"I'm sorry, Mr. Fenney."
"No, I'm sorry, Mabel. I'm sorry I couldn't make life better for you and your kids. For all the kids down there."
"Down there," as if she lived in Mexico instead of just a mile south of where they now stood. She reached up and touched his cheek.
"You're still my hero, Mr. Fenney."
"I lost."
"You tried."
Mabel embraced him then walked out of the courtroom. Scott sat on the plaintiff's table and stared at his shoes. He no longer represented the trophy clients of Dallas, rich people who bestowed social status on their lawyers; the mere mention of his clients' identities at bar association meetings typically evoked perplexed head shaking or muffled laughter from other lawyers. He no longer worked the margins of ethics and the law, that gray area where a lawyer's money is made; nor did he make much money. He no longer practiced law like he had played football. For one thing, he no longer viewed the law as sport; for another, he lost. A. Scott Fenney was not a man accustomed to defeat, either on the football field or in a courtroom. Two years before, in this very courtroom, he had experienced his greatest victory as a lawyer when the jury had returned a "not guilty" verdict for Pajamae's mother. But the last two years had brought defeat into his life.
He had tried to make a difference. He had failed.
Another pair of shoes now entered his field of vision-brown wingtips-and Scott knew whose feet were in them before he heard the familiar voice.
"Hell of a closing argument, Scotty. Almost made me want to pay my hundred bucks. Almost."
He raised his eyes to Dan Ford standing there. Dan was sixty-two, bald, and the senior partner at Ford Stevens, the two-hundred-fifty-lawyer Dallas firm that had previously employed A. Scott Fenney. Dan Ford was the man who had taught Scott everything he knew about practicing law, the man who had been Scott's father-figure for eleven years, the man who had single-handedly destroyed Scott's perfect life. He had come for closing arguments. A ten-lawyer team from Ford Stevens had represented the city. They had won. They would make millions. Which explained why Dan was smiling when he stuck his hand out to Scott. They shook, and Dan's expression turned to one of profound empathy.
"Scotty… you're trying to make the world a better place when you should be making money. You're wasting your talents, son. Come back to the firm. You can have your old office back."
"I have an office."
"Yeah, but your old office comes with a Ferrari, a Highland Park mansion, a country club membership, and a million-dollar paycheck."
A million dollars. Funny, but Scott's first thought wasn't the Ferrari or the mansion and certainly not the country club where his wife had met the assistant golf pro. It was braces for Pajamae.
"Sid's driving my Ferrari and sitting in my office."
"He won't be if you come back. Scotty, watching you today, it was like watching Secretariat in his prime pulling a tourist buggy. Made me sad, thinking of all the money you could be making. The hooker's case made you famous, you could be working the biggest cases in Texas. Instead, you're working for the little people, doing good instead of doing well. You take this case on a contingency?"
Lawyers his age at big firms like Ford Stevens billed $750 an hour-$12.50 every minute, almost twice the U.S. minimum hourly wage-and they billed in minimum six-minute increments: thirty seconds reading a letter or a one-minute phone call would cost the client a minimum charge of $75. But not Scott's clients. He no longer billed by the hour. He now worked on a contingency fee: one-third of whatever he won, if he won. Big-firm lawyers billed by the hour and won even when their clients lost. Scott Fenney won or lost with his clients. Today, they had both lost.
"A third of nothing is nothing, Scotty. We're going home with millions, you're going home with a hug from your client. That make you happy?"
"Why do you want me back? I lost."
Dan dismissed that concern with a wave of his hand.
"Jesus Christ couldn't have won this case, not in Dallas. But you should've won. Come back to the firm and be a winner again."
"For corporations."
"Who pay."
"I'm doing okay."
"That's not what I hear. You're behind on your office rent, can't pay your staff… You deserve better than that."
He once had better than that. At Ford Stevens, Scott had made $750,000 a year, with benefits. Now he made $100,000-in a good year. And this was not such a year. He had gone through every penny in his savings. He was broke.
"Look, Scotty, you can't take on these lost causes the rest of your life. How are you gonna take care of your girls, pay for their college, weddings…?"
