I said, “Nice night.”
“Uh-huh. But a little cold.”
“You ought to put that coat on.”
“I know, but I hate the way I look in it.” Her eyes reached for mine, caught hold. “What time is it?”
“I don’t know. I think around three-thirty.”
“Pretty late.”
“Uh-huh.”
I lit a cigarette. I shifted stupidly from one foot to the other. I said, the words oddly spaced, “Do you want to go out?”
“Sure.”
“Okay.”
She tossed her own cigarette aside. “How much will you give me?”
I shrugged.
“Will you give me twenty?”
“All right.”
Her face, small and birdlike, suddenly lost its tension and relaxed into a quick smile. She moved forward from the shadows and took my arm. She asked if I had a room we could go to. I said that I didn’t Wasn’t I staying at a hotel? I said I was staying with a friend.
“There’s a hotel a few blocks from here where they know me,” she said. “We shouldn’t have any trouble getting in. The night man knows me. You mind walking a couple blocks?”
I had a sinking feeling that she was going to lead me to the Maxfield. I asked where the hotel was.
“Forty-fifth Street.”
The Maxfield was on Forty-ninth. I said it was okay, and we crossed Seventh and Broadway and headed downtown. We turned the comer of Forty-fifth Street and she made me wait in a doorway to make sure we were not being followed. I waited while she returned to the corner and checked. She was visibly relaxed again when she returned to me.
“If there are any police back there,” she said, “then they’re invisible. What’s your name?”
“Doug.”
“Mine’s Jackie.”
“Like Jackie Kennedy?”
“Yeah.” She squeezed my hand. “Jacqueline,” she said. “You figure she’ll sue me for having the same name?”
“I don’t think so.”
“People get on your back for all kinds of reasons. Like when I had to check for police, that they might be following us. I didn’t mean to leave you standing there like that.”
“Oh, that’s all right.”
“But it has been very warm here lately. A lot of arrests, you know. Ever since the killing.”
The angel had brought it up herself. “I read about it.”
“It’s a scary thing. You never know who you’re going with, you just go and hope it’ll be a nice guy. Like you seem like a nice guy to me. I like uniforms.”
“Even on cops?”
She laughed, delighted. “Except on cops,” she said. “What are you in, Doug, the Army or the Air Force?”
“Army.”
“I suppose I should be able to tell, but I don’t know the difference in the uniform. Were you overseas?”
I made up some fort that I was stationed at. I don’t. remember it She asked something else, and I passed the question and asked her if she had known Robin Canelli.
“I knew Robin very well,” she said.
“Were you out that night?”
“Yeah.” She sighed, and squeezed my arm tighter. “it’s just across Eighth Avenue on the right You see it? Hotel Claypool.”
“I see it.”
At the corner she said, “Yeah, I was out that very night. It was Saturday night, I was out. It could of been me. The next few days after I heard what happened I couldn’t eat I couldn’t go out nothing. All I could think of was it could of been me. You just never know what you’re getting.”
“Uh-huh.”
“And, you know, you’re all alone in the room with a man, and what are you going to do? I never had anybody like that. Of course I didn’t otherwise I wouldn’t be here. But some strange men. A lot of them who want to slap a person around and other things like that Strange. I wonder what makes a person that way?”
The desk clerk at the Claypool looked like that actor who always plays the terrified bank teller in holdup movies. His eyes bulged behind huge glasses. I gave him $5.25 for the room and the tax and signed the card Major & Mrs. Douglas MacEwan. He gave me the key and left us to find the room on our own.
It was a flight up. There was an elevator but we took the stairs. The room was small, with a bed and a dresser and a sink and a chair, nothing else. A card on the dresser advised that television sets were available. I wondered if anybody ever wanted one.
It’s a clean place,” Jackie said. It did seem better than most of the hooker hotels. She switched on the overhead light a dangling bare bulb, and closed and latched the door. She turned to me, and I looked at her face and tried to guess how old she might be. She had old eyes, and the skin around them was drawn and sallow, but her mouth looked young and her face unlined. Late twenties, early thirties.
“I’ll have to ask you for the twenty dollars now,” she said.
I found a twenty dollar bill and gave it to her. I was running low on money. The sailors and Doug had provided me with operating capital, but it wouldn’t last forever. At twenty dollars an interview, I wouldn’t be able to ask very many whores what they knew about Robin Canelli.
“Thank you,” she said.
She put the bill in her purse, put the purse on the chair, draped the raincoat over the purse, and turned to smile at me. Her fingers, trained by frequent practice, worked the buttons of her blouse. “You can get undressed now, honey.”
I sat down on the bed and took a lot of time unlacing my shoes. I kept a careful eye on her to make sure she was undressing. Sometimes a hooker will wait until a John is undressed, then bolt with his money, figuring he can’t chase her without any clothes on. But she was playing the game honestly. She took off blouse and bra and skirt She was not wearing a slip, just a pair of white nylon panties, torn on the side. She took these off, too, and I looked at her.
Very slender. Thin in the wrists and ankles. Fragile. A good trim bottom, and breasts that were small but nicely shaped and firm. Economical breasts, an economical body. All things in moderation, nothing to excess.
I wanted her.
Which was absurd, but undeniable. I had both shoes off now. She leaned against the dresser, lit a cigarette, watched me patiently.
I said, “I don’t suppose you actually saw this Robin girl get picked up by the killer, did you?”
“Why?”
“I just wondered.”
“To tell you the truth, I don’t even like to think about it. It gives me the shakes.”
“I can imagine. Then you did see him?”
“Who?”
“The killer.”
“No, I didn’t I think I was with somebody at the time.”
“Oh.”
She moved closer to me. I was on my feet now, unbuttoning my shirt. I suppose in the army they call it a blouse or a tunic. I was unbuttoning my shirt, and trying not to notice the closeness of her, the pale skin, the needle marks on the upper arms.
“The way you talk, you sound more interested in Robin than me.”
“Oh, I was just interested.”
“Uh-huh. Aren’t you gonna take your hat off?”
She reached out a hand, took off the dress cap. I started to smile, and then I saw the change in her eyes and my own smile died. She took a step backward, looked at me, looked past me at the closed door.
I said, “Take it easy, Jackie.”
“You’re him.”
“Jackie-”
“Oh Jesus God.”
“I’m not going to-”
“You cut your hair but it’s you. Oh Jesus God in Heaven. Oh my God.”
One hand was at her side, the other at her throat, as if to ward off the knife I did not have. Her face was absolutely bloodless. I have never seen anyone so profoundly naked.
“I won’t hurt you.”
If she heard me she gave no sign of it. She stood, quite frozen, and then after a moment her little hand fell in slow motion from her throat to her side. She drew a deep breath and closed her eyes.
She said, “You want to kill me, do it now. I could stand it now, I don’t care, I’m not afraid. You want to kill me, do it now.”