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“Philosophically that may be sound enough, but I'm not interested in abstrac­tions. I'm interested in my daughter.”

“How much do you think your daughter may be interested in you? I know that sounds callous, but I can see that you have some idea of affinity in mind. You're mis­taking civilized custom for natu­ral law, Frank. Perhaps we all do, more or less.”

“I don't know what you mean.”

“To be plain — if Jannessa has survived, she will be more foreign than any Earth foreigner could possibly be.”

“There were eleven others to teach her civilized ways and speech.”

If any of them survived. Suppose they did not, or she was some­how sepa­rated from them. There are authen­ticated instances of children reared by wolves, leopards and even antelopes, and not one of them turned out to be in the least like the Tarzan fiction. All were sub­human. Adaptation works both ways.”

“Even if she has had to live among savages she can learn.”

Dr. Forbes faced him seriously.

“I don't think you can have read much anthro­pology. First she would have to unlearn the whole basis of the culture she has known. Look at the different races here, and ask your­self if that is possible. There might be a veneer, yes. But more than that—” He shrugged.

“There is the call of the blood—”

“Is there? If you were to meet your great-grand­father would there be any tie — would you even know him?”

Franklyn said, stubbornly:

“Why are you talking like this, Jimmy? I'd not have listened to another man. Why are you trying to break down all that I've hoped for? You can't, you know. Not now. But why try?”

“Because I'm fond of you, Frank. Because under all your success you're still the young man with a romantic dream. I told you to remarry. You wouldn't — you preferred the dream to reality. You've lived with that dream so long now that it is part of your mental pattern. But your dream is of finding Jannessa — not of having found her. You have centred your life on that dream. If you do find her, in what­ever condi­tion you find her, the dream will be finished — the purpose you set your­self will have been accomp­lished. And there will be nothing else left for you.”

Franklyn moved uneasily.

“I have plans and ambitions for her.”

“For the daughter you know nothing of? No, for the dream daughter; the one that exists only in your mind, what­ever you may find, it will be a real person — not your dream puppet, Frank.”

Dr. Forbes paused, watching the smoke curl up from his cigarette. It was in his mind to say: “Whatever she is like, you will come to hate her, just because she cannot exactly match your dream of her,” but he decided to leave that unspoken. It occurred to him also to enlarge on the un­happi­ness which might descend on a girl removed from all that was familiar to her, but he knew that Franklyn's answer to that would be — there was money enough to provide every luxury and conso­la­tion. He had already said enough — perhaps too much, and none of it had really reached Franklyn. He decided to let it rest there, and hope. After all, there was little like­li­hood that Jannessa had either survived or would be found.

The tense look that had been on Franklyn's face gradu­ally relaxed. He smiled.

“You've said your piece, old man. You think I may be in for a shock, and you want to prepare me, but I realize all that. I had it out with myself years ago. I can take it, if it's necessary.”

Dr. Forbes' eyes dwelt on his face for a moment. He sighed, softly and privately.

“Very well,” he agreed, and started to talk of some­thing else.

“You see,” said Toti, “this is a very small planet—”

“A satellite,” said Jannessa. “A satellite of Yan.”

“But a planet of the sun, all the same. And there is the terrible cold.”

“Then why did your people choose it?” Jannessa asked, reasonably.

“Well, when our own world began to die and we had to die with it or go some­where else, our people thought about those they could reach. Some were too hot, some were too big—”

“Why too big?”

“Because of the gravity. On a big planet we could scarcely have crawled.”

“Couldn't they have ... well, made things lighter?”

Toti made a negative move­ment of his head, and his silver hair glistened in the fluor­escence from the walls.

“An increase in density can be simu­lated; we've done that here. But no one has succeeded in simu­la­ting a decrease — nor, we think now, ever will. So you see our people had to choose a small world. All the moons of Yan are bleak, but this was the best of them, and our people were despe­rate. When they got here they lived in the ships and began to burrow into the ground to get away from the cold. They gradu­ally burnt their way in, making halls and rooms and galleries, and the food-growing tanks, and the culture fields, and all the rest of it. Then they sealed it, and warmed it, and moved in from the ships and went on working inside. It was all a very long time ago.”

Jannessa sat for a moment in thought.

“Telta said that perhaps I came from the third planet, Sonnal. Do you think so?”

“It may be. We know there was some kind of civili­za­tion there.”

“If they came once, they might come again — and take me home.”

Toti looked at her, troubled, and a little hurt.

“Home?” he said. “You feel like that?”

Jannessa caught his expression. She put her white hand quickly into his slaty-blue one.

“I'm sorry, Toti. I didn't mean that. I love you, and Telta, and Melga. You know that. It's just ... oh, how can you know what it's like to be different — different from every­one around you? I'm so tired of being a freak, Toti, dear. Inside me I'm just like any other girl. Can't you under­stand what it would mean to me to be looked on by every­one as normal?”

Toti was silent for a while. When he spoke, his tone was troubled:

“Jannessa, have you ever thought that after spending all your life here this really is your world? Another might seem very ... well, strange to you.”

“You mean living on the outside instead of the inside. Yes, that would seem funny.”

“Not just that, my dear,” he said, care­fully. “You know that after I found you up there and brought you in the doctors had to work hard to save your life?”

“Telta told me.” Jannessa nodded. “What did they do?”

“Do you know what glands are?”

“I think so. They sort of control things.”

“They do. Well, yours were set to control things suit­ably for your world. So the doctors had to be very clever. They had to give you very accu­rate injec­tions — it was a kind of balan­cing process, you see, so that the glands would work in the proper propor­tions to suit you for life here. Do you under­stand?”

“To make me comfort­able at a lower tempe­rature, help me to digest this kind of food, stop over­stimu­lation by the high oxygen content, things like that,” Telta said.

“Things like that,” Toti agreed. “It's called adapt­ation. They did the best they could to make you suited for life here among us.”

“It was very clever of them,” Jannessa said, speaking much as she had spoken years ago to Telta. “But why didn't they do more? Why did they leave me white like this? Why didn't they make my hair a lovely silver like yours and Telta's? I wouldn't have been a freak then — I should have felt that I really belong here.” Tears stood in her eyes.

Toti put his arms around her.

“My poor dear. I didn't know it was as bad as that. And I love you — so does Telta — as if you were our own daughter.”