“You observed me?”
“That’s how these things are done. I wasn’t observing you in particular.”
Mayor Cabrera tasted his drink. It didn’t taste bad, exactly.
“That’s a sazerac,” Ran said. “They grow on you.” Ran’s hands looked even smaller and softer wrapped around his cocktail glass. “I got drunk on these the other night, with some guy from the History Channel.”
“I watch that,” Mayor Cabrera said. “We get it at the motel.”
“They’re doing a special on cults. We’re not a cult, but if you never do these little cable channels then you never do the networks.”
Ran was trying to impress Mayor Cabrera. It was working, a little.
“When will it be on?” Mayor Cabrera asked.
“They don’t know. I might not even be in it. They might cut me out.”
“What exactly qualifies a given group as a cult?”
Ran laughed archly. He didn’t attempt to answer the question. Mayor Cabrera took a closer look around the bar. There were photographs hanging everywhere of smiling miners. They had soot all over them, but their teeth were gleaming. There were some pictures of the womenfolk, as well. They weren’t as pleased.
“That town in Oklahoma is throwing itself at me,” Ran said. “And you’ve been doing the bare minimum. Like I said, I like your style.”
“The basin speaks for itself,” said Mayor Cabrera. He wasn’t sure what he meant.
The door swung open and a guy came in carrying a jug of mixed nuts. It was the bartender. Ran told him about the sazeracs and the bartender said they were on the house. He said it was against his principles to lock the door during business hours.
“And we’ll take another round,” Ran said. He was done with his drink.
“I don’t tend the kind of bar that doesn’t have nuts,” the bartender said. “I really hate it when people ask for nuts and I can’t give them any.”
The bartender got to work, clinking things together. Ran’s face changed, and then he leaned in.
“You see that car outside when you came in?”
Mayor Cabrera nodded.
“That’s a 1984 Saab hatchback, red. One hubcap mismatched. Big tear in the passenger seat upholstery.”
“Could use a wash too.”
“That car makes me happy,” said Ran.
Mayor Cabrera waited.
“That’s the exact kind of car I had when I was a senior in high school. I found it at a used car lot last month and bought it on the spot. I had to take it to the shop and have them unrestore it. It had been kept too well.”
The new drinks came, and Mayor Cabrera hurried and finished his first one.
“I’m not a sneaky person,” Ran said. “I’m precisely as corrupt as the world warrants. I wanted to meet face to face in order to invite you to bribe me.”
Mayor Cabrera didn’t want to bribe Ran. He didn’t think he had anything to bribe Ran with.
“It’s not my style,” Mayor Cabrera said. “That style you like so much, bribing people isn’t part of it.”
“How can you be so nonchalant?”
“Because this is my last act as mayor. Drinking these drinks.”
“I don’t ask twice,” Ran said.
“If you do, you’ll be asking someone else.”
“Not an ideal time for a leadership change. We’ll be deciding within a week.”
“There’s a big hurry all of a sudden?”
Ran grunted. He had an unguarded look on his face that wasn’t quite a smile. It said he’d been around the block and wasn’t going to get in a tizzy if a meeting didn’t go his way. It also expressed an even further deepening of his admiration for Mayor Cabrera’s way of handling things. Ran took a big pull on his drink. “I make these like crap,” he said. “It’s reassuring that there’s skill to it.”
“Is the town in Oklahoma going under too? Were you only considering desperate places?”
“That’s kind of the way it works,” Ran said.
There was a silence then, not unpleasant, in which it became apparent that Ran was going to be true to his word. He wasn’t going to ask again to be bribed. The bartender was wiping things down. The miners were beaming and their women were exhausted with their own thrifty ways.
“I was in love,” Ran said. He looked at his drink, down into the shrinking pool of it. “I used to drive her around in my beat-up Saab. They say teenagers don’t know what real love is, but it’s the opposite. Teenagers love harder because they’re unaffiliated.”
“I’m working on getting unaffiliated.”
“No hope for me,” said Ran. “I’m affiliated as hell.”
DANNIE
She had gone southwest the day before, and tonight she was heading southeast. She wouldn’t necessarily find Arn if she found the observatory, but she could find out for sure that he was gone. She could confirm that fact and try to move on with her life. The observatory was the only place she knew to look. It wasn’t in the phonebook, of course. It didn’t have a website. The owner liked to keep a low profile. Dannie pictured the owner with a neat goatee and pricey boots. He probably ate the exact same lunch every day of the year.
Dannie wasn’t sure she’d even know the observatory if she saw it. It wouldn’t have a sign. It would be way back off the road, might even be disguised. It might be made to look like some shop nobody would ever go in, a pocketwatch repair joint in the middle of nowhere, a trophy store, anything. The observatory would be the same color as everything else by now. You couldn’t fight it; out here everything ended up the same color. It could be underground, all but the big dish. That’s what Dannie could look for, the dish.
Dannie’s baby was the size of a raisin. The sunset was occurring without struggle on all sides of her. None of the birds were flying. All the birds were teetering along the roadside like pilgrims.
Dannie saw a statue of an Indian god, all its arms. The statue wasn’t blue. It was that same color. She saw an out-of-business tourist attraction with a sign that said FEEL THE VORTEX. The hills were in their own shadows. A hundred guys on motorcycles flowed past Dannie, going the same direction she was but much faster.
Dannie wanted to see a chain-link fence, a barrier of any kind. She wanted to see an effort to keep someone out of somewhere. She felt safe, but she did not feel lucky. Dannie had crispy bacon wrapped in paper towels in her glove box. She reached and extracted a strip and took a bite. She didn’t know whether to use her brain or her gut, whether to follow logic or her blood. She had thought about the fact that it was Wednesday three or four times over the course of the afternoon, that it was a vigil day, had understood in a cloudy way that at some point she would have to call the search off and find a road back toward Lofte and then back toward Albuquerque, that she would have to designate one of these lonesome stretches of road as the last one to be studied this evening, but she had not done this. The sky had turned red and then darker and darker and Dannie was heading farther away from the clinic. Her foot was lightly on the gas pedal, her eyes scanning in what light was left. There had been two signs and here came another one for a diner a couple miles ahead. Because there was nothing else, she had made this her destination. Someone might know something.
A mile from the diner, when she could see a lone light atop a steep roof, she brought the car to a stop at the roadside. She had always wondered how people felt when they quit the vigils. She got out of her car and walked for a minute into the desert. She couldn’t see her car but she could see the light on the diner. She had too much freedom. Inside her was something that would be a part of her forever, but outside there was nothing. She was giving up a devotion that was sure and stationary, a boy in a coma who would never know a thing about her, in favor of looking for a boy who knew things about her whether he wanted to or not, and who would’ve, in time, found out the rest, a boy who needed her and was probably fleeing faster than Dannie could chase.