When they were recovered fifty years later, the bark had rotted and the juice stains were invisible. Yel‚n and her autons had studied the fragile remains. Microanalysis showed where the berry stains had been; the first chapters were not lost. Apparently Marta had recognized the danger: the "paper" in the later cairns was made from reed strips. The dark green ink was scarcely faded.
The first entries were mainly narrative. At the other end of the diary, after she had been decades alone, the pages were filled with drawings, essays, and poems. Forty years is a long time if you have to live it alone, second by second. Not counting recopied material, Marta wrote more than two million words before she died. (Yel‚n had supplied him with a commercial database, GreenInc. Wil looked at some of the items in it; the diary was as long as twenty noninteractive novels.) Her medium was far bulkier than old-time paper, and she traveled thousands of kilometers in her time. Whenever she moved, she built a new cairn for her writing. The first few pages in each repeated especially important things-directions to the previous cairns, for instance. Later, Yel‚n found every one. Nothing had been lost, though one cairn had been flooded. Even there, the reconstructions were nearly complete.
Wil spent an afternoon going through Yel‚n's synopsis and Della's corresponding analysis. There were no surprises.
Afterwards, Wil couldn't resist looking for references to himself. There were four clusters, the most recent listed first. Wil punched it up:
Year 38.137 Cairn #4
Lat 14.36N Long 1.01E [K-meridian]
-ask for heuristic cross-reference-- was the header Yel‚n's overdoc printed across the top of the display. Below it was cursive green lettering. A blinking red :arrow marked the reference:
... and if I don't make it, dearest Lelya, please don't spend your time trying to solve this mystery. Live for both of gas: live for the project. If you insist do anything with it, delegate the responsibility. There was that policeman. A low-tech. 9 can't remember his name. (Oh, the millionth time I pray for in interface band, or even a data set!) Give him the job, and hen concentrate on what is important.... ¯
Wil sat back and wished the context searcher weren't so damned smart. She didn't even remember his name! He tried o tell himself that she had lived almost forty years beyond their acquaintance when she wrote these words. Would he remember her name forty years from now? (Yes!) To think of all his soul-searching, to think how close they seemed that last night, and how noble he had been to back off-when all the time he vas just another low-tech to her.
With a quick sweep of his hand, Wil cleared the other references from the display. Let it lie, Wil. Let it lie. He stood I p, walked to the window of his study. He had important work '.o do. There was the interview with Monica Raines, and then with Juan Chanson. He should be researching for those.
So after a moment he returned to his desk... and jumped he display to the first entry in Marta's diary:
The Journal of Marta Qih-hui Qen Korolev
! Dearest Lelya, ¯ it began. Every entry was addressed to Lelya."
"GreenInc. Question," said Wil. "What is `Lelya'?" He pointed to the word in the diary. A side display filled with the three most likely possibilities. The first was: "Diminutive of the name Yelena." Wil nodded to himself; that had been his guess. He continued reading from the central display.
Dearest Lelya,
It's now 181 days since everyone left-and that's the only thing I'm sure of.
Starting this journal is something of an admission of defeat. Till now, I had kept careful track of time, and that seemed all that was necessary; you remember we had planned a flicker cycle of ninety days. Yesterday the second flicker should have happened-yet I saw nothing.
So I guess I have to take the longer view. (What a mild way to say it. Yesterday, all I could do was cry.) I've got to have someone to "talk" to.
And I've got a lot to say, Lelya. You know how I like to talk. The hardest thing is the act of writing. I don't know how civilization got started, if literacy involved the effort I've had to make. This bark is easy to find, but I'm afraid it won't age well. Have to think about that. The "ink" is easy, too. But the reed pen I've made leaks and blobs. And if I say something wrong, I can only paint out the errors. (I understand why calligraphy was such a high art.) It takes a long time to write even the simplest things. But I have an advantage now: I have lots and lots of time. All the time in the world. ¯
The reconstruction of the original showed awkward block letters and numerous scratch-outs. Wil wondered how many years it had been before she developed the cursive style he'd seen at the end of her diary.
By the time you read this, you'll probably have all the explanations (hopefully from me direct!), but I want to tell you what I remember.
There was the party at the Robinsons. I left early, so mad at Don that I could spit. They've really done us dirt, you know that? Anyway, it was past the Witching Hour and I was walking the forest path to the house. Fred was about five meters up, in front of me; I remember the moonlight glinting off his hull. ¯
Fred? The diary's overdoc said that was the auton with Marta that night. Wil hadn't realized they were personalized. You never heard them addressed by name. Come to think of it, that wasn't surprising; the high-techs generally talked to their mechanicals via headband.
From Fred I had a good view over three octaves. There was no one close by. There were no autons shadowing me. It's about an hour's walk up to the house. I had taken longer. I wanted to be cool when I talked to you about Don's little game. I was almost to the great steps when it happened. Fred had no hint. There was a cinnamon burst of static and then he crashed to the ground. It's the most startled I've ever been, Lelya. Our whole lives we've had autons giving us extra eyes. This is the first time I can remember not having any earning of a problem.
Ahead of me, the great steps were gone. There was my reflection staring back. Fred was lying at the edge of the bobble. He'd been cut in half by the stasis field.
We've had some rough times, Lelya, like when we fought the graverobbers. They were so strong, I thought the battle might carry us past fifty megayears and ruin everything.
You remember how I was after that. Well, this was worse. I think I went a little crazy. I kept telling myself it was all a dream. (Even now, six months later, that sometimes seems the best explanation.) I ran along the bobble's edge. Things were as peaceful and silent as before, but now the ground was treacherous beneath my feet and branches clawed at me. I didn't have Fred to be my high eyes. The bobble was hundreds of meters across. It met the ground just beyond the great steps It didn't cut through any large trees. It was obviously the bobblement we'd planned for the property.
Well, if you're reading this, you already know the rest.
The Robinsons' place was bobbled. Genet's was bobbled. It took me three days to hike across all of Korolev Town: everything was bobbled. It looked exactly like the jump we'd programmed except for two things: (1) (obviously) poor little
Marta had been left outside, and (2) all automatic equipment was in stasis.
Those first weeks, I could still hope that every ninety clays the stasis would flicker off while the autons checked the Peacer bobble. I couldn't imagine how all this had happened ( I still can't), yet it might turn out to be one of those stupid mistakes one can laugh about afterwards. All I had to do was stay alive for ninety days.
There's damn little outside stasis, Lelya. There was no question of salvaging Fred. Looking at that compact pile of funk, I was surprised how little I could do with it-even if his power supply had been on my side of the bobble. Monica Raines is right about one thing: Without autons, we might as well be savages. They are our hands. And that's not the most horrible part: Without processor and db support, I'm a cripple, my mind stuck in molasses. When a question occurs to me, the only data is what's wedged in my own gray matter. The only eyes I see from are my own, fixed in space and time, seeing only a narrow band of the spectrum. To imagine that before our time people lived their whole lives in this lobotomized state! Maybe it helped that they didn't know anything better.