“Ye didna’ want to die in Scotland. Ye canna’ die now.”
He was aware of the man across the empty road from him, dressed in workmen’s clothing, muddy corduroys, a flannel shirt, and a heavy coat. It looked like the remnants of a cast-off officer’s coat. The stalker seemed to be considering him in turn, both of them taking the measure of an adversary.
“I don’t know you,” Rutledge said at last. “Or why you have cast such a long shadow over my life. If you’re going to kill me, at least tell me why.”
“It’s the war’s shadow, not mine.” And then he added grudgingly, “I hadn’t expected you to show so much courage.”
“What happened to you in the war?”
“What happened to all of us? You were an officer, you should know. You bled us without mercy, you sat in safety well behind the lines, and sent us out to face the guns, day in and day out. For inches of land! What we lost in one attack, the next must win back again. For your own glory.
For no reason other than ignorance and stupidity and sheer, bloody waste!”
“I was in the trenches myself.”
“Don’t lie to me. I swore I’d make someone pay for what they’d done to us. I swore that if I survived the fighting, I’d come home and kill as many officers as I could find.”
“How did you know that I was to visit Mrs. Browning on New Year’s Eve?”
“The cook told me. I’d met her in a shop where I swept the floors, and sometimes we’d talked about France. That day she said to the butcher her mistress had guests coming to dine, and I asked her who they were. Commander Farnum, she said, and Captain Rutledge, she said. Was the captain in France? I asked her, and she said, He was. Four years, mind you, and home without a scratch on him! I knew then you’d been far from the Front. Safe as houses somewhere in the rear. Not many of my mates saw the war’s start and the war’s end. They fed the machine guns instead. Have you seen what those guns do to a man? Have you ever walked into a field hospital and looked!”
How to answer him without being accused of another lie?
“What’s your name?” Rutledge asked instead. He was drained, his mind refusing to work with any clarity.
“You never cared to know the names of the dead. Or the living for that matter. We were numbers on the chart table, without faces, pushed forward because it suited the French or the Americans or the War Ministry. And when those were slaughtered, you found more to send up the line. You found my brother and my cousin, and my neighbors, and my son.”
He stopped and looked at the body of Mary Ellison. “I didn’t mean to kill her, and that’s the truth. I wanted to make you afraid, as afraid as I ever was. I wanted you to know what it was like to look death in the face, to know there was no way out without shaming yourself. I wanted you to remember what the guns did to people like us. I didn’t intend to kill a woman. Why did you let her drive your bloody motorcar!”
There was a mixture of shame and anger in his voice.
“She borrowed it without asking. Have you lived out here, in the middle of nowhere? Where did you sleep?
How did you eat?”
“It’s better than the trenches.”
Perhaps it was, Rutledge thought. But it was no way for a soldier to live.
The man steadied the gun. “You can beg for your life.”
“I never begged for my life from a German, and I’m damned if I’ll beg it from an Englishman!” Rutledge said, anger rising in him.
The revolver fired, and he could hear the whine of the shot passing his ear.
“Beg!”
Rutledge stood where he was. “Her death was an accident,” he said. “Let me help you. Before it’s too late.”
The next shot seemed to ruffle his hair, and he flinched in spite of himself.
“Damn you, beg!”
Another shot went wild, the revolver wobbling as the man began to cry, the tears running down his face unheeded.
Then it steadied once more, the muzzle pointed straight at Rutledge.
Rutledge steeled himself. He couldn’t be sure how many shots were left in the weapon. But he couldn’t reach the man, and he knew that if he tried, the next shot wouldn’t miss.
“Listen to me,” Rutledge began. “My death won’t bring your dead back. It won’t even satisfy you. Even if you kill a dozen like me, it can’t change what happened in France.
Nothing can.”
“I never intended to kill you,” he said at last. “I just wanted to see the fear in your face and hear you beg to live.”
“Not for you, not for anyone.”
Hamish was as angry as he was, helpless in the confines of death.
The muzzle held steady, and it seemed that minutes ticked by. And then the man moved.
For an instant Rutledge thought he was going to kill himself. The revolver rose to his temple in one fluid action, but instead of pulling the trigger, he touched the barrel to his forehead in a salute. It was grotesque, a mockery of the acknowledgment of enlisted man to officer. And yet it was also an admission.
He turned away, striding up the rise and into the dark night.
Rutledge searched for an hour or more. But without a torch or a sense of which direction the man had taken, he couldn’t find his lair, the place where he’d gone to ground.
Hamish said, “Tomorrow. When it’s light.”
36
Rutledge moved his own motorcar to the side of the road and then lifted the body of Mary Ellison into Mrs. Channing’s vehicle, his rug still wrapped around her.
There was nowhere else to put her except in the rear seat— where Hamish sat.
Turning to drive back to Dudlington, he wondered if the stalker was watching him, and what was going through his mind.
Meredith Channing and Grace Letteridge sat waiting in the office that Hensley used for police business.
Their faces were drawn with anxiety and exhaustion, and he thought, as he stepped over the threshold, that they had already said to each other all that there was to say, and silence had long since fallen in the room.
Mrs. Channing started to her feet when she saw him, her gaze sweeping him and the blood still wet on his coat, his hands.
“What happened?” Her voice was tense. “Are you hurt?”
“She’s in the motorcar. Mrs. Ellison. There was an— accident—on the road. She’s dead. I must take her home.”
“I’ll come with you,” Mrs. Channing said, as if she had read more in his answer than he’d intended.
Grace Letteridge stood where she was, waiting for a chance to speak to him. She seemed to have aged since he’d seen her last, not an hour before.
“I told you once that I’d kill Constable Hensley, if I discovered he’d murdered Emma.”
“I remember.”
“He’s dead,” she said. “The message came half an hour ago.” She lost her composure then, and her eyes filled with tears of guilt.
Rutledge found himself thinking, Beware what you ask for.
But he’d lost any chance now of finding out the truth about what role Bowles had played in the Barstow affair.
He would have to face that later, when there was time to consider it. He thought about this house, and how empty it was, yet how much Hensley had wanted to come back to it.
The constable hadn’t expected his life to end this way.
Hamish said, “You werena’ prepared, yoursel’...”
Grace Letteridge, struggling to keep her voice steady, was still speaking to him. He tried to listen. “I also asked the messenger to tell Inspector Cain about—about Mrs. Ellison as soon as possible. Was that proper? He should be here, very soon.”