Clara stared at Myrna, searching for censure.
“What’s wrong with me?”
“There’s nothing wrong with you,” said Myrna, leaning toward her friend. “I’d feel the same way. Everyone would. We just may not admit it.” She smiled. “If it had been me lying back there—” But Myrna got no further. Clara burst in.
“Don’t even think such a thing.”
Clara actually looked frightened, as though saying a thing made it more likely to happen, as though whatever God she believed in worked like that. But Myrna knew neither Clara’s God nor hers was so chaotic and petty they needed or heeded such ridiculous suggestions.
“If it was me,” Myrna continued, “you’d care.”
“Oh, God, I’d never recover.”
“These papers wouldn’t matter,” said Myrna.
“Not at all. Never.”
“If it was Gabri or Peter or Ruth—”
Both women paused. It might have been a step too far.
“—anyway,” Myrna continued. “If it was even a complete stranger you’d have cared.”
Clara nodded.
“But Lillian wasn’t a stranger.”
“I wish she had been,” admitted Clara, quietly. “I wish I’d never met her.”
“What was she?” Myrna asked. She’d heard the broad strokes, but now she wanted to hear the details.
And Clara told her everything. About the young Lillian, about the teenage Lillian. About the woman in her twenties. As she got further into the story Clara’s voice dropped and dragged, lugging the words along.
And then she stopped, and Myrna was silent for a moment, staring at her friend.
“She sounds like an emotional vampire,” said Myrna, at last.
“A what?”
“I ran into quite a few in my practice. People who sucked others dry. We all know them. We’re in their company and come away drained, for no apparent reason.”
Clara nodded. She did know a few, though no one in Three Pines. Not even Ruth. She only drained their liquor cabinet. But Clara, oddly, always felt refreshed, invigorated after a visit with the demented old poet.
But there were others who just sucked the life right out of her.
Lillian was one.
“But it wasn’t always like that,” said Clara, trying to be fair. “She was a friend once.”
“That’s often the way too,” nodded Myrna. “The frog in the frying pan.”
Clara wasn’t at all sure how to respond to that. Were they still talking about Lillian, or had they somehow veered into some French cooking show?
“Do you mean the emotional vampire in the frying pan?” asked Clara, uttering a sentence she was pretty sure had never been said by another human. Or at least, she hoped not.
Myrna laughed and sitting back in her armchair she raised her legs onto the hassock.
“No, little one. Lillian’s the emotional vampire. You’re the frog.”
“Sounds like a rejected Grimm’s fairy tale. ‘The Frog and the Emotional Vampire.’”
Both women paused for a moment, imagining the illustrations.
Myrna came back to her senses first.
“The frog in the frying pan is a psychological term, a phenomenon,” she said. “If you stick a frog into a sizzling hot frying pan what’ll it do?”
“Jump out?” suggested Clara.
“Jump out. But if you put one into a pan at room temperature then slowly raise the heat, what happens?”
Clara thought about it. “It’ll jump out when it gets too hot?”
Myrna shook her head. “No.” She took her feet off the hassock and leaned forward again, her eyes intense. “The frog just sits there. It gets hotter and hotter but it never moves. It adjusts and adjusts. Never leaves.”
“Never?” asked Clara, quietly.
“Never. It stays there until it dies.”
Clara look a long, slow, deep breath, then exhaled.
“I saw it with my clients who’d been abused either physically or emotionally. The relationship never starts with a fist to the face, or an insult. If it did there’d be no second date. It always starts gently. Kindly. The other person draws you in. To trust them. To need them. And then they slowly turn. Little by little, increasing the heat. Until you’re trapped.”
“But Lillian wasn’t a lover, or a husband. She was just a friend.”
“Friends can be abusive. Friendships can turn, become foul,” said Myrna. “She fed on your gratitude. Fed on your insecurities, on your love for her. But you did something she never expected.”
Clara waited.
“You stood up for yourself. For your art. You left. And she hated you for it.”
“But then why’d she come here?” asked Clara. “I haven’t seen her in more than twenty years. Why’d she come back? What did she want?”
Myrna shook her head. Didn’t say what she suspected. That there was really only one reason for Lillian to return.
To ruin Clara’s big day.
And she had. Only not, almost certainly, in the way Lillian had planned.
Which, of course, begged the question: Who had planned this?
“Can I say something to you?” Myrna asked.
Clara made a face. “I hate it when people ask that. It means something awful’s coming. What is it?”
“Hope takes its place among the modern masters.”
“I was wrong,” said Clara, perplexed and relieved. “It’s just nonsense. Is this a new game? Can I play? Wallpaper chair is often cows. Or,” Clara looked at Myrna with suspicion, “have you been smoking your caftan again? I know they say hemp isn’t really dope, but I still wonder.”
“Clara Morrow’s art makes rejoicing cool again.”
“Ah, a conversation of non sequiturs,” said Clara. “It’s like talking to Ruth, only not as many fucking swear words.”
Myrna smiled. “Do you know what I was just quoting?”
“Those were quotes?” asked Clara.
Myrna nodded and looked over at the damp and smelly newspapers. Clara’s eyes followed her, then widened. Myrna rose and went upstairs, finding her own copies of the papers. Clean and dry. Clara reached out but her hands were trembling too hard and Myrna had to find the sections.
The portrait of Ruth, as the Virgin Mary, glared from the front page of the New York Times art section. Above it was a single word, “Arisen.” And below it the headline HOPE TAKES ITS PLACE AMONG THE MODERN MASTERS.
Clara dropped the section and grabbed for the London Times art review. On the front page was a photo of a Maoist accountant at Clara’s vernissage. And below it the quote, “Clara Morrow Makes Rejoicing Cool Again.”
“They’re raving, Clara,” said Myrna with a smile so wide it hurt.
The pages dropped from Clara’s hand and she looked at her friend. The one who’d whispered into the silence.
Clara got up. Arisen, she thought. Arisen.
And she hugged Myrna.
Peter Morrow sat in his studio. Hiding from the ringing phone.
Ring. Ring. Ring.
He’d gone back into their home after lunch, hoping for some peace and quiet. Clara had taken the papers and gone off, presumably to read them by herself. So he had no idea what the critics had said. But as soon as he’d walked in the door the phone had started to ring, and had barely stopped since. All wanting to congratulate Clara.
There were messages from the curators at the Musée, thrilled with the reviews and the subsequent ticket sales. There was a message from Vanessa Destin-Browne, of the Tate Modern in London, thanking them for the party and congratulating Clara. And wondering if they might get together to discuss a show.
For Clara.
He’d eventually just let the phone ring and had gone to stand at the open door to her studio. From there he could see a few puppets, from the time she thought she might do a series on them.