Mila sat next to me. Legs crossed, wearing a trench coat, cigarette in hand, watching the smoke slide into the moonlight.
I sat up. My arms and my shoulder ached but I wasn’t hurt.
A darkness of ocean lay all around. I’d been out for most of the day.
“Good evening, Sam,” Mila said.
“Howell sent you.” My God, the trouble they had gone to.
“Howell. Name does not ring bells for me.” Mila took a drag on the cigarette, crushed the embers against the steel. She looked out over the long expanse of the Atlantic. The helicopter was gone.
She opened a bag and pulled out a bottle of Glenfiddich and two small glasses.
“Well, that’s one true thing about you. You actually do like Glenfiddich,” I said.
“And my name is actually Mila,” she said. “A doctor might say it’s not good to drink after a sedation dart, so I only give you a bit.” I held my glass and she clinked it against mine. “For medicine.”
“What are we toasting?” I asked.
“Freedom,” she said. “Yours. Mine. The world’s.” Mila sipped at her whisky. I didn’t want any but I took the barest taste.
“Ollie will be missing you, his best bartender. If the wind shifts we may be able to hear his bitching.”
“Who are you?”
“Mila, I said.”
“And who is Mila?”
“I am your friend, Sam.”
“I can find my own friends.”
Mila gestured across the expanse of the ship. There was no sign of the crew, no indication anyone was watching us. “Forgive me. You have so many friends. Where’s the back of the line and I’ll wait there.” Sarcasm suited her.
But I was not in the mood for moonlight and whisky and wit.
“Who do you work for?” And who had the considerable resources to do it, I didn’t add. Teams of men, thermal imaging, a jet helicopter. It had to be Howell.
Or maybe Mila was part of the people who grabbed Lucy, who framed us. They might not want me coming to Europe. The frame against me and Lucy had been elaborate. But… I was just one man. This was a lot of trouble for anyone to go to. And if Mila was connected to the intruder, well, then I should have been dead already—taken back aboard the helicopter, shot, and dropped into the cold gray of the Atlantic.
Mila took another sip of Glenfiddich. “My employers prefer to remain anonymous.”
“Are they the same people who grabbed my wife?”
“No.”
“Are you from the Company?”
“No.” And she made a slight face. “I do have an offer to make you.”
That wasn’t hard to figure. Someone who hoped I was pissed enough at the CIA for treating me like a traitor to turn me into an actual one. “I’m not interested.”
“I’ve arranged for cabins. Let’s go down and talk.”
The night air on the open Atlantic was cold. I nodded. I followed her down to a cabin. The two crew members we passed stared at me with barely disguised hostility.
“Speaking of friends,” I said, as Mila closed the door behind us.
“Your fighting them has cost me several thousand in bribes.”
“Sorry.” There were two beds. I sat on one. “All right. I’m listening.”
“First of all, I wanted to talk to you, not hurt you. And I wasn’t going to spend weeks searching containers for you.”
“You are Company.”
Mila fingered another cigarette in her pack, but then seemed to reconsider. “Are you dense? I have said no, I am not CIA. I have been many things in my life but never that.”
“So who are you?”
“The question, Sam, is who are you going to be? The government spent a great deal of taxpayer money to train you, and it wasn’t to refill pretzel bowls and bruise gin in martinis and phone taxis for drunks.”
“So you want to make the most of that investment. You and whoever you work for.”
“Let’s discuss your wife.”
“What about her?”
“You must have your theories about what happened to her,” Mila said. “You don’t believe she betrayed you. Framed you.”
“Framing me didn’t require me surviving the blast. She didn’t have to get me out of the building.”
“But if she was a captive, why was she allowed to save you? Why would her captors help you?”
“I don’t know.”
“Perhaps she made a deal with them. Spare you, and she would cooperate.”
I said nothing. The thought of Lucy sacrificing herself for me weighed on me like rocks tied to a drowning man.
“But there is the question of all the money she had, all the money she moved before she vanished.”
“How do you know?”
“I know about the money she moved. It doesn’t matter how.”
I studied Mila’s face. I could grab her, throw her against the wall, force her to tell me who she was. But I could tell force wasn’t the way to deal with her. She had a lot of resources and she’d chosen to speak with me alone. As an equal, not as a prisoner. It was the first time in a long while someone acted like I could be trusted. “I can’t explain. I think she’s alive.”
“I think Lucy Capra was a traitor, paid for her work,” Mila said evenly, “and, once she was pregnant with your child, she decided to get the hell out of the situation while she could. She was going to have to go on maternity leave in a matter of days. Her work logs, her computer activities would have been under another agent’s direct scrutiny in your office. Her trail could have been discovered.”
I let the words settle. “You’re wrong.”
“The alternative is a monster under the bed,” Mila said softly. “The alternative is that she never loved you, she used you, and then she framed you to look like a traitor. She murdered your friends. She made you a pawn.” Mila pulled a face. “I want to know what you truly think, Sam. You worked some of the most dangerous jobs in Europe. You cannot be a man easily fooled and have survived. Tell me what you really think.”
No one had asked me that in so long. “She’s not a traitor. We were both framed. They took her, to find out what she knew. The Company’s been trying to break the back of the new order of transnational crime rings, especially those with ties to governments, whether friendly or not.”
Mila waited.
“Lucy would be valuable to those kinds of criminal networks. She knew more about our infrastructure, our computer systems, our ways of tracking financial data. She would be more useful to them than I would be. They would have targeted her. I think she warned me to save my life.”
“Yes, she is useful to them,” Mila said. “And you are useful to no one now, except me.”
“Useful to you. How?”
“I could give you the freedom to find the truth.”
“Freedom?”
“Time. Resources. It’s hard to conduct an international search for your wife and child when you’re ordering tonic water by the case and cleaning the beer taps and under constant surveillance. And if they catch you now?” She shrugged. “You’ll be in their prison for the rest of your life. The waterboarding was a bitch. I’ve seen the tapes.”
“I won’t be free as long they’re hunting me. And as long as I don’t know what’s happened to my family.”
“They made you into a soldier for the shadows; they made you play a role where you would have been tortured to death if you’d been discovered. Smuggler, hired gun. They made you their weapon, and they don’t need you anymore, Sam. How long did you last on the waterboarding? A minute? Most people don’t make it past the twenty-second mark. You are strong.”
“How are you not Company but you’re watching Company tapes? Did you find it on YouTube?”
Mila risked a smile. “According to the file, you were never waterboarded. According to your file, your wife is considered missing in action and you have resigned from the CIA. Your file indicates you did not do field work, but were a minor administrator with limited duties. They’ve rewritten your history to make you unimportant.”
“All neat and tidy. It never happened, like Howell likes to say.”
“If Lucy was a traitor, she may have compromised a hundred agents in Europe and beyond. She might have given them secrets in trade for your life. Maybe that’s why they let her save you.”