Thinking of him, she realized what she'd been drawing so obsessively in her workbook.
"It's the sea," she said quietly.
"It's what ?" said Miss Schwartz, her voice oozing contempt.
"It's the sea. I was drawing the sea."
"Were you indeed? Well, it may look like the sea to you , but it looks like two weeks in detention to me."
There was a little eruption of laughter from the back of the class. This time Miss Schwartz didn't hush it. She simply tossed the defaced workbook onto Candy's desk. It was a bad throw. Instead of landing neatly in front of the disgraced Candy, it skimmed across the desk, taking the paper about Henry Murkitt, along with several pens, pencils and a blue plastic ruler, off the other side and onto the floor.
The laughter halted. There was a hush while one of the pens rolled to a halt. Then Miss Schwartz said: "I want you to pick all that trash up."
Candy didn't reply, at least not at first. She remained in her seat, not moving a muscle.
"Did you hear me, Candy Quackenbush?"
The Hackbarth clique was in hog heaven. They watched with smirks on their faces as Candy sat in her seat, still refusing to move.
"Candy?" Miss Schwartz.
"I heard you, Miss Schwartz."
"Then pick them up."
"I didn't knock them off the desk, Miss Schwartz."
"Ibeg your pardon ?"
"I said: I didn't knock them off the desk. You did. So I think you should pick them up."
All the blood had drained from Miss Schwartz's face. The only color that remained was the purple of the shadows under her eyes.
"Get up," she said.
"Miss Schwartz?"
"You heard me. I said get up. I want you down at the principal's office right now ."
Candy's heart was beating furiously and her hands were clammy. But she wasn't going to let Miss Schwartz or any of her enemies in class see that she was nervous.
She was irritated with herself for letting Miss Schwartz escalate this stupid showdown. Maybe the principal would be more sympathetic to Candy's researches than Miss Schwartz, but Candy doubted that she'd even get to show him her paper. All Miss Schwartz would want to talk about was Candy's insolence.
Unfortunately it was a subject the principal took very seriously. Only a month ago he had talked to the whole school about that very subject. There would be a policy of zero tolerance, he told everyone, toward pupils who were disrespectful to teachers. Any student who crossed the line, he'd said, between civility and rudeness of any kind could expect serious consequences. He had meant what he said. Two weeks ago he had expelled two students for what he had called "extreme discourtesy" toward a teacher.
Candy half wondered if there was still time to apologize; but she knew it was a lost cause. Miss Schwartz wanted to see Candy squirming in front of the principal, and she wasn't going to let anything keep her from witnessing that.
"You're still sitting down, Quackenbush," the woman said. "What did I tell you? Well?"
"Go to the principal's office, Miss Schwartz."
"So move your lazy behind."
Candy bit her tongue and got up. Her chair made an ugly squeal as she pushed it back. There was more nervous laughter from one or two places around the class, but mostly there was silence, even from the loquacious Deborah Hackbarth. Nobody wanted to draw Miss Schwartz's venomous attention in their direction right now.
"And pick up your workbook, Quackenbush," Miss Schwartz said. "I want you to explain your defacing of school property to the principal."
Candy didn't argue. She dutifully went down on her haunches and gathered up all the things that Miss Schwartz had knocked off her desk: the pencils, the pens, the workbook and the paper on Henry Murkitt.
"Give that stupid paper and the workbook to me," Miss Schwartz said.
"I'm not going to destroy them," Candy protested.
"Just give them to me ," Miss Schwartz demanded, her voice almost cracking with rage.
Candy put the pens and pencils down on her desk and gave the book and paper to Miss Schwartz. Then—without looking around at the rest of the class—she made her way to the door.
Once she was outside the classroom in the eerie hush of the corridor, she felt a peculiar sense of relief . She knew she should be feeling full of regret and self-recrimination, but the truth was that a significant part of her was glad she'd said what she'd said. Miss Schwartz had picked on her one too many times.
She was a ridiculous woman anyway, with her endless snide remarks and her ludicrous obsession with chickens.
"Who cares about chickens ?" Candy said, her voice echoing down the empty passageway.
