My books, someone thought, all my beautiful books!
The woman stumbled to her feet, tried to find a candle. A candle, fool, in this?! She waded across the floor of her main room, water lapping around her shins. How much water is there? Where can it come from? She reached out and touched a leather binding on the shelf and in that moment knew the books were lost.
She heard a laugh behind her and turned. A woman's voice said, 'What is it worth now, all the money you married?' The voice was rough and silky at the same time; an old woman's voice.
'Is it still coming in?' Mrs Tung screamed, twisting around. Mrs Tung was young, supple, and strong.
'It is roaring down every slope.' Hearing that voice, Mrs Tung's heart sank with a sense of oppression, overruling, and contempt.
Mrs Tung waded her way through the flood. 'Are the children upstairs?' she demanded.
'Oh,' said the dark voice, 'so now you remember you have children?' The voice was bitter, triumphant, and full of hatred.
Mrs Tung pushed past her, feeling her old, quilted overcoat. The old woman laughed again, a familiar hooting, a slightly hollow laugh.
Then, from outside the house, from the slopes above, there came a spreading hiss and clatter like applause, as if all the stones of the valley were rising in tribute.
'Lily! Ahmet!' Mrs Tung called, in the dark, to her children. A thousand rolling pebbles clattered against the house like rain. There was a boom! and the house shuddered.
'Mrs Tung,' Mae tried to say. The words went somewhere else.
'Lily!' Mrs Tung shouted again, her voice breaking. The house groaned, and something made a snapping sound.
Mrs Tung bashed her head on a doorway, heard a wailing in a corner. She scooped up a child in thick pyjamas. Mae could feel the button-up suit made of flannel, smelling of damp dust.
'Where is your brother?'
The child could only wail.
'Lily! Where is Ahmet?'
The child buried her head and screamed.
Mae thought: Lily? Ahmet? Mrs Tung had another family? Another family before the Kens? Who?
Mrs Tung turned and begged the quilted coat, 'Mrs Yuksel, please! Have you seen Ahmet? Has he gone down the stairs?'
'Yes,' said the calm dark voice. 'He went out the front door.'
And the certain, terrible knowledge: Ahmet's grandmother did not want a half-Chinese grandson.
'You let him out!'
The laugh.
'You let him out to die!'
Carrying Lily, Mrs Tung thrust herself past her mother-in-law.
'Ahmet! Ahmet!' Mrs Tung wailed a whole broken heart. She plunged down into her front room and into mud up to her waist. The front room was choked with it. The child in her arms kicked and screamed.
It was all Mrs Tung could do to shrug herself around, turn, and wrestle her way back towards the stairs. As her foot struck the lowest step, still under mud, she felt a scurrying sensation round her knees. Water was flowing in over the top of the mud. The water was still coming for them, inexhaustible. Bearing Lily, she hauled herself up.
'Mrs Tung! Mrs Tung!' A voice was pleading.
Her own voice. If this voice was her voice then who was she?
'Mrs Tung, this is just a memory. Mrs Tung…'
What? What?
'This is all Air, Mrs Tung!'
'Water!' she shouted back, and rose out of the mud. Hatred swelled out of her heart. She felt the wall of the staircase. On the wall was a family sword.
'So you will not inherit my beautiful room,' said the laugh.
Mrs Tung swung the sword. The laugh was cut off. Mrs Tung turned and ran into the upstairs corridor. The wooden timbers creaked, like a ship. The entire house shuddered, heaved, and moved forward from its foundations. It twisted and began to break apart; she ran towards its end room, the one with the beautiful window, the one that looked back towards home, to Kizuldah.
She heard a great collapsing behind her, felt timbers separate, fall, rumble like barrels. Somehow she kicked glass from the window. Lily screamed. Reflected in the roaring water was fire, leaping along rooftops. Mrs Tung jumped, falling many feet, out over the downside of the slope, awash in a wake of water. She fell through warm air down into a snow-cold, icy torrent.
Everything pulled. Lily was pulled from her. She slipped away like a scarf into the current.
'Mrs Tung!'
The water was blue.
'Mrs Tung, this is just a memory, this is not really happening!'
Then why is the air warm? Why is the water cold? Can you feel water in memory?
Mae held and pulled, resisted the Flood and the backwards pull.
Somewhere dimly there was singing. Turandot was being performed. Three old men sung about their lost homes. 'Kiu. .. Tsiang… Honan.'
'There, Mrs Tung! We need to get back there!'
From somewhere, Old Mrs Tung said: It was real. It was as real as now and as important. My Lily was real.
Mae said, 'We need to get home!'
That was home! That is real! It all gets washed away. I can die, that means nothing, but a whole universe dies every day, slowly, slowly, it deserves remembrance, here, see it was beautiful, beautiful!
'Dear Mrs Tung. Sssh. See? See?'
Life like a mountain, huge, cold, fearsome, ice with water wreathed in cloud and air and sunset, too big, too strange.
Suddenly they were standing in a courtyard, a courtyard at night.
Mae said, 'Mrs Tung, that is the Format.'
Why are there neon signs? Help? Entertainment? I have done with all that, I am too old. In the corner there is a TV set. When did we get a TV?
It is showing an opera. I have never seen an opera. It is the opera in Balshang, and I have always, always wanted to see that, oh, the red and the gold! And look at the jewels as they sing! I have heard this on radio, and dreamed, there she is, there she is, the Princess, singing of a beautiful woman who died centuries ago.
In the opera, a woman sang, 'Principessa Loo Ling, my ancestress, sweet and serene…'
'Mrs Tung? Mrs Tung? I'm afraid, Mrs Tung. I have to go.'
Then go, child.
'I have to get back.'
You go on. I will stay here.
Mae pulled herself away, and felt herself stretching, held by someone else's thoughts.
She goes. I always thought Lily would be here to meet me. Instead it is Mae, faithful little Mae, who helps me across.
Our flesh is earth and fire our desires, and the fire burns through the flesh, the water washes it all away. And what is left is air. And air rises towards heaven.
There was a sense of parting, like a sprain.
Mae was separated from Mrs Tung, and standing in the Format, demanding in terror, 'How do I get back?'
Air answered.
'Leaving Airmail in the event of an emergency: every message area has its own entry protocol which should prevent access to the full mind.'
Mae cried, 'I've got access to the full mind!'
It was cold inside Mrs Tung, and the cold seemed to clasp and hold and freeze.
'Protocols can break down in the event of illness or extremes of emotion. If you find your mind in contact with more than the Airmail area of the person you are contacting, first find your own Airmail address. Concentrate on that area as if in meditation. Repeat your address like a mantra …'
Her address? Mae remembered. 'Mae, Mae, Mae, Mae…'
Something brushed past her. Darling child, it seemed to say.
'Mae, Mae, Mae, Mae, Mae…'
That was what Mae was saying, over and over when she woke up, lying on the floor, holding Mrs Tung.
Mae knew then why the old woman had laughed through the last sixty years of her life. It was not to keep up her spirits. Mrs Tung had hooted all her life from heartbreak.