Her gaze held him, her brown eyes searching his. “You loved Ana, even though she never quite loved you the same way in return. She was too caught up in what she saw as her own task in life,” Varina said quietly. She nodded. Her lips twitched once as if she wanted to smile, then fell back to a frown. “Well, I understand that, Karl. I understand that very well.”
“I don’t know what to say.”
She did smile then, the expression tinged with an underlying emotion Karl couldn’t decipher. “Then you shouldn’t say anything. I haven’t said anything that needs a reply-beyond telling you that I’m going back with you no matter what you say.”
She held his gaze, unblinking, until he nodded. “All right,” he said. She nodded but otherwise said nothing. The silence grew long and increasingly uncomfortable, both of them staring at the small fire in the hearth. The thoughts roiled in Karl’s head: all the times he and Varina had been together, the comments she’d made, the glances she’d given him, the occasional touches, the way she’d always deflected questions about any romantic interests she might have had, the way she’d flung herself into the work of the Numetodo.
He should have known. Should have realized. But the silence had already made the questions he should have asked more difficult. He cleared his throat. “If… If you’re going back to Nessantico with me, then perhaps you need to start showing me more of this Westlander way of magic.”
Retreating into work to avoid intimacy: that was what Ana had always done, after all.
Allesandra ca’Vorl
She found Sergei’s tale fascinating, though she knew the man well enough to know that there were details he was holding back. She wasn’t bothered by that; she would have done the same in his place. She had done the same, during the long years she had been held in Nessantico. She had liked Archigos Ana, who had treated her fairly and respectfully, and she had been fascinated by Sergei, first by his reputation and his silver nose, then-as she’d come to know him-by his intelligence and his intriguing, dark personality.
“Ca’Rudka is an interesting and skilled man, and I would not be where I am now if it weren’t for him,” Archigos Ana had told her once, a few years into her exile, as Allesandra was blooming into a young woman. “But you can’t entirely trust him. Oh, he’s true to his word, but he gives that word carefully and grudgingly, and will keep to the letter of it and perhaps not the spirit. His true allegiance is to Nessantico, not to any person within it. I don’t think he loves any person, don’t think he ever has. His true love is the city and the Holdings itself. And some of his tastes, what he enjoys doing…” Ana had grimaced at that. “I hope those are only vile tales, and not true.”
She remembered that conversation as she regarded Sergei, now dressed in current Firenzcian fashion and colors. He had come at her invitation to eat lunch in her rooms in Brezno Palais, and if he had been offended by the careful search of his body before he’d been allowed entry, or if he noticed the two armed gardai who watched him closely from their stations in the room, he said nothing. He smiled at her as he might have at any ca’ in Nessantico, and he uttered pleasantries about the presentation and taste of the meal as the servants passed in and out, and he leaned back in his chair with a cup of tea as if he were relaxed and at ease. He related how he’d been imprisoned in the Bastida, and how he’d escaped. She watched his face, watched his hands-none of them revealed any emotion at all; he might have been telling a tale that had happened to some distant relative once upon a time.
“So the Numetodo Ambassador helped you?” Allesandra also remembered Karl ca’Vliomani, who was so obviously smitten with Archigos Ana, although she seemed to treat him as no more than a good friend. Allesandra had not cared much for him, or for the Numetodo, who scorned and mocked her own strong beliefs, who believed in no gods at all. They believed that the world had always existed, that it was impossibly old and that natural processes could explain everything within it-the sheer illogic and arrogance of their philosophy annoyed Allesandra. “That won’t please Archigos Semini… or Archigos Kenne either, I would guess.”
“It was an act of friendship and nothing else.”
“Archigos Ana once told me that every act reflects on the faith of the person who commits it,” Allesandra told him. “Are you a Numetodo now, Sergei?”
He shook his head. “No. I believe in Cenzi as strongly as I ever did.”
She wondered if that statement was simply an artful deflection, but let it go. “Can Kraljiki Audric truly rule the Holdings? Can Archigos Kenne hold the a’teni together as Ana did?”
“Time alone will give you that answer, A’Hirzg,” he responded.
“Then indulge me with speculation.”
Sergei lifted a shoulder. “Archigos Kenne is… weak. Not just physically, but also when it comes to confrontation. He is a good, moral, and faithful man, but he’s a follower and not a leader. To his credit, that defect is one that he knows and acknowledges. The Concordance of A’Teni elected him Archigos because of it; they didn’t want another strong leader like Ana. As for Kraljiki Audric… well, he’s but a boy, and in ill health. I’m sure you have your own people giving you reports, but I suspect they haven’t told you the full story.”
He leaned forward, setting down the teacup and plate silently on the table. She could see her distorted reflection in his nose. “Audric has gone mad,” he said softly. He tapped an index finger to his forehead. “How fully, I don’t know. I saw it myself before he sent me to the Bastida, and afterward my friends in court and with the Faith sent me word. He holds conversations with the painting of his great-matarh Marguerite; he puts the painting at his right hand in court as if she were his councillor.”
“Truly?” Allesandra gestured, and one of the servants hurried forward to refill the teacups. She watched the golden liquid steam in her cup. “And no one says anything?”
“Kralji have sometimes acted strangely, and sometimes punished those who point out their strangeness. That’s happened often enough in Nessantico’s long history; we could both recite the names, I’m sure. And if it doesn’t seem to directly affect the Holdings-” he lifted a shoulder, “-then it’s best to keep such observations to yourself… and to be careful. I’m sure that’s what Sigourney ca’Ludovici is doing: she wants the throne, and she watches for the opportunity to seize it. Most of the Council of Ca’ would back her; the Sun Throne is hers if Audric dies or must be… removed. Either one of those is a very likely scenario in the next few months, I suspect.”
Allesandra nodded. She lifted the teacup and blew over the fragrant surface, sipping carefully. Neither of them said anything for several breaths. “Why did you come here, Regent?” she asked finally. “I know what you told my son and the Archigos. But I think there’s more.”
He glanced over his shoulder at the gardai and said nothing. “They’re my people,” she told him. “My own handpicked gardai who have been with me since I returned to Firenzcia. I trust them implicitly. I’m sure you had men under your command whose integrity you trusted in such a manner.”
“It’s been my experience that nearly everyone has a flaw that can be exploited. I’ve learned that the fewer ears hear something, the more chances there are that statements won’t be repeated.”
She waited, sipping her tea; he rubbed at his nose, smearing her reflection.
“As you wish,” he said at last. “Nessantico and the Holdings have been my life, A’Hirzg. That’s not a loyalty I can or will give up. My sincerest wish is to see the Holdings restored to what it was when Kraljica Marguerite was on the throne. I would like to see you in Nessantico, as Kraljica Allesandra. You could be the Kraljica that Nessantico requires now.”
Even though she’d been expecting the words, she still found herself drawing a quick inward breath. You see, Vatarh? You see? This is the legacy you wanted, and this is the promise you gave up when you abandoned me for Fynn. The emotional depth of the internal response surprised her; she could feel the warmth of it spreading upward from her chest to her face. She struggled not to show any of it to ca’Rudka. “Wishes are cheap,” she told him. “We can wish for all we want. What we can accomplish is quite another thing.”