“Something wrong with you?”
“I’m ship-shape,” Cecelia said.
Her mother made an indignant noise.
“Actually, I’ve got to go.”
“Where to?”
“I need to be somewhere. Else.”
Cecelia’s mother looked at the clock, her eyebrows raised, then resignedly rested her gaze on the TV screen. She wanted to protest, to say Cecelia shouldn’t be running off on Christmas Eve, but because she hadn’t put up one stocking, didn’t receive a channel airing a Christmas special, hadn’t had the stove on all day, she didn’t have ground to stand on.
“Well,” she said. “Get my yearbook.”
Cecelia barreled up Route 14, not sure where she was going. She knew that whatever happened during the night, she’d wind up back at that house by morning, dragging her mother out of bed. She felt taken advantage of most every day. The afternoon that Nate had called and harassed her in the A/V booth she’d vowed to go on the offensive, but she hadn’t. She hadn’t confronted Nate. She hadn’t openly confronted her mother. She had her car to escape to, her bedroom, the vigils. She didn’t attack. She evaded.
Cecelia pushed the gas pedal down farther. The evening sky was brackish with light. She slowed for some roadkill, then went even faster, as fast as her falling-apart car would go. The more wind she could get whipping in the windows, the less she could hear the cranky noises her engine made, the latest of which sounded like a Styrofoam cup being crumpled. Pebbles were pinging hard against the oil pan. With the speedometer at ninety and the car not willing to push it any higher, Cecelia let off the gas. She slowed rapidly. The noise of the wind evaporated. Soon everything looked familiar again. She saw a stately adobe mailbox in her headlights and pressed the brake and swung onto a driveway. It was one of the unused mansions, low but sprawling, a lot of logs incorporated into the structure. Cecelia kept her lights on. She didn’t hit the gas or the brake. She rolled around the back of the house, feeling powerless against the momentum of her car, expecting motion lights or dogs or something. When she shut down the engine, she felt off the grid, away from herself even. She wasn’t a normal college girl who got to live on campus and worry about diets and dating. She wasn’t a member of a band. She wasn’t a daughter in good standing.
She got out of her car and walked up to a huge screened porch and tried the door. It seemed locked at first, but Cecelia kept jiggling the handle and it popped open. She felt like a criminal, an element of the night. Everyone else in the world was ensconced in holiday warmth. The air inside the screened porch was different. Chlorine. Cecelia strolled around the pool and then sat at a dinette set. These people kept a stark pool area. There was a cactus-shaped thermometer hanging up, and a humorous placard about peeing in the pool. The owners had probably never been here. These were the decorations that came with the house, to get you started. Cecelia put her feet up, then set them back down.
She sensed movement. She turned her head and saw a guy descending a flight of shallow steps, and there was nothing to do but stay still and seated and try not to turn red. The guy saw her and made a noise. He was holding something, a lit joint. He looked down on Cecelia with an open expression, like the world was full of reasonable explanations. He was acting cool or he was cool. He glanced at the joint in his hand, peered out toward Cecelia’s car. It was hard to say who’d been caught in something.
“Evening,” Cecelia said. She was still in the chair. “No harm meant. Just having a sit-down.”
The guy wasn’t much older than Cecelia. He was a little nervous, but mostly he seemed ready to be amused.
“I assume I don’t know you,” he said. “I don’t really know anyone around here. Are you a vandal?”
“Not as of yet.”
“Is anyone with you?”
“No, that’s the whole point,” Cecelia told him. “I was looking for a place to be alone.”
He drew on his joint, then settled stiffly into a chair, still peering out through the screen. “I guess I ruined that for you. I guess you’re not alone now.”
“Where’s your car?” Cecelia asked.
“Garage. That’s where I left it, anyways.”
“I’m not here to steal anything. I was just, you know…”
The guy shrugged. He held out the joint and Cecelia declined.
“Our garage is full of my mom’s crap,” she said. “I forgot cars could go in garages.”
“Fortunately, no moms live at this house.”
“I thought these places were all empty.”
The guy squinted, holding in smoke. “Usually is, but I have an internship.”
“I better get one of those,” Cecelia said. “Seems like what everybody’s doing.”
The guy let the smoke leak from the corner of his mouth until there wasn’t any more. “I believe you. You’re harmless. You were looking for a place to chill out. You’re not dangerous, I can tell. Either that or, you know, I’m wrong.”
The tension was already drained out of the situation. This guy didn’t really know how to be tense. He came from rich, healthy, relaxed stock. Cecelia told the guy her name. She watched him pull a baggy of trail mix from his pocket and drop it on the table. She’d thought it was going to be more pot but it was trail mix.
“I started walking out that way today,” he said, pointing by raising his elbow. He extinguished the joint, then tucked what was left of it behind his ear. “I guess you’d say I was hiking. The problem with the desert is there’s not really a trail and you don’t know when to stop. You don’t know when it’s okay to turn back.”
“You could go until you almost couldn’t see your house anymore. That’d be pretty far.”
The guy took a good look at Cecelia, like it was his right. He slouched to the side in his chair in order to see her bottom half. “I started hearing coyotes,” he said. “That was the end of the hike.”
Cecelia took a big whiff of the chlorine air. A wind swept through the screen and Cecelia made sure not to show she was cold. She didn’t want the guy to get her a blanket or a coat.
“Where’s your internship?” she asked.
“This place that puts out a catalog of catalogs.”
“What do you do there?”
“Actually, I don’t want to talk about work when I’m high.”
“I bet you don’t do much of anything.”
The guy nodded, like he was too adult to take Cecelia’s bait. “You ever see anyone make a citizen’s arrest? In real life, I mean. Could I citizen’s arrest you for trespassing right now or would I be the one doing something wrong by detaining you?”
“No one’s arresting anyone.”
“Is it even a real thing, though? A citizen’s arrest.”
“Give me some cash,” Cecelia said.
The guy squinted again, like when he’d been holding in the smoke.
“How much you got in your wallet?”
“A hold-up,” the guy said, coming around to the idea, failing to stifle a grin. “Like the Old West.”
“They have hold-ups everywhere.” Cecelia stood and put her hand out.
“You’re supposed to have a weapon.”
“I don’t need one. You’re going to give me some money. It doesn’t have to be much.”
“I think I got twenty-seven bucks.”
“Hand it over.”
The guy laughed to himself. “You should be careful. Not everybody thinks it’s cute to get mugged on Christmas Eve on their patio.” He went ahead and dug out his wallet. “I’ll give you twenty-five. The place I get coffee in the morning only takes cash.”