her own. She made no reply to the last question, and the speaker went on with a voice which lost its clearness, and seemed to come between parched lips.

‘You see how easy that makes everything? I want your help, of course; I told Wilfrid that this was how I should act. It is very simple; let us say that I prefer to be thought an unselfish woman: anyone can be jealous and malicious. You are to think that I care as little as it would seem; I don’t yet know how I am to live, but of course I shall, it will come in time. It was better they should be married in this way. Then he must come back after the holidays, and everything be smooth for him. That will be our work, yours and mine, dear aunt. You understand me? You will talk to Mrs. Birks; it will be better from you; and then Mr. Athel shall be told. Yes, it is hard for me, but perhaps not quite in the way you think. I don’t hate her, indeed I don’t. If you knew that story, which you never can I No, I don’t hate her. I kissed her, aunt, with my lips—indeed. She couldn’t find me out; I acted too well for that. But I couldn’t have done it if I had hated her. She is so altered from what she was. You know that I liked her years ago. She interested me in a strange, strange way; it seems to me now that I foresaw how her fate would be connected with mine. I knew that Wilfrid loved her before anyone else had dreamt of such a thing. Now promise your help.’

‘Have they gone away?’ her aunt asked.

‘I don’t know. It is likely.’

Her face went white to the lips; for a moment she quivered.

‘Beatrice, stay with me,’ said Mrs. Baxendale. ‘Stay ‘with me here for a day or two.’

‘Willingly. I wished it. Mrs. Birks is all kindness, but I find it hard to talk, and she won’t let me be by myself. Don’t think I am ill—no, indeed no! It’s only rest that I want. It seems a long time since Sunday. But you haven’t yet promised me, aunt. It will be much harder if I have to do everything myself. I promised him that everything should be made smooth. I want to show him that my—that my love was worth having. It’s more than all women would do, isn’t it, aunt? Of course it isn’t only that; there’s the pleasure of doing something for him. And he cannot help being grateful to me as long as he lives. Suppose I had gone and told her She would never have married him. She was never beautiful, you know, and now her face is dreadfully worn, but I think I understand why he loves her. Of course you cannot know her as well as I do. And you will help me, aunt?’

‘Are you perfectly sure that they have been married this morning?’ Mrs. Baxendale asked, with quiet earnestness.

‘Sure, quite sure.’

‘In any other case I don’t know whether I should have done as you wish.’

‘You would have tried to prevent it? Oh no, you are too wise! After all this time, and he loves her as much as ever. Don’t you see how foolish it would be to fret about it? It is fete, that’s all. You know we all have our fate. Do you know what I used to think mine would he? I feared madness; my poor father—But I shall not fear that now; I have gone through too much; my mind has borne it. But I must have rest, and I can only rest if I know that you are helping me. You promise?’

‘I will do my best, dear.’

‘And your best is best indeed, aunt. You will go to Mrs. Birks and tell her where I am? The sooner you speak to her the better. I will lie down. If you knew how worn-out I feel!’

She rose, but stood with difficulty. Mrs. Baxendale put her arm about her and kissed her cheek. Then she led her to another room.

Tension in Beatrice was nearing the point of fever. She had begun the conversation with every appearance of calmness; now she was only to be satisfied by immediate action towards the end she had in view, every successive minute of delay was an added torment. She pressed her aunt to go to Mrs. Birks forthwith; that alone could soothe her. Mrs. Baxendale yielded and set out.

But it was not to Mrs. Birks that she paid her first visit. Though it was clear that Beatrice firmly believed all she said, Mrs. Baxendale could not accept this as positive assurance; before taking upon herself to announce such a piece of news she felt the need of some further testimony. She had a difficulty in reconciling precipitate action of this kind with Wilfrid’s character as it had of late years developed itself; political, even social, ambition had become so pronounced in him that it was difficult to imagine him turning with such sudden vehemence from the path in which every consideration of interest would tend to hold him. The best of women worship success, and though Mrs. Baxendale well knew that Wilfrid’s aims had suffered a degradation, she could not, even apart from her feeling for Beatrice, welcome his return to the high allegiance of former days, when it would surely check or altogether terminate a brilliant career. The situation had too fantastic a look. Could it be that Beatrice was suffering from some delusion? Had a chance discovery of Emily Hood’s proximity, together perhaps with some ambiguous behaviour on Wilfrid’s part, affected her mind? It was an extreme supposition, but on the whole as easy of acceptance as the story Beatrice had poured forth.

In pursuit of evidence Mrs. Baxendale drove to the Athels’. It was about luncheon-time. She inquired for Wilfrid, and heard with mingled feelings that he was at home. She found him in his study; he had before him a little heap of letters, the contents of a packet he had found on his table on entering a quarter of an hour before.