The door at the end of the corridor was open. Through it she could see the sunlit yard, and beyond the yard the school gate and the street. It would be so easy, she thought, just to walk out of here right now and never have to hear Miss Schwartz pontificate on the Glories of Chicken Farming ever again.
What was she thinking? She couldn't do that. She'd be expelled for certain.
So what ? said a voice at the back of her head. Just walk out. Go on. Walk out.
For some reason, the doodles that she had drawn in her workbook came back into her mind. Only this time, instead of being black lines on gray, recycled paper, they were bright in her mind; very bright. And all kinds of colors, the way the sun appeared in your mind if you looked at it for a moment and then closed your eyes. Dozens of little suns: green and red and gold; then colors, too, that you couldn't even name. That was the way the lines looked in Candy's mind's eye.
And they were moving . The wavy lines were rolling across the darkness inside her skull, rolling and breaking, the brilliant colors bursting into arabesques of white and silver.
Behind her she heard a familiar sound: the click, click, click of Miss Schwartz's heels.
"What are you still doing in the corridor, Candy Quackenbush?" she yelled down the corridor. "I told you to report to the principal's office."
Everyone in the classes along the passage had heard the woman, Candy knew. Tomorrow she'd be the butt of every idiotic joke. Candy glanced over her shoulder. Miss Schwartz was gaining on her, her arms crossed in front of her bosom. Held captive behind them was the evidence for the prosecution: Candy's workbook and the paper on Henry Murkitt. Poor Henry Murkitt, sitting in that cold little room in the hotel, waiting with his sextant for a ship to come and find him. Checking the stars, consulting his watch. Waiting and waiting until he could stand the wait no longer.
Candy looked away from Miss Schwartz, her gaze returning to the rectangle of brightness at the end of the corridor.
And still the lines rolled on in her mind's eye. Rolled and broke. Rolled and broke.
"Where do you think you're going?" Miss Schwartz demanded.
Candy's feet knew, even if her brain was a little slow at catching up with the idea. They were taking her out of here.
"You head right back to the principal's office!" Miss Schwartz called after her.
Candy didn't really hear the woman's words very clearly now. The lines in her head were making a sound , like the din of white noise on an untuned television. It washed away Miss Schwartz's demands.
"Candy Quackenbush! Come back here!"
Her shrill voice was being heard from one end of the school to the other, but the person to whom they were directed was deaf to them.
Out she went, with Miss Schwartz pursuing her, inventing new threats and demands to throw in Candy's direction. Candy took no notice of them.
She stepped over the threshold and out into the bright morning.
A little portion of her mind still said: Candy, turn around. What are you doing? They'll expel you for certain , but the voice was too small to convince her feet.
At the threshold, she broke into a run. It took her thirty seconds to reach the school gate and get out into the street.
A few students caught sight of her as she made her departure. Those who knew her said they'd never seen Candy Quackenbush looking happier.
4. "STREET ENDS"
The bright rolling doodle stayed in candy's mind's eye, even though her feet had obeyed its instruction and carried her out through the school gates and into the street. She briefly thought about going home, but the notion didn't stay in her head for long. She had no desire to be back in Followell Street. Though her mom would be at work, her father would be up and about by now, and he'd want to know why she had returned from school in the middle of the morning.
So she walked in the opposite direction: down Spalding Street to the intersection with Lennox; over Lennox and on toward the Comfort Tree Hotel on Stillman Street. She had half a thought to call in at the hotel and tell Norma Lipnik exactly what had happened when she'd tried to tell the sad story of Henry Murkitt. Perhaps she could even persuade Norma to lend her the passkey so that she could go back up to Room Nineteen and look at the sextant again. Hold it in her hands and examine it; see if she got a clearer picture of poor Henry's last hours when she did so.
But once she got to the hotel, she found the desire to see the sextant was not as important as another desire, one which she could not name or comprehend, but which kept her going, on past the hotel to the intersection of Stillman and Lincoln.
Here, for a moment, she stopped. The streets were busy in both directions, at least busy for Chickentown. There were four or five cars waiting at the lights every time they turned red. One of the drivers was Frank Wrightson, who had been a drinking buddy of her father's until six months before, when they'd had a big falling-out. It had ended in a shouting match outside the house and a few blows half-heartedly exchanged. The men had not spoken to each other since.