Kendrick would not be expecting her; she had intended to stay away three days. She left the taxi at the gates and walked to the house on foot; the night air might undo some of the ravages of her tears. For a moment she halted, tipping her head back at the moon just freeing itself from the scudding clouds.
“I’m trying to do what’s right, Henny,” she said. “I’m trying to be good. You said that mattered, so help me, please!”
But Henny had never been a nocturnal person; she flourished in sunlight among pats of yellow butter and golden buttercups, and there was no rift in the wild and stormy sky.
By the back door she put down her case and let herself in silently. Everything was dark; Kendrick would be in bed on the top floor.
She crept upstairs, careful not to wake the other occupants of the house. On the second-floor landing she paused. Surely that was music coming from the master bedroom which she and Kendrick had vacated-music both so unexpected and yet so familiar that she could not at first think what it was.
Puzzled, she made her way along the corridor; and silently she opened the door…
Marek’s orders to report for embarkation at Liverpool came a day later. He spent his last afternoon in London alone in his room in the Czech Club, trying to overcome his wretchedness sufficiently to join his friends drinking down below-and watching through the window the procession of girls who were not Ellen which had haunted him since he left her. Girls with her way of walking, except that no one walked with her lightness and grace; girls whose burnished heads turned as they passed to show him a completely different face.
There was one crossing the garden square now, a girl with raindrops in her hair, carrying a suitcase…
Only she did not go past as the others had done; she did not show him a completely different face as she came closer. She made her way up the steps and when she saw him at the window she collapsed, helpless, against the rails.
“What is it, my darling?”’ he said, running down and gathering her in his arms. “For God’s sake, Ellen, what’s happened?”’
She turned her face to his; and he saw her tears.
“The Polovtsian Dances is what’s happened! Oh Marek, you won’t believe it,” she gasped, and he saw that she was helpless with laughter. “The Polovtsian Dances and the Bessarabian Body Oil and the undulating- all of it. Only I can’t tell you here, it’s too indelicate.”
But even when they retreated to the privacy of his room, she was too convulsed to speak.
“I promised I wouldn’t leave him alone — but he wasn’t alone! You see, he couldn’t… with me… because I was a goddess to him… But Tamara is not a goddess; she is an elemental, she is a dark Life Force…” Laughter overcame her once more. “They tried to explain it to me… Oh, if you could have seen her growling at him and calling him galubchick — and then she pulled him on to the bed and the osprey fell on top of them!”
But later, when Marek had finished kissing her and showering her with instructions about what she had to do-go to Canada House, get permits, set the annulment in train-she grew suddenly silent and pensive and for a moment his heart contracted.
“What are you thinking, Ellen? Tell me, for God’s sake.”
She turned to him and because she knew that what she was about to say might hurt him, she laid her hands in a gesture of reassurance against his chest.
“I was thinking,” she said very seriously, “that I was really going to miss the goats.”
Epilogue
“We’ll do it again, won’t we?”’ they’d promised each other after the pageant: Frau Becker and Jean-Pierre, the butcher and Freya and the old woman who said it would rain. “This won’t be the last time,” they’d said; Chomsky arm in arm with the greengrocer, the reporters photographing Lieselotte, and everywhere the happiness, the triumph.
And they did do it again, but many things had to happen first. The end of the war, defeat for Austria and years of occupation and hardship when the country was policed by the allied powers.
But in May 1955 the State Treaty was signed, giving Austria full independence once again, and soon afterwards the bombed opera house, sumptuously rebuilt, opened with a gala performance of Fidelio. For those who could not get tickets, the music was relayed by a public address system, and as they stood outside, many of them in tears, Brigitta Seefeld in the auditorium was obliging enough to cause the kind of scandal so necessary to this kind of occasion by flouncing out before curtain rise because she was expected to share a box with a rival she detested.
And in that year too the people of Hallendorf once more celebrated the name day of Aniella. Lieselotte, now a matron with children of her own, had coached her niece Steffi to play the saint but the greengrocer and the butcher still portrayed the wicked knights, though Chomsky, now a paterfamilias in Budapest and somewhat henpecked, was only allowed to be part of the audience.
There were heartbreaking absences: Bruno, who had been killed on the Russian front, and Jean-Pierre, betrayed and shot while working in the resistance. But Isaac was there with the young wife he had found when he came to give a concert in liberated Belsen-a cellist who had survived by playing in the camp orchestra and who even now could scarcely bear to let him out of her sight. Bennet and Margaret were there, their obvious contentment in each other’s company a joy to behold, and Sophie and Leon, returned from their kibbutz in Israel. Leon’s attack of Jewishness had not lasted long: it was Sophie who had enjoyed the companionship and friendliness of communal life. They were back in London now, and married, and planning to join Ursula in Wounded Knee to make a film about her Indians.
Even more people came than had come the first time, and when it was over-when Steffi had soared up to her apotheosis and Marek had once again made it clear to the agents and impresarios who had flocked to attend that his music was a gift to the people of Hallendorf, and would remain so-there was the kind of joy in the village that they had forgotten in those grim years of war.
“And it’s because of you,” they said, surrounding Marek and Ellen and their nine-year-old son, Lucas. “We know how busy and important you are,” they said to Marek, “but you came all the way from Canada to help us.”
It was not till the next morning that Ellen could slip away with Lieselotte and row across the lake. The castle had been a convalescent home during the war and now stood empty once again. As they tied the boat to the jetty and made their way up the steps, Ellen’s memories of her first day were as vivid as if it were yesterday. The scent of verbena and jasmine, the sight of the skimming swallows, all were as she had remembered them. Here was the patch of reeds from which the dripping Chomsky had risen, here was the door from which Sophie, the first of the “wild” children, had come running towards her-and here was the patch of grass which the sunbathing Tamara had flattened, ruining poor Langley’s frit fly experiment. But thoughts of the Little Cabbage, who had seen off Patricia Frobisher (the camel notwithstanding) within a month of her return from Kenya, now brought nothing but amusement.
“Here he is,” said Lieselotte, pointing to a wooden cross beneath the cypress tree. “He died in our house but the children thought he’d like to be buried in the castle.”
Ellen bent down to read the inscription, carefully painted in gothic script by Lieselotte’s eldest daughter.
HERE LIES ACHILLES
A TORTOISE WHO LIVED
LONG AND WELL
R.i.p.
Oh God, how right I was, she thought; how unbelievably and absolutely right. As soon as I saw what he did for the tortoise I knew that he would help me-and she felt such gratitude and joy that she leant for a moment against the sun-warmed balustrade and closed her eyes.