Graham nodded his accord, stifling the naughty bubble of a giggle in his throat.
‘And in many cases the bereaved transfer the blame from themselves to someone else. As your mother-in-law has clearly done. She probably blames you first for taking her daughter away from her by marriage; and now her daughter has been taken away by death, she blames you for that too.’ He paused, at first satisfied with his conclusion. Then it seemed to embarrass him. ‘I’m sorry. Doing the amateur psychologist bit. Hazard of the job, I’m afraid. Anyway, you are certain you want no action?’
‘Certain. Can I get you another of those?’
Armed with his second large Scotch, Detective-Inspector Laker began, ‘It is terrible, the first bit. . that slow, slow realisation that she’s gone. I found at times I would forget it and then something would force me to remember again. And every time it hurts. Don’t you find that?’
Graham found the right agreements coming out. Laker stayed commiserating for another hour. Since Helen had died, he had found the evenings the worst. Evenings and weekends. He now put himself forward for duties at uncongenial times, duties he would formerly have tried to duck. Anything to fill the time.
After a while he felt he had to go. He shook his host’s hand on the doorstep, urging Graham to ‘give him a buzz when he was in need of moral support’. And, feeling slightly sheepish at having given away so much of himself, Detective-Inspector Laker went across to his Ford Escort.
Inside, Graham poured himself another huge Scotch.
He couldn’t believe it, the way everything turned to his advantage. He had feared that Laker had come as an avenging angel, and had found instead just an ally in the league of widowers.
Graham relaxed and let the laughter come. He lay on the sofa and laughed till he was weak.
He was in the kitchen experimenting with a box of Swan Vestas matches when he heard the front door opened with a key.
He walked into the hall and met Lilian.
‘I left some of my belongings,’ she said haughtily. ‘I’ve still got Merrily’s keys. I didn’t think you were in.’
This was patently untrue. If she had wanted to come when the house was empty, she had had ample opportunity during his working hours.
‘Where are the children, Graham?’
‘They’re staying with Charmian a couple more days.’
‘But what about school?’
‘I rang their teachers and said they needed a break after what had happened. The teachers agreed.’
‘They mustn’t miss too much school. It’s unsettling for them not knowing what’s going to happen.’
‘Everything will be sorted out.’ He didn’t tell her that Charmian had that day been to see the headmaster of the local comprehensive in Islington to arrange Henry and Emma’s immediate enrolment.
‘Yes. Soon, I hope. The sooner they’re away from you the happier I’ll be, Graham.’ She added the last sentence with sudden viciousness.
Almost exactly what Charmian had said. What did they think he was — some kind of monster? He contemplated a riposte about the anonymous letter, but refrained. He’d store that, just as he’d stored the line about William Essex’s sexual proclivities. Always a good idea to have a weapon in reserve when dealing with Lilian.
Though in fact he wouldn’t be dealing with her for much longer. After she walked out of the house that evening, there was no reason why they should ever meet again. With that knowledge, she became for him just a minor irritant, not even worth baiting. (Must remember to get Merrily’s keys from her before she goes, he thought.)
He drew aside. ‘You came to collect some things.’
She made a great noise gathering her possessions together, but Graham paid no attention. She was an irrelevance; she could not touch him. He lounged in the sitting-room with yet another Scotch, and switched on the television.
It was not Lilian’s style to leave without a parting shot. She stood in the doorway, clutching an old suitcase, and mouthed something inaudible.
‘Sorry, can’t hear you with the television,’ he announced.
She walked into the room and switched it off.
‘I said you won’t get away with it, Graham.’
‘With what?’
‘With just shedding all your responsibilities like this. It’s not as easy as that.’
‘It seems to be,’ he replied coolly.
‘No. You frighten me, the way you’ve behaved over Merrily’s death.’
He shrugged.
‘And the way you’ve treated me, Graham.’
He looked at his watch.
‘But don’t you worry, you’ll have your comeuppance. I’ll get my revenge. One way or another, I’ll destroy you.’
Deciding that she wasn’t going to improve on this as an exit line, Lilian Hinchcliffe stormed out of the house.
Oh damn, she had still got the keys. Never mind, he could write to her and ask for them.
Graham switched the television back on.
He was undisturbed by Lilian’s threat.
But then he thought she was referring to the anonymous letter.
CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
There was a gratifying call at the office the next morning from the estate agent. Two of the couples who had seen the house had made definite offers. Both had offered under the asking price because — and the young man had to overcome considerable embarrassment to get the reason out — there was obviously work needed on the electrical wiring. One of the offers was a thousand pounds short, the other five hundred. Graham instructed the agent to accept the higher offer. The couple, it seemed, were currently living in rented accommodation and, since they had nowhere to sell, the young man looked forward to a speedy exchange of contracts.
Graham then consulted the Yellow Pages and rang round half a dozen Central London estate agents, asking them to send him details of two-bedroom service flats in their areas. He named as his maximum price the amount he had just accepted on the Boileau Avenue house. Without a mortgage to worry about, there was no need for him to try and save money.
Terry Sworder was out of the office communicating with one of his computers while this telephoning went on, and Graham took advantage of the young man’s absence (though why he should care what Terry Sworder thought, he didn’t quite know) to go out shopping.
Some of his purchases were self-indulgent, and others professional. (He found increasingly that plans for the murder were taking over the compartment of his mind which he had previously reserved for thoughts of work.)
He bought some sheets of sandpaper of different grades, a pair of rubber gloves and a Portsmouth Tide Table.
Then he went to Tottenham Court Road and bought a telephone answering machine. From there he got a Tube to Green Park, walked to Farlow’s in Pall Mall and had himself fitted with a pair of fishing waders.
He stopped at a travel agent and picked up some brochures for holidays on the Greek Islands and in the West Indies. At an off-licence he bought a bottle of Pernod, a bottle of Bailey’s Irish Cream and a bottle of Advocaat. In all these transactions he paid cash.
Finally, he caught the Tube to Victoria and deposited all his purchases in a left-luggage locker.
By then it was after twelve, so he got a cab back to the office. Robert Benham’s regular Tuesday squash court was always booked for twelve-thirty.
There were two glass-backed courts in the basement of the Crasoco tower. Graham walked casually past to check that Benham was playing. Yes, there he was, crouched and absorbed, his legs and arms surprisingly hairy. He played squash as he did everything else, with efficiency, aggression and total concentration.
Graham sauntered along to the changing-room. Play had just started on both courts, so there was no one there. Four sets of clothes hung from pegs.