She thought suddenly: And what about that man outside? The policeman?
There had been something so reassuring in the way he'd stood up there on the hill after Brutus had fired his gun out the window and Bear was running around, his fat belly jiggling, ripping open boxes of bullets in a panic. The man stood on the hilltop waving his arms, trying to calm things down, stop the shooting. He was looking directly at her.
What would she call him? No animals came to mind. Nothing sleek and heroic anyway. He was old – twice her age probably. And he dressed frumpy. His glasses seemed thick and he was a few pounds heavy. Then it occurred to her. De l'Epée.
That's what she'd call him. After Charles Michel de l'Epée, the eighteenth-century abbé who was one of the first people in the world to really care about the Deaf, to treat them as intelligent human beings. The man who created French Sign Language, the predecessor of ASL.
It was a perfect name for the man in the field, thought Melanie, who could read French and knew that the name itself meant a kind of sword. Her de l'Epée was brave. Just the way his namesake had stood up to the Church and the popular sentiment that the Deaf were retarded and freaks, he was standing up to Stoat and Brutus, up there on the hill, bullets flying around him.
Well, she had sent him a message – a prayer, in a way. A prayer and a warning. Had he seen her? Could he understand what she'd said even if he had? She closed her eyes for a brief moment, concentrating all her thoughts on de l'Epée. But all she sensed was the temperature, which had grown cooler, her fear, and – to her dismay – the vibration of footsteps as a man, no, two men, approached slowly over the resonant oak floor.
As Brutus and Stoat appeared in the doorway Melanie glanced at Susan, whose face hardened once again, looking up at their captors.
I'll make my face hard too.
She tried but it trembled and soon she was crying again.
Susan! Why can't I be like you?
Bear walked up to the other men. He was gesturing to the main room. The light was dim and the phony science of lipreading gave her a distorted message. She believed he said something about the phone.
Brutus responded, "So let the fucker ring."
This was very strange, Melanie reflected, as the urge to cry diminished. Why, she thought again, can I understand him so well? Why him and not the others?
"We're going to send one back."
Bear asked a question.
Brutus answered, "Miss Deaf Teen." He nodded at Susan. Mrs. Harstrawn's face blossomed with relief.
My God, thought Melanie in despair, they're going to let her go! We'll be here all alone without her. Without Susan. No! She choked a sob.
"Stand up, honey," Brutus said. "Your… day. You're going home."
Susan was shaking her head. She turned to Mrs. Harstrawn and signed a defiant message, with her fast, crisp signing. "She says she isn't going. She wants you to release the twins."
Brutus laughed. "She wants me…"
Stoat said, "Get… up." He pulled Susan to her feet.
And then Melanie's heart was pounding, her face burned red, for, to her horror, she realized that the first thought in her mind was: Why couldn't it have been me?
Forgive me, God. De l'Epée, please forgive me! But then she made her shameful wish once again. And again still. It looped through her mind endlessly. I want to go home. I want to sit down by myself with a big bowl of popcorn, I want to watch closed-captioned TV, I want to clap the Koss headsets around my ears and feel the vibrations of Beethoven and Smetana and Gordon Bok…
Susan struggled away from Stoat's grip. She thrust the twins toward him. But he pushed the little girls aside and brutally tied Susan's hands behind her. Brutus stared out through the half-open window. "Hold up here," Brutus said, pushing Susan to the floor beside the door. He glanced back. "Sonny, go keep our lady friends company… that scatter-gun with you."
Susan looked back into the killing room.
In the girl's face Melanie saw the message: Don't worry. You'll be all right. I'll see to it.
Melanie held her gaze for only a moment then looked away, afraid that Susan would read her own thoughts and would see in them the shameful question: Why can't it be me, why can't it be me, why can't it be me?
1:01 P.M.
Arthur Potter gazed at the slaughterhouse and the fields surrounding it through the jaundice glass of the van's window. He was watching a trooper run the electrical line up to the front door. Five caged lights hung from the end of the cable. The officer backed away and Wilcox came out once more, pistol in hand, to retrieve the wire. He didn't, as Potter had hoped, run the line through the door, which would then have to remain open, but fed it through a window. He returned inside and the thick metal door swung tightly shut.
"Door is still secure," the negotiator said absently, and LeBow typed.
More faxes arrived. More background on Handy and on the hostages from the school the girls attended. LeBow greedily looked over the sheets and entered relevant data in the "Profiles" computer. The engineering and architect's diagrams had been transmitted. They were helpful only for the negatives they presented – how hard an assault would be. There were no tunnels leading into the slaughterhouse and if the P amp;Z variance documents from 1938 were accurate there had been significant construction on the roof of the building – with plans to create a fourth story – which would make a helicopter assault very difficult.
Tobe stiffened suddenly. "They've popped the cover on the phone." His eyes stared intently at a row of dials.
"Is it still working?"
"So far." Looking for bugs.
The young agent relaxed. "It's back together again. Whoever did it knows his equipment."
"Henry, who?"
"No way of knowing yet. I'd have to guess Handy. The military training, you know."
"Downlink," Tobe called.
Potter lifted a curious eyebrow at LeBow and picked up the phone as it rang.
"Hello. That you, Lou?"
"Thanks for the lights. We checked 'em for microphones… the phone too. Didn't find a fucking thing. A man of your word."
Honor. It means something to him, Potter noted, trying once again to comprehend the unfathomable.
"Say, what are you, Art, a senior agent? Agent in Charge? That's what they call 'em, right?"
Never let the HT think you're in a position to make important decisions by yourself. You want the option to stall while you pretend to talk to your superiors.
"Nope. Just a run-of-the-mill special agent who happens to like talking."
"So you say."
"I'm a man of my word, remember?" Potter said, glancing at the "Deceptions" board.
Time to defuse things, build up some rapport. "So what about some food, Lou? We could start grilling up some burgers. How do you like 'em?
Blood red, Potter speculated.
But he was wrong.
"Listen up, Art. I just want you to know what kind of nice fellow I am. I'm letting one of 'em go."
This news depressed Potter immeasurably. Curiously, with this act of spontaneous generosity, Handy had put them on the defensive. It was tactically brilliant. Potter was now indebted to him and he felt again a shift in the balance of power between predator and prey.
"I want you to understand that I ain't all bad."
"Well, Lou, I appreciate that. Is it Beverly? The sick girl?"
"Uh-uh."