Braces.
"You got life insurance?"
No.
"What if you die? Who's gonna raise those girls?"
He had named Bobby Herrin and Karen Douglas, his married law partners, as the girls' guardians in his will.
"Will they be able to afford two more kids?"
Hardly. They were soon to have their first child.
"You gonna send those two smart girls to UT? Don't you want to give them a good education? Harvard, Yale, Wellesley-think how proud you'd be dropping your daughters off at Wellesley for college. With that kind of education, their futures would be unlimited. But that'll cost a hundred thousand a year by the time they're eighteen. Times two. That's a lot of money, Scotty-you gonna ask Rebecca to pay for their college?"
" Rebecca? "
"You see that son of a bitch won another tournament? Trey?"
Trey Rawlins had been the assistant pro at the club, the man Scott's wife had run off with. Dan was shaking his head.
"Two years ago, he's trying to cure my slice, now he's a star on tour and filthy rich. You could be too, Scotty-filthy rich. What'd you always tell our law student recruits? 'You want odds, go to Vegas. You want a chance to get filthy rich by the time you're forty, hire on with Ford Stevens.' You're only thirty-eight. There's still time to save your career. Except you won't be hiring on with Ford Stevens."
"What do you mean?"
Dan Ford paused and took a deep breath, as if he were about to make a big announcement.
"Ford Fenney."
"Ford Fenney?"
"Your name will be on the door, next to mine, where it belongs. Where it's always belonged. Scotty, you were always like a son to me."
"Until you fired me. What was that, tough love?"
Scott had said no to his father-figure only once-and had gotten fired for it.
"That was a mistake. I'm man enough to admit it, I hope you're man enough to forgive me." Dan shrugged. "Besides, Mack's dead now, so there's no conflict."
U.S. Senator Mack McCall had died a year before of prostate cancer. He had been a Ford Stevens client. The conflict of interest had arisen when Scott had been appointed by Judge Buford to represent Pajamae's mother-a black prostitute named Shawanda Jones-who had been charged with murdering Clark McCall, the senator's son, after he had picked her up one Saturday night. Dan Ford had told Scott to throw the case to preserve McCall's presidential bid; Scott had said no. So Dan had fired him. And A. Scott Fenney's ambitious years had come to an abrupt end.
"Scotty, the firm's business is booming-I've added fifty lawyers since you left. Come share in it."
"Booming? In this economy?"
"Bankruptcies. Business bankruptcies are at an all-time high, and lawyers get paid first, before the creditors." Dan chuckled. "You can't get rich without a lawyer and you can't go broke without a lawyer. Is this a great country or what?"
Dan's smile faded, and he put a father's hand on his son's shoulder.
"Come back to the firm. Do well for yourself… and your girls."
"Dan-"
"Just think about it, Scotty, okay? Think about what's best for your girls."
"Always."
They shook hands again, and Dan walked off, his brown wingtips clacking on the wood floor down the center aisle and out the double doors until the sound faded away. Scott sat alone in the vast courtroom, alone in his defeat. Alone with his thoughts.
One million dollars. A year. Every year. College. Weddings. Mortgage. Vacations. Cable TV. iPhones. Braces. Everything the girls needed or wanted. Except a mother. All he had to do was go back over to the dark side. Work for corporations who could pay $750 an hour to lawyers who sold their talents to the highest bidder.
And why shouldn't he?
If he had played pro football, he wouldn't have played for a poor, losing team just to make the games fair. He would have sold his talents to the highest bidder. No one faulted A-Rod for making $25 million a year playing baseball for the Yankees, the richest winning team in baseball. Why should A. Scott play for poor, losing teams? Why shouldn't he reap the rewards of his talents? Why shouldn't he provide for the girls? Why shouldn't he take them to the south of France for summer vacation-or at least to the north of America? Why shouldn't they go to Wellesley with the best girls in America? Why shouldn't Pajamae have teeth that look like pearls?
Why shouldn't he be filthy rich like the man his wife had run off with?