Anyone who wanted to become a Prussian officer knew that the way to that goal was no bed of roses. He knew that before it was his turn to be allowed to give orders, he had to learn to obey and would be drilled more than the others. Walter was the son of a blacksmith from Reichenbach in the Eulengebirge. For him, the career of an officer offered an unparalleled opportunity to rise in the world. For the inspiring prospect of being able to become an officer with his Field Marshal’s baton in his knapsack, he, whose father was serving as master blacksmith in a baggage-train, would have taken upon himself more than such trivial and short-lived moments of disapproval. For him it was true when he said, Wer auf die preussische Fahne schwört, hat nichts mehr, was ihm selber gehört, ‘Whoever swears on the Prussian colours no longer has anything he can call his own’.
At New Year 1941 he had had one over the eight in the officers’ mess in Mörchingen. A comrade, just as drunk as he was, smeared boot polish on his face. After reveille for the New Year parade, two hours later, he had trouble getting rid of the biggest smears. The half-hour march through Mörchingen with ‘dressed’ rifle had been a sobering experience for us all. On our return to the barracks, the commander of the Ersatz unit carried out the inspection of the New Year parade. But since the ‘old man’ was obviously ‘sozzled’ himself, he had not, luckily for Walter, discovered Walter’s face covered in boot polish. So, at least that time, Walter did not attract attention. But then, in September 1943, I realised he would never again rub his sleepy eyes and, as he once did, enthusiastic and happy, shout down from his bunk into the room, imitating the radio announcer: ‘Good morning, today is Tuesday, the 6 September 1943…’
It was about 20 September when I took over command of the 10th Company that I had left at the beginning of August as a platoon leader. The company had shrunk to less than the size of a platoon. I arrived in the middle of the withdrawal. At that moment the Russians were not pressing and the withdrawal movement could proceed by day. Reconnaissance patrols tentatively feeling their way forward could be seen through the binoculars. Since the type of terrain allowed it, we withdrew in broad formation just as we had advanced to attack in the opposite direction. A line of field grey, a kilometre wide, was striding over the steppe-like landscape. The men were holding their rifles over their cartridge cases, the gun barrels, like their faces, lowered. From time to time officers stopped, turned round, and looked through their binoculars. Like an unfolded fan, drawn along by an invisible hand, we left the silent land behind. We could not suppress a feeling of saying ‘farewell’.
Having been ordered to, I had to look around once more in order to scout out a village that was slightly to the side of our route. I had to see if it was occupied by the enemy. When I arrived within 300 metres of the village with my two volunteers, we came under rifle fire. Bullets whizzed into the damp grass. It was friendly of the Ivans not to let us come any nearer to the edge of the village. But because of that our task was quickly done. We had ascertained that the village was occupied by the enemy, and were able to withdraw, darting from side to side. It was not easy because the terrain offered no cover.
The Division’s route led southward past Smolensk. I could no longer hope to be able to visit the town a fourth time. I regretted my laziness that had prevented me from looking around properly on my previous visits. I would never again be able to wander up to the cathedral of the Assumption of Mary, and I would never again be able to sit down against the eastward-facing fortifications of Boris Godunov. That was something which I had always intended to do, inspired by Napoleon’s equerry Coulaincourt. Then I should have wanted to look down upon the burning city, just as a Wurttemberg artillery major had looked, in 1812, from the walls of the fortifications. He had seen and drawn it with the mighty towers and delicate battlements. Whoever holds Smolensk holds Russia, was how the saying had gone in those days. Then the city had been alternately Russian, Lithuanian, Polish, and Russian again. To draw lessons from history was not for me at my age. That the fortunes of war had changed was something that I would not have been able to judge.
On the night of 25 September we moved through Monastyrschtschina. Here and there a house was on fire and in the light of the fire could be seen a former church and many clean little wooden houses. On the western edge of the little town we stopped for a short while. There I took over command of the 3rd Company. It too was then only 28 men strong. The 1st Battalion, to which the company belonged, was under the command of Hauptmann Beyer who in summer 1942 had been my company commander.
Beyer was determined to let the exhausted men of his battalion sleep for the rest of that night. For weeks they had only had on average two to three hours of sleep. Even then all that could be expected was scarcely likely to be more than four hours. The next village, Worpajewo, was our destination. Each of the weak companies took a card, and the men, who were dead tired, immediately fell to the ground. The company commanders still had to go off for a meeting at the battalion. They were told that the withdrawal was continuing and they would be moving off again in the early morning.
The meeting was interrupted by a Feldwebel who had gone down a little way towards the village in order to ‘organise things’. God knows what the man had hoped to find. In any event he reported that out of the darkness he had been greeted with a shout of Stoj, whereupon he had withdrawn. This was obviously a damned nuisance to Hauptmann Beyer, because he said in his dry, Berlin way: ‘Oh, get away with you, man, they were volunteers whose nags had bolted, stop the bother’. None of those present could bring themselves to contradict him. They did not want to disturb the longed-for peace and quiet. I assigned the watches and lay down with my men on the flat tiled floor, my head in the hollow of my steel helmet.
At 3.30am, the time we were ordered, the battalion assembled on the village street, the companies in ranks, one behind another. We were not even out of the woods when shots whipped along the village street. Men were falling, others were crying out. Panic took hold of the mass of men, who were still drowsy with sleep. Everybody was running and no one was listening to my command. As I ran I snatched a machine-gun belt from the ground and hung it round my neck like a scarf. During the one kilometre flight I turned round several times and saw some cavalry and infantry, perhaps dismounted Cossacks. It was incredible that a handful of enemy had actually put us to flight. But still there was no stopping. Some swine of a machine-gunner had dropped the belt that I was then carrying round my neck. Another whom I overtook, I caught throwing away a box of ammunition. ‘You lousy sod’, I bawled at him and gave him a kick in his behind. When he picked the box up again, I kept him with me with the intention of getting hold of a machine-gun. But still the mass of men had not been brought to a halt. I saw the battalion medical officer, Dr Kolb, shot down as he was struggling to bring a machine-gun into position.
A quiet unheroic man had done what it was our job, the troop officers, to do. Violent rage seized me. Finally I managed to get hold of a machine-gun and the two gunners. I snapped at them, ‘We three are now staying here, even if we have to die here. Do you understand?’ Jawohl, Herr Leutnant, they answered, shocked. Behind a low rise in the ground we went into position. With a few spadefuls the machine-gun position was improved and a small amount of cover was produced. In the complete calm that then gripped them, the two machine-gunners carried out their well-drilled handling of the weapon. The Russians were leaving some time before they followed up. The last stragglers of the battalion passed, then the first gunner let fly with his first bursts of fire. The Ivans went to ground and disappeared behind undulations in the ground. Fifteen minutes later the formation of the battalion was re-established. Hauptmann Beyer had had a line drawn up. When at last the first machine-gun began to chatter behind us we three were able, alternately running and jumping, to withdraw to the battalion line.